Let’s analyze the desire, the mind, and what has been done. I converse with Azazel daily now and am reminded to pay attention. So tell me what do you desire most?
Hm…I think…to be left the fuck alone?
Health. To be powerful enough to not depend on anyone and help and defend those in need.
I don’t have a most desired thing lol.
But you are socializing now, is that what you really want?
What steps are you taking to accomplish this?
Then you have no immediate need for anything
One thing? Honestly, to use what limited time I have to acquire all the knowledge I can through experience. I could argue that I desire money, property away from others, power through learning from spirits, etc but in the end, it all boils down to experiencing life and learning from it.
What steps are you taking to accomplish this then?
There is a sad contradistinction between what I WANT and what I am supposed to do, if that makes just any sense. I like silence, the absence of mind and interaction. But for whatever funny reason I always end up in predicaments where interaction and socialising leads to comforting side effects, such as professional success which equals that I can rest my ass in a comfy home instead of working three jobs at once to make ends meet. And sadly I am also part artist, which means that this part relies on reflection and reaction.
Am I a clown?
Nope, I am the whole fucking circus
I just want a safe a healthy pregnancy.
I want to rest. I deeply desire it.
Are the comforting side effects as important then compared to your true desires? I understand the comfort, but it always leaves us believing we can never receive what we truly want.
I want to gauge a response, are you expecting complications?
Sounds easily accomplished, what’s the issue then?
For now I am only meditating and trying to learn more things, and eventually find my real self
Yes and no.
But isn’t that grande? Never being able to receive what we truly want so something keeps us going and kicking? I think thats part of the monkey brains motivation, at least for me.
You have so much to learn and live, tiny racoon.
I desire to find out what my biggest desire is.
What if I told you to start small and find one act of kindness you can do for someone once a week?