To be incredibly honest
If you want to have the most successful working to find your soulmate,
You could do it if you were used to meditating on this drug.
You will be able to call upon mental and emotional states of bliss other humans simply do not have conscious access to, or even awareness of. I’d venture to say this drug is actually the “best” recreational drug, because of the states of euphoria and happiness that come with a drug that is a wayyy less harmful than crack, heroine, cocaine, or meth.
If you want to debate that last point with me, you can remedy that problem by grabbing the nearest brick, and slamming it into your head until you feel you erased faulty brain cells. Not trying to be an mean or talk down to anyone and I’m definitely not saying MDMA isn’t dangerous. For example, “Aspirin is perfectly legal but if you take 13 of them mother fuckers then that might be your last headache” -Katt Williams. Same thing applies to MDMA. Now that we’ve cleared that up, I’ll move to discuss the next matter of the original post.
This is dangerous, but if you know a few facts about the drug, and how to take it, it becomes loads safer.
Now, as to why the girl in this post went crazy, she went above 4 pills
4 is a big number with MDMA, because 4 is usually the threshold dosage that will fuck up serotonin levels PERMANENTLY, some say otherwise, but they are people with emotional problems and in denial. 8 is a near death dose (I’ve had friends fall into a seizure with 6), if not a death dose. However, I was chilling with a bunch of dealers at an after party, Basically, I was with someone who spent a lot of time with the drug and his group and he was incredibly pissed off because he had just taken 7 pills, (ate 3, snort 1, plugged 3 rectally), and he was only getting meth shakes while everyone, including all the fine bitches in the pool were enjoying a single or double, or triple or quadruple pill to get their fix…Some of those girls were lost in a sea of sensual feelings, and were probably “wet like the ocean” as female I knew explained. And this guy was so pissed off because he knew there was no way they would ever enjoy the drug or his life again. I will never forget being there for the moment my friend sincerely realized he fucked himself for good. To make it worse, he was being tormented by all of these horny women in his pool, and he knew he would be unable to ever feel like that again. It was supposed to be his last use of the drug. Thresholds are relative, but if you go that far over you are done for.
And when I started to ask this person on other occasions about how long it took him to return after he had been clean for over a year or two, and he said it wasn’t going to happen.
If I ever felt mentally worn out, I did a ton of math and word puzzles and read books.
I’ve had good luck with books, but I also never took half as much as he did that night. So reading books and meditating has been helpful to “rebuild synapses”. I don’t feel inhibited, I feel like I’m simply aware there are modalities of thought and understandings that simply aren’t there to people who don’t take this drug.
I can say that, for a lot of reasons, including the fact that I nearly died off of having 3 my first time.
My pills were also laced with Meth. I was told there was only a little in them. Maybe I am just someone who was not used to getting drugs laced with meth, or I took 3 of them, but it definitely did not feel like “just a little bit of meth”.
So I was shaking, really hard, in fact, I couldn’t see straight, I was sweating like crazy, my eyes were completely dilated like an anime character. And they were shaking, so god damn incredibly furiously like machine gun fire. Anyone who simply looked at my face, would instantly greet me with “holy shit”.
This also happened during my first pilgrimage to Los Angeles for the Electric Daisy Carnival when it was still held there. First time I had MDMA.
Best night of my life.
My partner at the time, let me know that she was going next door to get pregnant, since I said I would not do this immediately. I then asked her about how she said she was going to marry me, she then replied with, “Yeah, but I didn’t mean right now”. More like, bitch, I didn’t mean to be with you right now.
That’s coming from a guy who used to be like fucking Dani with women. When my first girlfriend broke up with me, I stopped eating and lost 20 pounds.
Also, quick warning, MDMA can possibly make your breasts shrink if you are a woman who takes it frequently.
Once again, BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE, and that bitch barely held me back from it at all.
Not only was I rolling face, but I decided to take some other drugs, and I decided to smoke California medical marijuana, and drink some whiskey, because some cheeky poindexter of a kid smuggled in an entire bottle of it into the Colosseum at that point, I was very very clearly hallucinating, and seeing things that weren’t there. When I left the event, I literally was hallucinating music for more than 12 hours afterward…I was hallucinating in ways that every sound around me, literally became electronic dance music that I had an insane urge to dance to, and would have to wait to be alone so I could become a dance ninja outside that rave.
That was like the closest experience I could relate to an event like Woodstock, but over 80,000 people were there that night. It’s like apples and oranges I know, but there are some obvious and huge parallels if you know anything about EDM festivals and raves.
I have to say, I really didn’t give that much of a shit about the girl afterwards, and just decided I needed to move on, and I spent time with a whole lot of much nicer people. And I have to say, extacy is one of those drugs that people running from their troubles love, because for 6 hours not only do they feel like they escape their troubles, they also feel like they are getting everything they ever needed and missed emotionally in life, and all they ever hoped to feel, with things they never knew they could. They are getting bestowed this all at once, like getting all the happy memories in their life, and if it’s a bad life, extacy that may be 1000 times better. This leads certain people to psychological addiction to the drug. If There is anything that will help you relate to trippy new age gobbelty gook on “love”, take MDMA, it will totally change your perspective on how applicable any of that is. Like everything else in magick, this tool has it’s time and it’s place, and it’s really useful for a number of aspects that wouldn’t seem immediately apparent unless you used it.
MDMA is a wonder drug that allows you to get to a state of love and you get to a place where you are able to relive your trauma in a way that may hurt, but it allows you to move past it. Sometimes people who start tripping for their first time, feel an intense urge to like find someone else who’s on extacy, and “rape their ears” with their own life story, and this person being on the drug, might actually be interested in listening to you and comforting you the entire time. It happens, and I see chicks enjoying that shit, so look around for one if this happens to you at a rave. I would recommend just eating yours and waiting for it to kick in. Usually I could find someone at a rave who wanted to talk to me within 15 to 20 min at most. (Look for the other people on drugs;)
You will feel pure love, a love you have never felt in your normal awareness, this isn’t gay, you will literally feel pure love and possibly even loose your sense of identity within a crowd of people, and feel completely one with them.
This drug triggers mental states, the likes of which are so fucking radically different from anything we encounter in waking consciousness. I really thought I was a really dark person forever. This drug changed that, and let me know that there were plenty of better alternatives, this is extremely useful to black magicians who often get trapped in modalities of death and destruction being the transformational solutions to every single problem in their life. You also shouldn’t use MDMA to solve every trauma and problem you have in your life. Everything has a time and place, I cannot stress that enough.
This is why people have been trying to use it to very effectively treat veterans with PTSD.
This drug has a really bad rap for some incredibly positive benefits.
Although most people call it “extacy” it was originally called “empathy” by therapists who used it when it was legal. And they said they could accomplish a years worth of couple’s therapy in a single hour with this drug, keep in mind, it goes on for several hours.
There’s a lot you can do with it, but you really gotta do your research.
ALSO BE SMART:
www.pillreports.com/
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LOOK YOUR SHIT UP, IT CAN SAVE YOUR LIFE.
There are raves my friends and I went to where multiple people died, who all should have known better. Occasionally there was a dumb kid who got in on because they were 15 with a fake ID, but most of the deaths were due to stupidity/OD or bad drugs. In one case when I missed out on one of these events, someone very close to me who had been there and watched several people drop dead recounted the events for me. Some dealer got royally fucked by people he did business with, because it turned out his pills were laced with something really nasty that killed a hand full of people that night…Apparently so he would go to jail. You would not believe what some of these pills are cut with, or what substances could give you allergic reactions to like piperazine that you are completely unaware of, that could really really really fuck your night up.
I’ve also been to a number of events that weren’t safe and were completely illegal out in places that cops didn’t know about or couldn’t get to, this comes with consequences because there is drug dealing at these venues. Even some of my friends have been at after parties that got raided by gang members who gang raped kids in people’s houses and ran off without getting caught for their initiation. Make friends, and go with a group of people you trust to places you trust for your own safety. This is as much so you can get home at night, as much as it is getting taken care of when you are under the influence.
TAKE SAFETY SERIOUSLY, IF YOU’RE GOING TO TAKE SERIOUS DRUGS!!!
DO YOUR RESEARCH FIRST, AND LOOK UP WHAT YOU BUY BEFORE YOU PUT IT IN YOUR MOUTH!!! PILL REPORTS IS NOT ALWAYS ACCURATE BECAUSE PEOPLE PRODUCE FAKE PILLS!!!.
One of the best ways to tell if something is good, (After you check Pill reports), is to buy 2 or 3, and go out and give them out to people you make conversation with. Free drugs is an excellent way to make friends at one of these events.
P.S. THE PILLS ARE COLOR CODED, LEARN THE CODE, AND YOU LEARN THE POSSIBILITIES FOR WHAT THE PRESSER PUT IN THE PILL.
P.P.S. SPACE OUT YOUR TIME USING THIS DRUG, it’s good to give your self AT LEAST 1 MONTH between each time you use this, because of how it can fuck up your Seratonin levels. Your brain needs time to recover before you have a massive release. After a while of intense stress from overuse, the brain stops producing the serotonin anywhere near as much as it used to, leading to some fucking obvious problems.
P.P.P.S. expect to be naturally sad for 2 or 3 days afterward.
Good Luck and Godspeed,
-Frater Apotheosis