Hi, so I have already posted an introduction. So to start, I barely have experience with spell work. I didn’t want to make this post even longer than it already is, so I’m okay to answer any questions in the comments if anyone asks for more details. My life hasn’t been that great, I had managed to do inner work and It was always filled with blocks and it seemed like I was always restricted, no matter what I wanted to do, and had also been suicidal. At one point, I also became bedridden for a while due to bad health. However, I was fully aware that I had reached the maximum of what I can take in this life, and I both cannot manage anymore towers(especially if they’re much more dangerous) and I also refuse to. A person can only take so much in life.
I was researching spiritual things online, I didn’t know how to do an evocation, or invocation and I haven’t tried them. Some of the demonic kings came through in visions and I would sometimes hear them say words or sentences. The connection wasn’t strong enough to hold a conversation. Because I was bedridden, I couldn’t get up to cleanse, banish or ward everyday even once I learned that I should. Also, I know that this sounds weird, but I can’t help but wonder if these spirits or some other force manipulated my technology because while I was doing online research, it seems like I would always find positive things about working with spirits but hardly any warnings in time. And because these spirits came before that, I wasn’t ready to make an informed decision. I feel like I was tricked into a path that I didn’t want and wasn’t safe for me, especially in the position that I was in while being chronically ill. By the time I did find warnings online, it seemed like it was too late. If I knew what I know now, I would have already come online asking for help as soon as those spirits showed up before things got worse. I did think that what if I was dealing with tricksters, imposters, and astral parasites, but because I found out from other people’s posts through online research that the actual spirits from any pantheon can still sometimes be unkind, be domineering and not respect your concerns or your free will, and take advantage of you, especially if you’re in a position where you either can’t get rid of them or don’t know how to. I’ve also read about it being the same spirits that I was dealing with doing stuff like this. I also became a targeted individual from gangstalking after these spirits entered my life. My safe living situation was compromised, and I think that Azazel might have had something to do with it since it happened when he was there, and he was also really domineering towards me. I asked Lucifer to remove him when I asked any of them for help and put out some offerings for them, but it seems like none of them wanted to help, and that made me feel unsafe and made me not want to work with them. I want to be very clear that I’m not trying to disrespect anyone’s path or the spirits that they work with. If I was to work with spirits I would want to not be bedridden and have astral senses strong enough for me to be able to hold conversations with them, and not keep around any that didn’t respect my boundaries, consent, free will, and need for my safety and peace of mind, especially after everything that I’ve been through. I also want to make it clear that I never agreed to any pacts while I was awake.
Since the living situation didn’t get to be resolved on time, it led me to more unsafe situations and trauma and made me want to leave this world again. Another spirit came to my mind (also a demon), but because my astral senses weren’t strong enough for a conversation, I paid an online practitioner that works with Goetic demons to do an evocation with them and then tell me their instructions for that and then later for another distressing matter. I did find another safe place to live in because the spirit came through. However, it turned out that the practitioner was one of the ones who will do the work to the clients’ face, but curse them behind their backs. That’s the last thing I need. I was starting to get strange visions, and visions that they also bound me, and placed a watchful eye on me. I also saw a vision that said “You jail,” which made me wonder if I was gonna get falsely accused and arrested, when I’m not a criminal. I also found out that they gave my info to other online paid practitioners(some of them do these things. I’ve seen other people complain about it online too). My devices were also affected by it. I opened my YouTube fyp, and it was filled with videos of homelessness, moving(like people moving into a different home) and prison. The “prison” could also mean binding or that my soul is imprisoned. My apartment was filled with shadows. I also seemed to already have an attachment that’s possessing my head and body. I’m getting strange visions like, I see something online and then it appears in a vision, or vice versa, not in a “making me more psychic” way, it’s probably more to make me think that I am, to try to control me which I really don’t want and maybe fuck with my head. I can’t connect with other spirits much through visions anymore, and I shouldn’t because I’m being astrally watched. I also feel like I’m getting poked with needles, feel pressure inside my head, and feel energy surrounding me when I lie down, especially when I try to sleep. I think that they also made a poppet of me based on a dream.
So far, I’m burning sage and using palo santo everyday. I tried to imagine wards once based on the technique that I found here, but it didn’t work, and I knew that even if I could do it, I’m being astrally watched, so I can’t continue. I have listened to subliminals, frequencies and meditations to remove the attachment and it would always come back. I also can’t sleep because of it and now I can’t sleep until the morning and it’s making me miss out on daylight, which is worsening my already bad health. I have also found out that the attachment that the practitioner sent me to partially possess me as part of the curse is most likely Belial. It seemed like he has taken advantage of this whole situation to try to take over my life and control me. He has already really pissed me off. I had a dream where he disguised as a TV character I had a crush on as a kid where he tried to make out with me and showed me papers saying,”community service.” In that whole dream I was being controlled. I was really pissed off when I woke up. I think that he forced me into a contract in my dream(this happens-I once read an internet comment where someone complained that a certain known spirit did this to them). Someone else on here not that long ago said that they stopped talking to Belial because of his bad behaviour, so this doesn’t surprise me. I wasn’t awake, so it shouldn’t count. I know about his reputation. There was something that some other spirits wanted to help me with, that I’m suspecting that he sabotaged and if that’s really the case, then I’ll never ever forgive him for it. And that was my last straw with life and it’s not fair to the other spirits either that wanted to help. I’ll most likely get into that in another post later. He also keeps sending me visions and signs on the internet that he wants me to sell everything and move to another city that I really don’t want to live in, in another country which I don’t want to go to, and to go to school and get this particular career that I don’t want at all either (even if I wasn’t chronically ill, and when I was healthy, I also found out that I’m one of those people whose ancestors wouldn’t let me work normal jobs either on top of that). And even if I wanted to eventually do that if I was healthy, I would want to pick the place, career, which spirit to guide me and make sure that I’m in a position where I can hold a conversation with the spirit. I kept telling him off and telling him to leave which he won’t, on top of everything else that I tried so far. I’m also seeing “signs” on the internet that are triggering, that I’m suspecting he has to do with, like trying to force me to go out and be social and pour from an empty and broken cup, which is bad, because even if I wasn’t chronically ill and really depressed, I’m still a targeted individual, and I learned to avoid groups because of narcissists running smear campaigns and being an empath really doesn’t help (not trying to play victim, just being honest). I keep seeing “forced synchronicities” of things that I really don’t want to do, and that don’t resonate with me at all. I don’t agree with him on so many things, and I don’t feel aligned with him on top of how much he’s been pissing me off. At one point when I woke up, I heard him say, “You have two months…” And then “You have a couple of weeks…” And then after I tried playing a banishing/warding subliminal with my headphones on, the next morning, I heard him say,”You owe me one…You’re lucky that I let you sleep.” That sounds threatening and I don’t owe him anything, considering I never asked him to come and with everything that he’s done. Please help, before he throws me a tower! That would be way too unnecessary and dangerous for me right now, especially regarding my current living situation(which I’m safe in right now). And I can tell that he doesn’t care that I’m chronically ill and with poor mental health, and that I know that I shouldn’t be working with him and I really don’t want anything to do with him. I’m suspecting that he already caused a fight with my dad (who helps me pay for my rent and food as I’m still chronically ill, so I still need it). These spirits are treating me like someone in a wheelchair being thrown off a cliff while being expected to walk. I want my freedom, the right to my free will, and I also miss sleeping at night! I really just want my peace, and I want my life to be mine again. Please help me get rid of Belial! I’m suspecting that Azazel is back too, because I would sometimes have visions where I see a goat saying,”Prison,” to show me that I was still bound by the curse, and he also works with the person who cursed me, which is also why I don’t want him back, on top of a previous safe living situation was compromised when he was last there so I think he had something to do with it on top of being domineering towards me and not caring that I really need a safe place to live, especially as I’m chronically ill, a petite 4’11 woman, empath and a targeted individual. I recently saw him in more visions again. I also don’t want any visions or to hear any spirits for a while so that no spirit comes and tries to control me. Now there’s also a white mist that I see in my place everyday-probably a monitoring spirit. I was afraid that I would get blocked from being helped if I posted about this, but if people already have their own protections on them while reading this, I’m not sure if it would still happen? I was also worried that I might get attacked even harder after posting on the internet because of the watchful eye put on me.
I was wondering if anyone could please help me to remove the curse and forced possession from Belial, unbind me, remove etheric attachments, cloak me to keep me hidden in the astral and help remove the watchful eye, and adding a hard shield and wards that also keep out spirits I want blocked from me? Can someone also ask Lucifer to break the contract that Belial forced on me from that dream? (I could no longer connect to him even before all of this and if he doesn’t want to help, then maybe Lucifuge Rofocale?) And even if any contracts are from before this life. I also want both Belial and Azazel blocked from me. Also, just a heads up-I think that the person who cursed me also worked with Lucifer.
Also, can anyone evoke King Beleth (the male version) for me since I can’t in my situation? Lately, I feel connected to him for some reason. I feel a very strong pull towards him. I think that he’s been trying to reach out (I’ve been seeing signs of him everywhere), and I find he’s been on my mind a lot lately. Maybe he has an important message for me regarding my situation, and I’ll see how that goes. He appeared to me in person a few years ago when I was grieving really hard for my cat when she passed away, and he stayed for a while, even though I didn’t know who he was at the time, but I’m not fully sure yet if it was really him and not an imposter or parasite. But aside from him, I think that it’s better for me not to connect to any infernals or spirits in general for a while since I don’t know who’s fully loyal to me right now. …I have also already posted about this in the request thread, and gave more details in this post. Thanks for reading.
…I unfortunately can’t afford to buy any books right now…I have already tried to connect with a couple of the servitors from this website before I made this account, but I don’t think that it worked, but that might also be because my astral senses aren’t that strong right now and because I’m also being watched astrally by the person who cursed me(they placed a watchful eye on me). I have tried to create wards once from a tutorial on here where you imagine creating them, but I don’t think that it worked for the same reasons. I also posted on the request thread about this, hoping that maybe someone can do it for me from a distance and then teach me how I can maintain them. Thanks.
I’ve tried getting in touch with Archangel Michael a few times, but I haven’t seen or heard anything back, so I’m not sure if he’s been around. After this situation happened, I’ve also tried a meditation involving some angels that are supposed to be invoked into you and help, but after I tried this, it came back. Anything I do, it either comes right back or it stays and fights harder. My symptoms are like that of a mental parasite. I’m wondering that if I try to contact more spirits (even angels?), the parasite(if it is one) will pretend to be them, kind of like what FireSun said. I think what I need is strong wards to help keep it out…Also, nice dp! I have a shirt with the same pic. Dark Throne is a great band!