Dude, don’t worry! He is baiting you. Wants to test your commitment, to see if you’d lose hope and quit just after being given a vague anser. Belial did that to me and I thought less of him, taking me quite some time to realize he was goading me into taking matters into my own hand and not rely SOLELY on him for changes.
It is a test, your best bet is to summon him again with more resolve of solving stuff. He might have been “offended” (fakely, you know, to bait you) that you’d consider him your only hope or the solution to everything wrong. He wants to see some degree of cooperation and willingness to act.
See for example what Valefor told me when I asked how could I achieve perfect and instant comunication with spirits as anyone would dial a number in their cellphone:
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His answer: “The dead are your best bet, pliant, servile and subservient if you manage to break them”. He explained he meant the unruly, powerful dead people, masters and teachers who bow to no one unless shown a mixture of respect and capacity.
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His abridged ritual: Basically a month worth of starvation, isolation, and daily ritual, with around 3 major works during 24 hours, and no possibility of distracting the mind.
That means a whole month of no TV, no internet, nothing but you and the pervasive feeling of your own misery and confinement. Nothing but magick on your mind. Plus you’re forbidden from speaking out loud if it is not by whispers, and ONLY if you’re performing some rite. Groans are permitted.
He obviously explained that the key here was to experiment incredible depths of suffering, a pain akin to that of prisoners and lost souls. Only by becoming like them you may have mastery over them.
- My conclusion: Well at least he was honest to tell me what to expect, and it was only then when I understood his smile. He meant to tell me I am not prepared, not in a derisive way, but to convey the knowledge that I’d need at least a month of personal time. Which sure, I can manage that, but it would mean a lot of work, from paying bills to finding a shelter to keep my dogs for that time, tying lose ends, etc…
Maybe, MAYBE that is what Lucifuge s telling you, that there is so much more than just calling him up and asking to get shit done. In my opinion you need to sit down and write on a paper ALL which you consider that must be fixed, and go step by step rather than try to get it all fixed in one go.
It would be like you having a car crash and not even bothering to have it towed to a nearby garage before calling the mechanic. Or, even worse, calling him and going “I don’t know what the fuck’s wrong with it, drop by ,my house and fix it in the same day”. The demand is kinda big.
SO HERE IT BE A LIST OF THINGS YOU GOTTA GET DONE BEFORE ATTEMPTING A PACT:
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Pacts are coaching programs, a “this for that” on the basis that (in Koetting’s words) the spirit will help you achieve a certain goal BUT will call you out on your bullshit and procastrination.
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Asking things in vague terms gets you nowhere. Sure the spirit is all knowing (presumably), but it’s nice to communicate with people, isn’t it? Imagine you called a techie to fix your computer and he just takes your machine and won’t let you say what you think it’s wrong.
Imagine if he came up with a huge bill because he fixed things you didn’t want, like adding a new video card because yours is out of date, without even caring that you never wanted that in the first place.
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Raise barriers, have exorcism compements and incantations ready in case shit goes awry. Not saying it wil, but at least shows effort from your part. Do your exercises.
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Stock up on incenses, candles and the like, you might be asked to perform a devotional ritual at some point, and maybe more than once.
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Do what Koetting did: For the duration of the pact work with no other spirit.
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Open magick squares, do candle magick, novenas (9 day consequtive rituals, one per day, at the same time and place) and any ritual that is in consonance with your goals. Why? Why not? Abuse the system, spam your will into reality, AND THEN summon a spirit for the finishing touch. That way you’re sure you can’t fail.
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Realize that some spirits don’t like certain kinds of people. Orobas hates my guts and won’t even tell me why, feels insulted when I summon him to the point he appears as a huge guy with a horse head and demonic, red eyes instead of the small horse or donkey appearance he usually adopts.
Maybe Lucifuge feels you need to merit his assistance.
- On the same page as the former point, Azazel was kind with me at first and wanted to offer me a pact. He did not say on what terms or for what reason/objective exactly and declined. Afterwards I kept calling him for some questions, and he soon grew bored before telling me not to summon him ever again if it wasn’t for something “serious”.
On the other hand I’ve found people here on the forums that entered a pact with him and things went good, too easy good I’d dare say. The reason why he’d take them instead of me? Who knows! Maybe those peeps needed his assistance more than me, maybe they deserved it more, maybe because they took him as their patron in the sorcerous arts while I’d feel offended if Belial took me under his wing because I see (personally) that asking that from him is shameful on my behalf.
But I don’t dwell on it. Azazel told me no? Ok, maybe there is a good reason, maybe there is not, I focus on WHAT I WANT DONE, and look for alternatives.
You know, it would be like realizing your pen does not write well, and instead of grabbing another one from your desk you keep on rubbing the tip against the paper until it works. What you get in the end? An ugly job. Sure, it will work for a little while, but you’ll bee soon enough crumpling the shit out of your notebook.
All because you could not let go.
Be reminded, since we all work with demons and devils, of the 15th card of the Major Arcana in the Tarot: Attachment is the greatest evil. It is good to have a drive for success as big and strong as demons have, but it is of no use if you keep using all your force to crash head first unto a wall.
So dude, it’s ok! It happens to everyone! He said he’ll think about it? Ask him again! Go for another spirit! Don’t take it personal, the path of magick is long and seemingly endless, no point in stopping now.
As a matter of fact, you’ve done A LOT. See your friends, co-workers, family members and acquitances. WHO OF THEM CAN SAY THEY SPOKE TO AZAZEL’S TWIN? If you could do that while most of them would not even dare to think about it? Yeah, you’re already a winner, man. A fuckng star dare I say.
Now go forth and conquer.
