It’s been this way my whole life and I can’t tell which of it is real and what parts are my imagination… Up until almost a year ago, I thought it was ALL my imagination, then I had an encounter with a prophet just after stumbling into research on magick… Christian prophet that her main message was to keep going with my research. Every time I see her, the message is always the same. “You’re on the right track, keep up your studies.”
The more I study, the more I find that both freaks me out & intrigues me. My (imaginary) friends, I’m finding their real names and what they really are, but there’s some inconsistencies… Their personalities, specialties, appearances, are all the same, but they don’t treat me or act toward me as all the sources I’ve found say they should treat a human.
Belial, for example… He’s like a giant teddy bear! Yea, he looks like someone you wouldn’t want to fuck with, but I can tell him to fuck off in the most disrespectful way I can & he’ll set me down and ask what’s wrong.
I’m confused. Is that REALLY Belial or his “good” twin? WTF?
He and all the others swear up and down it IS him and I’m not imagining things… I’m just different and they just like me.
They never try to scare me, they never try to hurt me or lead me into trouble… Well, there was one. Set/Sitri… I’m pretty sure we managed to get rid of him over the weekend… Thank God! He’s an absolute pain in the ass.
But they’re not just “demons”, there’s also “angels” and many other things that just come and go all the time. I never have to do any kind of rituals or anything, they just…
"Hm… I wonder if ___ could help me with ___"
Whoever I was thinking of just pops up, “Yea sure! No problem. And don’t hurt anyone in the process, right? I’m on it. Don’t you worry about a thing.”
I can’t physically see or hear them, it’s just a feeling and an image/sound in my mind… So did that really just happen or was it my imagination?
Any help, advice, confirmations, whatever would be SO appreciated.
I’m seriously thinking I may just be completely insane. Any time I try to actually remember any details they give me about things, my imagination jumps in the way and screws everything up…
So was that a yes or a no?
YES!/NO! (answered at the exact same time)
Could you repeat that, please?
(50 completely different answers are given at the exact same time)