This is an interesting one for me as I have severe OCD so my mind doesn’t have a “pop up blocker” installed when it comes to intrusive thoughts. I’ve been able to leverage this where it’s actionable to get immersed in things like my company, music, study, etc.
I tend to have one obsession (usually a romantic prospect I go nuts for seeing that my heart is stronger than my head) that I have to act on over and over again in unrelated “mini rituals” and you can guess how the universe responds to that kind of arcane broadcasting… It doesn’t.
(If this is in the wrong section feel free to move it, the principle is general while the context applies to sex, love and relationships. Instinct says it belongs here)
There’s a girl I’ve been seeing for six months who became significant enough to me to take this repetitive place in my mind. We have amazing chemistry in every way, she’s obviously very into me but I feel like ever since my intrusive obsessions shifted to making my constant “mini rituals” about her there’s been a wall stopping the progression of the relationship.
I’m quite literally obsessed against my will with the manifestation of the result I want and even focusing on other women, producing a record, actively focusing on other things and doing my best to be as detached from it as I can be, it still evades me while being right in front of me just barely out of reach. (I’ll provide specifics in another thread if need be)
I was thinking maybe a servitor could help with this. How do you banish lust for result like this? Money Magick is easy yet closing the gap on an inevitible relationship with a girl who REALLY likes me doesn’t happen for whatever reason.
I’ve called on Raziel, Haniel, Sallos, and I did a small rite with Dantalion last night. Every ritual has felt great at the end like “it’s on it’s way, get stoked” but then I think my mind screws it up for me.
What would you do?