I’ll try to keep this short.
I won’t say I was a full blown armchair , I put some decent effort in but I felt like I hit my peak a few months after I started practicing regularly but after that everything fell off hard. I sure as hell didn’t practice as much as some of the others on these forums.
I was mediating and trying to make contact almost daily , I was APing when I went to sleep , I even had what I assume was a goetic wake me up by tugging on my arm and appear to me in SP.
It was literally one of the most surreal experiences that I can’t explain to this day. There where nights where I’d meditate outside and outside of my circle I’d hear footsteps stop right in front of me. I’ve seen auras of things that weren’t there, etc.
After I got more comfortable and after the above spirit reassuring me there’s nothing to fear by saying “don’t be afraid” ( I realize now this is what she?meant ) I started evoking and making requests/petitions.
I had a few successes that I’m thankful for but as time went on things slowly stopped.
It’s almost as if right when my senses where starting to heighten they became closed off. Like I hit a wall.
I stopped seeing synchronicity in my magick. The more I tried the further I pushed things away.
There where nights where I’d work for hours on hours trying to evoke, develop my senses , etc.
Nothing every time. Not a shadow , a popping candle wick , a shift in energy, a face looking back at me in my scrying mirror, etc
I’ve realized that the occult is something I’m actually truly passionate about and when I take breaks I always feel that strong pull to come back , ya know ? There’s no doubt it’s meant to be apart of my life
I don’t know if hit a block or if maybe I’m expecting too much ? Take clairaudience for ex. Telepathy isn’t enough for me. When I evoke a goetic I want to be able to have an audible conversation and see some sort of shadow or feel that sharp energy shift in the room.
I’m gonna ease back into it and go a little slower this time but do you guys have any advice ? I feel a little discouraged
I’d ask a mentor for help but how would I be able to receive my feedback ?