[quote=“Mode_439, post:1, topic:3125”]Greetings BALG Forum,
One of my dear friends committed suicide this past Sunday, leaving a wake of sheer pain, rage, and disappointment for his immediate family, friends, and loved ones to live with.
His life was plagued with drug-addiction and an underlying unhappiness. There were times however that he was “happy”. However, the type of happiness he had was mostly relying on “outside” conditions of happiness…i.e, business is going good, new girlfriend, money in my pocket…etc.
Now, yes, if one is to live in this world these things do bring a temporary happiness. Who would NOT want their business going well, or their relationship with their children/girlfriend going great
I’ve been contemplating his death for the last three days, and the thought of “what is happiness?” keeps coming into my mind stream?
I could type some more things about my own personal experience, theories, and beliefs…but…I think I’ll leave the rest of this up to all of you.
So, what say you BALG Forum?[/quote]
First, let me say that I am deeply sorry that this has occurred. We all lose friends and families to various things such as old age, disease or at the nastiest suicide.
For me, I remember being in this state a year ago when I was essentially homeless (though a friend took me in until I could get a new place) and broke, working a shit job. It seems to me that since I never save money, it hits me at the lowest level of the hierarchy of needs.
We all want security, housing, food, transportation, loved ones, gf/bf, money. Sometimes we have to work for it and sometimes we have to get it by other means.
It’s hard to see what you have going for you and how many people care about you.
I would then say first and foremost, procure your basic needs, and then be open to love and happiness. A lot of build up walls so to speak, to avoid being hit at the hardest, sometimes we need to tear them down and take the hit and endure it.
Much love to you brother.