Things Not (likely) Put in a Grimoire

Rough night. Rough day. Spent most of yesterday in the car.

As I opened myself up after today’s out-of-state guests (really enjoy it)…

One of the first spirits that came to me was a succubus I asked Lilith for. I was VERY deliberate, took over a year to ponder and think about.

She was perfect for me. It’s been 5 years and I still remember meeting her.

She “served” me well and I began to think about elevating her. Well, this happened, long before I moved back to the East Coast.

The “issue” is that we are bound. Will I stand in her way to progress?

No. “Amber is the Color of your Energy”.

Go free. Go in peace, my dear.

Call on me if you should.

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Which Satan is it?

This is the one I’ve been using, taken from here. If you’d like the specific time for this snip, it is here

I already had the Behemoth album, but this put it in a different frame. For I was doing the Helios Unbound stuff at the time and some of the wording was almost exactly the same to the song, based on the materials both were based upon.

But my mask of Satan changes over time. As I progress. As my needs, both wants and lessons needed) change. The last answered of the call was female. It’s been a while, since I’ve been working with others things as directed.

It was time to call, but not with blood and candles and incense. I wasn’t calling to request anything. I was feeling that it had been a bit (for me) and this was valid.

So, I thought of the sigil, put on the Behemoth song.

Her call came through. Originally, this was a male voice. The next was female. Sounding similar to Karliah from Skyrim. The kicker is that I “know” this voice. My senses know this voice and want to translate it, but there is resistance. Resistance from her, resistance from ME.

“You could find me out, but that would (could) rob you of an act I would commit for your cause that may not act in the manner I am known for” Karliah would’ve told you more bluntly, but someone (a Goddess or equivalent feminine force, do not forget) asking me to not dox them for my own benefit it… It was such a personal plea, where the undertones are both pleading for me to NOT while also saying I could…

My use of the sigil has cooled recently, due to other demands, but it is one I am still drawn to. As with my other contacts, I do not call them without cause and this seems to be tied partially to my Baal work, which was set down for another current at the moment. But that does not diminish my attraction to this sigil, nor curb my want of calling it with the song given, despite knowing it long before.

Is that NOT what many of us feel? Do we not feel that siren’s pull towards what we are drawn to, knowing that we may have to set it aside to work on what we “should”?

Hail (the mask of) Satan! May we step outside what we are to become what we should be…someday…

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She REALLY wanted that apple. I was grocery shopping the other day and picked out an apple for myself and one for the landspirits. But, the Fae Queen wanted another apple, a second for them. All right.

I started looking and she directed me to a specific apple. An older, large, already starting to discolor and looked a bit…abused. Ahe wanted that one. I asked again and she indicated the same. Very well, who am I to disregard what she’s asking for when I gave her the option of choosing.

The lawn is mowed, I’ve cleaned up, and I feel like giving their offering to them. She said she wanted that old apple. I cut it in half and she asks me to quarter it.

With so many brown spots in it, I understand she wants it, but why? I would gladly give her my own apple. She wanted it quartered.

As I did so, I saw why.

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She likely wanted it because what you and she would do with it is much more respectful to the apple then it’s fate if you didn’t pick it which would be to be tossed in a dumpster dumped in a truck jiggled and jostled with the rest of the trash if it don’t get crushed by the garbage trucks crushing device and then dumped in a landfill to be buried too deep to ever have the seeds sprout. (Coincidently once that deep it also doesn’t decompose very well so adds little to nothing to the soil for decades. I mean they tested and dug landfills before and found still readable newspapers after they’d been buried 20 years so once down in the fill it doesn’t do much good for decades or maybe even centuries).

That’s just a guess though, as to why she pick a bruised apple instead of a perfect I bruised one to be offered but that’s my thoughts on it because it’s fate without you taking it is to be completely wasted and lost forever in a manner of speaking. Cuz it’s not composting to fertilize the land buried in a landfill in the landfill it does no hood and is wasted (add: and seeds don’t sprout in landfill either)if you understand what I’m trying to rsuggest the reason might be norse900.

Unless I’m wrong and you plan to trash it after all is done with it? Because in that case I got no clue cuz if that were the case them My guess doesn’t apply.

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That would make sense all the way around. We cut down those 5 trees last year out of need to and have one to replace them with right now. We’re prioritizing flowering trees and bushes, to help pollinators and the aesthetic. We have 4 holly trees, 10 small-medium oaks, and 2 dogwood (iirc) trees that look mostly dead, but bloomed really well. No fruit trees, but the holly females produced berries last year.

The lilac is in a temporary large pot and is sprouting new branches, so that’s going well. Still need to get a magnolia.

We were stumped on what else we wanted to put in. I do run my decisions like this by the Fae Queen, since there’s the potential they will outlast my ownership of this place. I’ll have to keep these seedlings inside the enclosed porch, so the squirrels don’t eat them like they did my oak seedlings.

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Ya it’s maybe even a bit more complicated because while the apple fruit cells are dying the seeds are alive and temporarily dormant and asleep (I’m one who believes natural thing like trees have some sort of spirit and feel if you cut them) which is part of what I mean by more respectful.

I’m not sure the right way to put it so I’ll sort of try this: why I said respectful is because it’s still living at the very least the seeds are) and it’s sort of crass and disrespectful to throw it away as if it never lived contains no life didn’t matter and was useless and worthless especially when composting it or burying it shallow at home let’s it decompose and give back to the soil and gives the seed a chance to grow but in the landfill it get buried deeper and deeper every day the seeds can’t sprout and it can’t decompose because as deep as it gets buried after a week or 2 it’s in an anaerobic environment that inhibits decay preventing the release of the nutrients back into the ecosystem.

Sorry that’s a long run on sentence I didn’t know where to break it up to make it into smaller paragraphs :person_shrugging:

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All good.

I dug all the seeds out, even the one that wasn’t sprouting. Had surprisingly large seeds. Those blue pots are now sitting in my aluminum baking pan I use for burning whole sheets of waxed paper, inside the enclosed porch. I noticed the squirrels were already starting to take notice of them.

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I don’t talk about other things having spirit much cuz Christian’s wouldn’t understand but if we are all made of energy thingys (atoms & their energy sub particles) and we have feelings and awareness why should webthink other things don’t but Christian’s including Catholics like mom wouldn’t get it they are like humans are the only thing with souls aka spirits).

Speaking of nature and spirits and respect This afternoon I have to figure out how to respectfully bury a dead bird Someone or something left on our front step. Trouble Being we got clay soil that’s near impossible to dig especially when it dries.

Im hoping to bury it under some goldenrod if I can dig a small hole there. (It hasn’t rained for a few days so I’m not sure how hard it’ll be to dig).

Anyway I enjoy your posts keep on posting please k :slight_smile:

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Thanks. I’ve been reading more Loveceaftian stuff at the moment, so I haven’t been as active. Research and all that.

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Nothing like a little ritual before breakfast. Stuff in the East.


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On a roll!

Wife came back from Arizona with a nice little incense holder for me!


Lovely little thing.

The yellow spot shown wasn’t there before passing it through the low-smoke tiki, bot it doesn’t matter. It was in the smoke, but not in the flame.

After cleansing it of the manufacturing process in the tiki smoke, I saw the color green, refering to my wondering about the incense, and realized I should use my patchpouli. The holder.reminded me of a turtle shell and the package color is green and overlaid similar to turtle shells.

Lovely

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My ritual space (the enclosed porch) is a bit of a sauna. When I get home, I open a few windows and start the slightly rusted ceiling fan to pull fresh air. My concern - my candles. I may have to keep a small token in the cooler garage cabinets and the rest in the basement. While there is no direct sunlight on them, the afternoon.and evening sun is full on and some of those dead trees were still blocking the sun. More concerned for those dedicated candles. Guess we’ll see as Summer rolls on.

Another thing on my mind is that this is the longest period of time I’ve spent mostly researching for…a few years? I am still doing workings for friends and causes, but normally it’s an equal 50/50, leaning more towards 60/40 (practice/research). When working through a book that can be pathworked, it’s 80/20 (practice/research).

Why does this matter? Because my friend Kish was being super supportive and asked me to keep pushing stuff out. On the heels of this was a private convo with a few friends about entities pushing us to this or that on their timetables. Both of these things were really helpful for me, as I had been privately thinking about those balances in the back of my mind and weighing them against research and practice. I came to 1 definitive conclusion at this point.


The research can wait for 30 minutes…or until tomorrow. Help a friend today or soon. Or help yourself.

None of our “power” means anything, if it isn’t used.

Now, back to research!

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Thanks Norse, I try. Everyone can use support and encourage sometimes after all.

I hear you on the candles, and wish you luck keeping them from melting before they should.

One time I was going to do a candle magick ritual but had to go do something first (unexpectedly) do I left my candles by the tv(which was off) cane back and they were all melted out of shape do I know what heat does to them (and I learned even turned off either the tv or the game system with it, puts out enough heat to melt the candles til they get out of shape). It meant I couldn’t do the ritual and had to buy new candles. So from experience I know you don’t want that to happen cuz it puts a major cramp in pkans if you have to cancel them & buy new candles before continuing.

:person_shrugging: In my case lesson learned keep candles well away from tvs with Xbox gaming systems attached to them (they generate more heat then ya think). So I know what you mean about candles and sauna like porch rooms.

So… here’s hoping you find a cool place for them rather then the “sauna” porch room and they stay intact until you need them and use them in a ritual.

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You know ypu’re acclimating to Maryland when you buy this and it tastes literally like a stronger version of the spuce blend itself.

Of course, I can only drink one before having to switch to something else. The taste is just so…strong. Even at 9%, I can’t taste anything BUT the Old Bay seasoning. I don’t claim to be a Mrlndr (mumble the vowels, to say Marylander correctly).


I went to the National Marine Corp Museum today where we had a ceremony for my Brother in Law whose remembrance I flew back to Indiana for recently. Some Marines did a ceremony for him and his remaining ashes were spread there. It was a really nice ceremony and I was thankful for the professionalism of those young men.

The kicker was that right after we spread his ashes, Marine One flew overhead with two escort helicopters. Want to guess what he did? He was part of the Marine One guard, well before I was born. They didn’t just do one pass, but passed over again before departing. Really cool.


Currently, I’m investigating something I’ve been noticing in my research. As I’m reading about these Lovecraftian entities, I can, at times, feel their gaze/attention. Not the superficial egregores, but…something else. I recently finished the Tyson book listed above and am rereading it again with more notes and thoughts in the margins. But I can feel the attention of some of the…beings…that may have been a sort of source for the materials.

Now, being me and analyzing the hell out of things, I would be comfortable saying these spirits are of similar or the same energy as those listed in Lovecraft’s mythos.

But it was interesting. In the beginning of this journey, I could feel Yog-Sothoth calling (his egregore or a spirit he was acting through, if I’m correct). Then Shub-Niggurath and Cthulhu (he’s been mostly indifferent). But Nyarlathotep felt like he was almost watching me at times as I was reading.

Pretty cool, but subjective. If true, or true for me at least, then the next step would be to adjust to their energies individually over time. I am under the impression that these entities are a bit choosy, about who and in what type of way they will interact with them. I figure that if they’re coming to me and I wasn’t a Lovecraft fan (liked it, not a fanboy), then there’s a chance I’m only a slight pawn instead of food for the system…

Guess we’ll see.

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I messeged a friend last night because I felt I should and found out they’re ill enough to cancel their plans for tonight.

I called on Beelzebub to remove the illness. My offering was ill/sick energy pulled out of my friend. I kept condensing the energy in the candle to fit it all in. He said he didn’t want any blood for this, which was different from normal. Works for me.

I then called on Helios to assist with the healing and energy levels. He did want some blood, though he didn’t specifically ask for it.

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Tirns out that two of the wofes at that memorial were there alone due to their husbamds having cancer.

Can’t promise anything, but I will do what I can.
Red for Marbas, White for Raphael, Blue for Leviathan. Those were the entities that came forth when I called. The land spirits also came forward, but said they would help with “environmental toxins” affecting them. Not sure what that means, but I’ll take their help.

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Time to play The Game. I could feel some.of the Lovecraftian entities drawing nearer after dinner.

Eventually, these three came in support of my Eastern workings. Must be time.

Cthulhu wanted blood, Shub-Niggurath wanted semen, and Yog-Sothoth wanted this posted publicly. I expanded the range of impact to the Source area, too. This was negotiated for charging all of the candles and doubling SN’s offerings. In retirn, I asked that the results be obvious, meaning publicly posted things to verify the work had been done.

Sold.

This was my theme song playing for the ritual. Not exactly what I asked for.

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A servant of Cthulhucame to me. last night and let me know that there would be a lesson (this seemed plural in intent, but stated as singular). He wouldn’t say who sent.him, which resulted in some…awkwardness. I worked out a conflict protocol with Cthulhu for when messemgers pick fights.


Dreams were weird and I only remember the first, heaviest one.

I was back in some type of rustic, last-holdout style of Basic Training, some combo of Fantasy-SciFi backdrop.

I was in a large, dusty cave with others and we were getting ready to go out training, except it wasn’t training. It was a sort of training in a warzone. I was in my mid-40’s (basically a year older than I am), everyone else was early-to-mid 20’s and knew that you passed or you died. Even if you passed, and I knew I would, I was still likely to die not long after.

Now, I knew I could slip away and escape, live on my own in the Wild. Instead, I slung my gear on, weapon in one hand, helmet in the other, and left the cave to go fight.

Now, I could feel Cthulhu’s overwatch in this dream, hard and heavy. Not really the others. This may be why I remember it the best.

There were scenes from “The Past” where fighting had happened, but not my literal past. Just the “Past” for this dream.


Now, I’ve had some behind-the-scenes stuff going on the past few nights and a friend of mine not familiar with it, actually said some stuff pertaining to it and to other connections.at the time. Hecate and Shub-Niggurath, specifically. I had some really strange dreams that night, too, but my remembrance of them started in the middle.

I normally don’t remember my dreams. Chamomile tea an hour before bed. Benadryl and Magnesium Citrate at bedtime. I have cleared it with an actual physician. So, remembering anything usually doesn’t happen. When “dream work” is required, I typically use mental projection in the same manner I did with my Kingdoms of Flame thread. I used to do astral projection as a teen almost 30 years ago. Still can, but as soon as I lay down, one of three cats plops onto my chest… Kinda pulls me back.

Anyway, it gives more meaning when I do. As for the meaning, well, I could pick that last one apart for as long as I want, but believe the message isn’t exactly overt.

I feel like the Lovecraftian entities deserve their own thread, but I am unsure how much I will put out. This is something I may get published and will likely not be beginner friendly, hence part of my hesitation.

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Those cards have some intense images man. I might have to get that deck in the future.

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I am NOT skilled in tarot, but the spread that comes with the deck doesn’t resonate with me. I honestly think the point of nudging me to buy the deck was to use it as a gateway to the spirits the deck’s about.

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