So, I’ve been unable to practice for quite some time now. But, now I’m back. There was a question that I’ve spent the last two months thinking about. How do I tell what is Real and what is not?
I have summoned spirits to a certain degree of success but how do I know it’s not just my imagination? I feel that my experiences were real but a doubt makes me consider that they weren’t. I also feel that I unfairly dismiss any proof as coincidence or fancy.
For example, I feel that I can speak with these entities (namely, Paimon, Asmoday, and another unnamed) all through internal dialog. These conversations move very quickly. In other words, I could never carry on a physical conversation with another person so fast unless maybe it was scripted and rehearsed. The answers are always there before I can even ask in my mind. I can’t help but feel that after conducting a “formal” ritual, now I am in constant contact.
Which makes me feel like I’m a crazy person. How do I know that I am not crazy? How do I know that it isn’t all just my imagination or hallucination? Just typing this question makes me feel insane and a little silly. But, I’m sure if anyone would understand, it would be the people on this forum.