Hello to any and all who stumbled upon this thread. As I’ve seen with many other Black Magicians on this site, I intend to catalog my experience and in time, hope to gain insight, companions and most important of all:
First, lemme explain a few things as to my own philosophy into the Mysteries. Unlike many who wander the trail of the LHP, I myself do not wish to obtain power. To strive to be the biggest and baddest of the black arts seems…childish. Not to discredit anyone who chooses that as their main source of inspiration. It’s just not a solid enough reason for me to put the prosperity of my carnal and spiritual form on something mundane like the egotistical want to be able to influence more.
As Koetting put out, most who become Black Magicians are trying fill in a void that was deprived from them as a child. The ungodly call of the damned having found the right ears to spread their unsavory revelations. Yes, I have had a troubling childhood, per say, but my hunger for the Mysteries is more than that.
I’ve studied the art of fighting for the past 6 years and currently trying to develop my own ‘system’ of Martial Arts where you invoke demonic energy for reinforce your attacking strength. Much like what you see on japanese cartoons only this being actually possible in some way.
Because of this, my mind set for my magick is based on the aspects of Eastern Philosophy and the methods used are more akin to shamanistic/animistic style of spiritual work like Vodoun and Native American Shamanism. Ally yourself with the spirit on a energetic level and then allow the demon to express itself THROUGH you. Taking possession to the next level!
This is partly because I’m a hell of a lot better as sensing as opposed to seeing anything right now so I’m working on that for the time being.
[Hehehe…Besides! Anyone can learn to SEE something. How many people can say they can sense what demon is where on intuitive insight alone? I’d be like the ninja meditating and like 6 people appear but he already sensed them coming miles away! lol]
From that state of mind, from the warrior’s perspective, I know what power is. Albeit, the power used by a Magician isn’t the same kind of power as a Martial Artist but, even so, power is power. Crazy enough, however, the same techniques used by a Magician is the damn near exact same methods used by a Warrior. Just tweaked slightly for a different goal.
The only thing I care for in this world is having the strongest (mental and physical) weapon which I can point and obliterate all in it’s path. To enhance my spiritual vibration to a point where, if disturbed, I’d rain the fury of a thousand suns upon my enemy.
A fated King can build a army from nothing. Alone.
A fated Warrior can turn a army into nothing. Alone.
So, why do I follow the Left Hand Path? The same reason why many stay away from it. Fear of the unknown. To quote the Hagakure (a type of bible for the way of the Samurai) by Tsunetomo Yamamoto:
“The Way of the Samurai is found in death.”
As Samurai, or any honorable warrior class for the matter, living to preserve your life is pointless. Warriors seeks to destroy themselves for the sake of honor, glory, and upholding the esteem of your Retainer/Master. These warriors do this put already considering themselves dead and living as a soul already on the path to death. This fear is nowhere better tested than in the dark arts where death is just another tool used in the Black Magicians tool box to cause change in the world.
I’ve chose Azazel to be my spiritual and physical retainer. Only by charging head first into the Lake of Fire can I, without a shadow of a doubt, be worthy of the Demonic King’s prestige.
By following the RHP, I can’t push myself to the limit. I can not face Azazel on my deathbed knowing I existed trying to be one with a source who is not one with I. Suffering is good on the path to carnage, and aiming to dive into the Lake of Fire’s pain is not only a goal but a show of my resolve to face any and all with a warrior’s zeal.
Source only gave me the sword,
the Demonic Empire will give it a edge .
As of now, I have a just a single goal:
Enlist into the ranks of the House of Anatel as a Demon Warlord. It’ll be a long and treacherous journey but only on this path, when suffering and under the pressures of the Infernal Empire’s trials and tribulations, can I be liberated of this meek existence.
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