I can’t actually believe I’m making a post about this.
Lucifer and I go waaay back, he’s the one that guided me into this path when I was just a child. The bond we have is great and deep, without a doubt. He’s been there for me in absolute pain and happiness. There are times we don’t speak for months to a year yet it doesn’t change anything. It feels like he’s always near me, even if we don’t speak.
When I’m in a specific pathworking or in an intense work with a spirit, my focus is on that spirit and nothing else. In this case I’m currently working with Belial since I’m walking through the 9 Demonic Gatekeepers pathworking.
A few hours ago I felt a huge feeling all over my body on how much I miss Lucifer, it’s been a while since we spoke. I missed him so badly that it started to hurt. The feeling calmed down then I saw his name on this forum while I was just checking around so I decided to call him simply by saying his name and he came directly, giving me physical signs of his presence. I just wanted to feel his energy, that’s all. After the signs I decided to go into a deep trance because I wanted to talk to him, see him. I told him to hang on, I wanted to light some incense for him. Then it came to me that I should draw his sigil on me just to make his energy flow through me but I couldn’t decide where I would draw it then he told me that I should draw it where my solar plexus is. Why? I don’t know and I didn’t really care, so I did it.
I layed down and started to relax, everything started to spin and I felt some vibrations. I saw how the sigil on my solar plexus started to spread light over my body, getting activated. I chanted his name and told him to choose a place. Then I was in complete darkness, I walked and I saw a door. I opened it and went inside and then there was another door, I opened it too and I understood that the more I keep opening the doors the more I’m getting closer to Lucifer. Then I opened another one and I saw some stairs going down, I went down and I felt vibrations. Then out of nowhere in my mind I saw Sam Winchester from Supernatural. (favorite show ever)
I thought it’s either me lacking focus or it’s Lucifer taking the form of this character since I’ve been binge watching the show for the 6th time. Then I was in a room, it was pretty gothic, I was standing in front of a large gothic royal bed with red sheets. (I didn’t understand why we were in a bedroom but I didn’t care enough to ask) I didn’t see Lucifer, so I told him to manifest. There he was, taking the form as Sam, I was surprised that he chose Sam because Lucifer has taken the form as Lucifer from Supernatural plenty of times before, the difference is that he looked like Sam but the eyes were the eyes of a reptile and he had black claws. It felt great seeing him again.
We spoke a bit then out of nowhere I was laying on the bed. Naked . Then I saw him on top, yes - on top. He didn’t say anything and he started to kiss me and then doing the yes, do I even need to say it? I wanted to ask him what the hell he was doing and why since we have never been so sexual with each other but somehow I was paralysed from speaking and honestly, I enjoyed it. It was good, very good. I’m not sure if this matters or not but I felt it pulse down there which I normally don’t when I’m turned on. ANYWAYS. I felt also a tiny bit of nausea in the middle of it all, maybe because of his strong energy or maybe the because the incense was strong? I’m not sure. I also felt how the place of the sigil started to itch like crazy. He finished inside me and then I could finally speak.
Lucifer: Because you’re mine.
I’ve never been so shocked and confused in my life.
Me: Excuse me? I’m nobodys.
He started to laugh like crazy and I got even more confused because I’ve never seen this side of him before and I wanted to ask what the hell that means but he interrupted me and said " You’ll find out, wake up. " And I opened my eyes and I’m still in huge confusion. He was gone the second I opened my eyes.
Honestly I feel so used.
It’s super embarrassing sharing this with you all but I need some advice why the hell he was doing this and if this has happened anyone else. I just wanted to talk to him.