I would first start by addressing this whole issue some people have with love spells. Why do you want to aim it at one particular girl when the real issue with romance is to get a suitable partner, not someone you have manipulated, or even bullied as it takes two to tango my friend and if she doesn’t want to dance then so be it.
I say it like this because we all have free will and you may very well be interfering with that, which means the ritual will backfire and you will be left pining even more for someone who has no desire for you. It is far better to aim that love arrow at the general population for a suitable girl, this will then allow the energy to get out there and circulate.
(I would only go for a particular girl if I knew that she liked me in that way, magic would then combat anything standing in the way such as other people or circumstances > this however isn’t in violation of her free will)
You also mentioned that you decided to perform a ritual to see if it would work. Under these circumstances I’m afraid the chances of something working as a means to simply ‘Test it’ are fraught with inconsistencies and negative feedback.
My advice to anyone would be to only perform magic when you really want to make changes and be prepared to act upon the opportunities given as magic will tend to follow the most easiest route at that moment in time.
(If I was a spirit my friend and you summoned me just to see if I had abilities then I wouldn’t show up at all. If on the other hand you were serious and prepared to act upon my help and guidance then I would have all the time in the world for you; Such is the basis of all black magical pacts > trust and respect work both ways or not at all.)
Had no exact idea how to do astral projection. I tried to envision myself leaving the body and walking around the house etc.. but It didn't felt real................Eventually I imagined and felt as if some hand took me by the head and took out my soul from my body as if you take out a worm out of its hole by it's end. But my soul's feet fingers still clung to me and I tried desperately to cut them off. When I did, however, I felt extremely nauseous which stopped me from continuing.
Imagine lying down nice and comfortably and suddenly jumping up, almost out of your skin? You could feel quite dizzy. Have you ever danced inwardly in your own world just letting the music take you? This can at times have a nauseating effect.
The above examples show two situations where we almost separate from our physical senses, or out of our bodies if you like and this can tend to bring on a light headed feeling as we are pushing ourselves out of our physical bodies too forcefully.
Try to be relaxed and open to leaving your body and beware of ‘fear’ as this can hold you back. Fear will keep you ‘in’ as we can get quite scared of leaving our physical bodies as this usually only happens at death, so the fear factor could quite easily become activated here, which is probably why you felt fingers clinging to you.
I walk home through a forest. And today as I walked home I felt as if someone was watching me again it was very potent and I felt scared for my life. I am sometimes scared in forest, but never when it's light and as much as I did felt today.
No you are not paranoid as you are open and aware of spiritual energy. In a beautiful natural environment, which isn’t interfered with by man’s emotional energy we can feel the beauty of nature and this is pure spirit (the natural world is the spiritual world; It’s the macrocosm.)
Some however question this with logic or get scared which is understandable. Learn to embrace the darkness, accept its power and it will come closer to you thereby opening up to you as you open up to it. Spirit tends to reflect our stature and will meet you half way when you are ready.
In a more manmade environment where buildings become unoccupied that have contained raw emotional output, you may also feel as if there’s something looking at you as the thoughts of others have become semi-moulded into a wandering spirit without no direction. Hence sensitive people like you and me pick up on this because the egregorical essence is simply looking for direction so speak to it and try to form a rapport with it. Yes it can be fuckin scary but embrace the fear and through this, you will become a more adept magician.
“Try and get to the stage where you can walk through the forest at night and feel protected by its power.”
Today I tried to extract energy from my classmate sucking from the back of his neck
I would say your attempt at draining energy was successful but you appear to have a particular type of ‘syringe’ and this can cause a physical impact on some types and because of this, they will feel the point of extraction so well done and keep practicing your vampiric ways if that is your intention.
So as you can see my friend you are not deluded or paranoid, you are simply learning what is usually not always seen by many and concealment in Latin is occulere, which is where we derive the word ‘Occult’ from.