Hi fellow friends.
I’m not sure what’s happening to me since severing all beliefs with the common god and my Hindu religion. I never felt an acceptance and one day it suddenly hit me that Satan was my true god.
As I performed my initiation to satanism, it took several months to shake off some of the anxiety that popular horror movies depicted about Satan, the devil and demons.
I’m now fully comfortable with these entities and see Lord Satan/Lucifer as THE true god. I say his enn as much as I can whenever I get the time. I’m unable to freely practice the new religion due to family reasons so no alter or paraphernalia and evocations only when nobody is home or very late at night.
But, things haven’t worked out much better, I’ve been blighted with bad luck, ill health and no real long lasting results from my requests of help.
I started a new job over a year and what should have been an exciting new career I’m finding it a real challenge and difficulty in focusing and progressing further. I’ve lost motivation and now hate the job but, the money is great. It seems to me that I’m a salve to the job because the money is good and no other jobs are coming my way.
Duke Sallos seems to have abandoned me and I’m not getting any results from him much.
My health is going downhill, I’m full of injury so unable to enjoy gym anymore. I’ve gained weight and have several illnesses that just don’t get better. Anything good that happens soon turns bad.
I’ve suffered from bad depression for a long time but it’s just gotten quite bad for over a year now. I’m full of low esteem, feel gloomy, unhappy and things just keep going wrong for me.
I thought I was being tested but now I’m really at the end of my tether!!!
I don’t know but it’s seem that there’s a barrier or force that seems to be holding me back (as there’s always been throughout my life). I’m stuck with nothing getting better.
I really don’t know what I should do. I’ve asked Lord Satan for forgiveness if I’ve done wrong and I’m a newbie and still learning.
I recently replied to a post and said it’s like I’m on a roundabout ride, everyone’s off the ride is doing great. I’m stuck going round and round and round… that sums up how my life is😞
Your thought, suggestions welcome.