So I was trying to do some visualization for something specific and I got myself calm and tried it, except it didn’t go well.
Instead of having intrusive thoughts in which I assume are words, phrases or having an entire dialogue, I have another problem:
The fact that I can’t hold an image still.
I can visualize something perfectly fine while reading or just do it extremely vague on my own without anything else, but with actions or detailed things my mind just go nuts.
“Oh you’re trying to imagine going into an underground city or something? Nope, you’re now in a random forest, and now you’re in space instead.”
“You wanna take one step down the stairs? Nope, all the way down. Actually, let me teleport you into another place.”
The shit that my mind shows is so random and I just get so agitated at myself for not being able to control it.
Neither can I do it in first person and when I try it just pushes me out quickly. Sometimes I can’t even progress or walk further for some reason and I have to force myself to go. Sometimes I can visualize better with my eyes open than closed.
I don’t know if it’s just the lack of practice or focus or what it is. Hell, maybe even something external.
This is me venting but I hope you guys can give me some tips and help on how to “tame” it or control it.