Why do I find it easier to visualize/imagine stuff outside of a ritual but I have the hardest time in a ritual?
Likely expectation and distraction.
It is probably due to the different mindset you have during ritual. If you are worried about “doing it wrong” you might be trying to force the visualization when you’re in ritual instead of allowing it to naturally form in your mind.
You put too much pressure on yourself.
Okay, so I think I’ve found the problem. Earlier today, someone on Facebook shared a post with which I will show below.
I’m required to visualize a life without my trauma and honestly I don’t know how to do that. I’ve developed this identity around it and can’t recall a time without it.