Hey guys, I had a dream a while ago that I only decided to write about now. This was shortly after that other dream I had that I thought Lucifer was in, or it’s the same dream, but it’s been a while so I don’t remember so well. Anyway, I’m sure Lucifer is aware of me being confused considering my RHP inclination. Before watching EA Koetting’s videos and joining this site, I did (do?) have the belief that RHP is real, karma is unavoidable, ascension (through light) is inevitable, and all LHP entities are simply egregores or something else, that aren’t really alive to begin with. I believed it was possible to achieve power through LHP, but not ascension or escape from our optimistic, love-filled, peace-attained ultimate destinies.
In this dream I’m talking about, I was lying on my side in bed and Lucifer was lying behind me and whispering things to me. He was giving me important knowledge, and even though now I remember very little, I know that at the time I wasn’t even hearing everything he was saying. Could be cause of resistance or fear, I guess. The only thing I remember him saying was something like “and they will ascend in equal numbers from the Earth…” and he was talking about those who ascend from the earthschool, reincarnation. That when a few finish/ascend/whatever, for the few that become enlightened and move to higher realms of RHP, an equal number ascend into LHP. As if it’s a balance of the universe or something. So he was letting me know that there’s more to evolving as a human than just the path of becoming like Jesus and Buddha. You can “finish here” in a different path.
I didn’t believe my beliefs would change again. They’re wavering now. It’s slightly alarming, but not as bad as when I stopped being Christian. The stakes were higher then, with my brainwashed belief in eternal suffering. It’s working the same way, a gradual change. I’m beginning to believe LHP entities might not be confused themselves. Which is a big thing to admit. And potentially very dangerous, when we admit to ourselves that we have the power to hurt people. And instead of being governed by rules, we have to rely on ourselves to do the right thing, and that might not be enough.
Neither side works with the other I’m sure. RHP doesn’t want you to go to LHP and vice versa. I’m about to write stuff about RHP and even now I feel like something wants to stop this change in direction. As far as the grey area in-between is concerned, I’m not sure how stable that is a place to dwell. I thought LHP was the black AND all the shades of grey, but maybe not. I’ll say this of my experiences with both. LHP is much more forceful. The entities will pull you in when they can. I’ve felt much more tangible power than with RHP. LHP makes you ascend while RHP moves at your pace. HOWEVER. I see so many of you struggling with issues, anxieties. RHP is passive and teaches you to overcome issues by practicing unconditional love, BUT there is never a lack of support or healing. The angels and guides never stress you directly, not the way LHP do. I feel like so many of you would benefit from opening yourself to the RHP current as well. Though like I said, I’m not sure how stable the grey area in-between is.
I’ve read some alarming stories of people here having vivid, painful dreams brought on by demons and then they were granted power afterwards. RHP never let me believe it was possible to go the other way, a lie of omission I guess, and LHP might have you believe following their way just fuses you pointlessly back into the source (it doesn’t). I’ve never feared a demon or someone here might hurt me because I’ve felt so safe in RHP, although the further I stray the more I wonder if I might have to take extra precautions to protect myself. I’ve noticed some of you who approach RHP deities do so through your LHP beliefs and experiences, and you do strange things like evoking with them, when all it takes to get to know archangels is talking to them and normal intuition. I admit though, that LHP is far more powerful and tangible than what I’ve felt with RHP.
Anyway this is long enough as is… thoughts?
Side Note: I just had the funniest realization. Funny, but also a little worrying. I’d been watching tarot astrology videos on YouTube and they were all talking about this Mercury Retrograde coming up, so I was focused on it before it even hit. All the way through I was thinking ‘this retrograde has had no effect on me, must be cause I’m a Libra and my ability to communicate is so awesome (feeling smug)’ and then it hits me a minute ago: My phone has been broken for the entirety of this retrograde. I’ve had no internet, no access to Grindr or other apps, and it has been very hard to communicate with anyone. (Now I’m using a computer at work). My phone should be fixed in a few days, when the retrograde ends.
So now I’m a little nervous. Since I knew the retrograde was coming, my beliefs probably caused these infuriating last few weeks. I probably shouldn’t have put as much attention on the retrograde as I have. Or as some of you have suggested, a ritual to banish its effects could’ve been more effective. I could’ve made this side note a separate post but it really is best not to draw more attention to negative beliefs that literally feed off attention.
It’s like star signs, I believe in them but I’m not sure whether its our beliefs in them over the centuries that have made them real or whether it was just always real by itself.
