I’m wondering what people’s thoughts and experiences are with synchronic events. I’ve had a thick string of 'em recently and would be grateful for some spiritual food for thought <3 Heads up, it’s a juicy, but traumatic string of events involving graphic DV/SV details so reader discretion is ADVISED!
Context: ended an intense, abusive, karmic, romantic relationship 6 months ago, with a very sadistic, dishonest, vampiric person. He really got off on controlling my safety but selling it as sexy and ritualistic, which, truth be told, was very my thing. But trust erodes and fear comes in, things fell to shite, he held on for a bit then ghosted. I learned he had a whole history he hid from me, as well as a lurking ex that knew all about me, his manipulation of me, how abusive the relationship was while under completely false pretenses, and had nothing to say when I sent her a polite, “I think we’ve been dating the same person and he did XYZ, just thought you should know.” So she’s quite complicit.
All that being said, I’ve had 0 contact with either party since July after finding out about everything, minus some sus burner accounts looking at my Instagram, but the psychic connection to my ex has still felt strong, and not in a “heart eyes” way. It feels nonconsensual if that makes sense. It’s been a long and intentional process healing from relationship’s abuse and learning to process the karmic lesson, being that I see through this person’s dishonesty to retract my absolutely golden love and stop romanticizing the martyr role (Pisces Rising LMAO) At first, that nonconsensual, psychic feeling was obviously the pain of heartbreak. But, as a sad girl with trauma enters somatic therapy, delves into Tarot divination, folk magick, and ceremonial magick, she gains reason about who the ex was, how to utilize her lesson, and moves on with knowing they’re not good for me. Heartbreak ceded, and I’ve been able to tackle the real scar: the fear he left in me, this terrified, animalistic, survival energy rooted in my nerves. AND HERE is where the problem comes in; after a recent series of random but seemingly connected events, I’m led to believe that he is doing some sort of magickal something to stop me.
So, these events: In the past 2 months, I’ve had some serious moments of personal power, holistic breakthroughs, acceleration forward, the first two being sexual. One was healing and gentle, one was absolute debauchery. Immediately following the gentle experience that helped me heal a lot of fear, I was hanging out with my lover, calm and peaceful, and suddenly felt this sore pain on the side of my nose, where said ex used to hit me, but nothing directly caused it. My nose even swelled and turned red, and nothing like a nose pimple ever came of it, so I supposed, “Oh, my ex is mad I’m healing from him.” It stayed for several days.
A month later, I engage in debauchery, which I anticipated to trigger me but actually went very well. I felt great and empowered, and then the next day, I randomly get a text from a friend: a picture of my ex on a date with a young girl I’ve never seen. I got really pissed. At first, heartbreak echoed, but then I was like THIS GUY SUCKS and that ceded. After some meditation, I realized it was about wanting this girl to not go through what I did, and moreover, not let him get away with it again. It got a rise out of me, but as far as seeing the event as a message or sign, I wasn’t convinced yet. I wasn’t convinced it was me receiving his spite like my sore nose after having a healing moment. Either way, I knew I wanted to focus on strengthening myself even more, so I craft a protection spell. Now, this spell is specifically crafted for sexual safety, involving a black skull candle (gorgeous) and a prayer to my Angels and Beast. I lit the candle every night for 5 nights and recited the prayer, then would sleep with it lit.
On Day 3, as the spell gained more power, the flame started popping. Day 4, more and more, in increasingly violent crackles as I tried to sleep, which I interpreted as, “I’m receiving a message, or I’m running into a spell that’s trying to interfere with what this one is doing.” So, I listen and receive images of a red umbrella → red umbrella becomes a red door in a dark hallway → hallway door opens and a shadow figure exits, coming toward me. I hear to “Get them out!” and “Lock the doors!” SO I gather my Angelica and sprinkle it in the four corners of my home, then burn it in my hearth. I lock the doors. I put on my Garnet cross. I pray, I pray. I sleep next to this popping flame feeling thoroughly protected, my spell written on a piece of paper under my pillow. I burn the candle down on day 5, c’est fini.
The week continues, and I land an opportunity of finding my ex’s car while out and about, which I took to spit upon it 3 times, my favorite form of cutting. I go on with my day, go to a movie with friends that night, and attend a local bar afterwards, where I FUCKING RUN INTO THE COMPLICIT LURKING EX OF MY EX. She WORKS THERE? And I just look at her, in this perfectly loud skirt embellished with mirrors, bells, and shells (literally), and I go outside, and I come back in, and she’s vanished. So I was stirred but got over it within the night.
And now, at this point, I’m convinced these events are synchronous. I feel quite certain he’s doing something magickal, consciously or unconsciously, to interfere with my growth, given that my moments of power are followed by random, external encounters, thus reminders of him. But I would love to hear other people’s experiences with this type of phenomenon! Because it could be anything, and I aim to avoid my blindspots like the plague. Thanks!!