I made a post about this a few a days ago in the New Magicians category but didn’t get much of a response, so I’m here to try it again. I will copy and paste my previous post here for you all to read.
I am a new member of this forum but a long time lurker. I decided to finally create an account basically for the reason of this post. I need anyone’s help in maybe giving me some clues as to what happened with me a few nights ago. I may have made contact with Lucifer but I am unsure.
I am quite new to anything of the occult nature, though I have done much reading and digesting over a few years but I haven’t put much of that knowledge to use yet. The extent of my experience with anything magickal/Ritual work related has been my self initiation ritual into Satanism a month or two ago, and meditation daily. I used VK Jehannum’s ritual from his site. However, I am anxious to really get started when things regarding my living situation eventually line up.
Anyway, over the last year I’ve been reading much into the workings of the Qliphoth and demon magick. I’ve been very interested and as such for the last couple months I’ve had a cycle of Lucifer, Astaroth, and Azazel come to my mind. I think about at least one of them a few times during my day.
This brings us to the point of my post. Last week on Thanksgiving night I decided to take some acid and, truthfully, play video games and watch anime all night. Coming up on my trip (about an hour in) I had the urge to meditate for a little bit to balance myself. I started off kinda restless and my eyelids were twitchy (from the drug), but I persisted. In the past, a couple times during my meditations I would put on the video of Lucifer’s enn being said repeatedly to help me concentrate. Well during this particular meditation I had the urge to suddenly recite Lucifer’s enn in my mind as it is the first I’ve memorized. I must have only said it 5-6 times before I felt that balance and openness I usually get from meditation. I held it for a few minutes and called it good.
So I continue on with my trip and after one or two hours (maybe?) I was watching the anime when I paused it for a reason. It must have been 2 or 3 AM and I got up out of my bed and suddenly felt “something”. It felt like the pressure in my room changed somehow. I was basically paralyzed with an uneasiness I’d never felt before. I felt hyper aware, frozen, and like there was this “electricity” in the air. I had a candle lit on my desk and it was flickering despite there being no ceiling fan in my room. I also had some pressure on the sides of my head right above my ears. There was a moment when my PS4 completely lost connection out of nowhere during this as well, but then reconnected. I’ve read spirits can interfere with electronics due to their energetic frequencies, yes? I remained like this for maybe five minutes until I eased up and laid back down. The room felt somewhat normal again.
Now I know what this sounds like - “Oh just another burnout tripping balls and losing his mind” but I’d never experienced something like this before in the many trips I’ve had in my life. What do you, experienced magicians with spirit work have to say about this? Any clues or outside opinions to help a newbie out would be appreciated. And yes, I’m aware that if I’m gonna start indulging on urges to chant enns or anything of the like, I should probably banish. I just never thought of it since I wasn’t doing any “serious” work.
Thanks for any input you may have, it is appreciated.