Sorry for the length and any formatting issues. I’m a newbie, just made my account even though been toddling around the forum for a bit now but I’ve felt drawn to Lucifer and King Paimon from the beginning.
The other day I decided to try speaking with Lucifer after reading that he’s helpful to beginners since I currently can’t get my hands on anything like candles or incense to do it properly. It was very minimal effort honestly, I didn’t think it would do much but maybe have him take note of me, if even that, but I decided to try anyway because I couldn’t stop thinking about him. So I put out a chocolate cookie as offering then went to bed. I laid in my dark room and attempted meditation of sorts, thinking of Lucifer and his sigil and enn and such.
Then I got very very scared. I tried to keep my mind off it and basically just… started talking to Lucifer in my head lol. (As I live with family and am only semi-verbal I can’t speak aloud). I basically explained my interest in him and the occult and my goals and such. The fear increased but I kept on and I think I was hearing unusual sounds under the roar of my fan but I don’t know if I really did or was just imagining it. I kept talking. Eventually the fear peaked to the point that I was almost hyperventilating and asked him not to scare me too bad if he appears, but I still continued talking. Then after a minute the fear disappeared and I was able to relax. I thanked him for listening and fell asleep shortly after. I did it again the next night after another day of thinking constantly of Lucifer.
The main reason I want to speak to he and King Paimon is to ask for help improving my art skills. I mentioned it in my request to Lucifer, asking him to speak with me so I could exchange something- anything- for his help. I thought I got no response but decided to draw for the first time in quite a while the next morning and noticed my art had approved, even just slightly. It’s gotten even better over the past few days with no special effort on my part.
There was NO indication I’d been heard or helped, the cookie was untouched, I didn’t see any signs of being heard, yet it seems like my art has improved already. I feel like I’m going crazy; is it just in my head or did Lucifer quietly give me a nudge in the right direction without saying anything? Has that ever happened to anyone? Is there any solid way of figuring out if it’s just in my head? Also, any general advice would be appreciated. Thank you.
You won’t always feel things at first. Keep practicing and it’ll come more easily.
do you know any particular thing I could do to thank him?
