Well you know, before looking at an entity, have you tried doing any practical personal inventory, being completely real with yourself? I just ask because I was in this position a few months ago, and I really had to check what my definition of discipline and personal mastery were. For me, I wound up admitting that I had accepted the idea of what these things were; “Work hard and be serious” “commit to a rigid schedule”, “Ascent is the only thing that matters”… that all sounded so epic, but when I looked at it experientially, for me… it was a load of horseshit.
Hell man, if you have so much power, and you can feel it coming through, maybe you might need to chill a bit. Let it show you a bit, then maybe that can quell a bit of the frustration. I found that I made excellent plans, only that while formulating these plans, I was doing nothing. Yet, while still doing nothing, I was getting random money from nowhere, y body was improving despite eating foods that were not agreeable for me… a whole bunch of crazy shit.
So you know, first try to make sure you actually know what discipline and self-mastery are for YOU, and then see if that ideal is even shit that makes sense for you to follow. There are some people who can be magicians by mastering the art of bumming… Just a thought