The Theoricus Journal

Journals, Group Rituals & Free Readings
766

Even with the bed higher than the wheelchair, it’s challenging to get out of bed and into my wheelchair.
My CNA believes, and so do I, that it’s a failure or lack of leg strength.
So, there are ways of increase ng leg strength while having upright posture (I tend to hunch over while standing up).
Leg raises, mini squats, squats, sit to stands, balance exercises stair stepping, Walker walking.
All good challenges. Sit to stands and mini squats I can do in the hall using the hall rail. Using a four wheeled walker while walking outside, likewise good for the body (and mind).
Perhaps even sitting on the side of the bed, standing, and sitting, with concentration on upright posture while standing.

Physical therapy…
Fifteen minutes on the NuStep crosstrainer bike. Playing volleyball catch while sitting, as Kelly moved around different directions while tossing the ball to me. Went Walker walking. I walked from the gym to the other hallway past station three, sat for a few and walked back to my room.
Likely Tuesday next therapy session.

Okay. Lunch is near.
Swiss cheese hamburger with steak fries and coffees.
While I research and compare Saddleback EMT course vs courses through a Red Cross training area chapter.
Then look into the ASL Interpretation program.

Ten minutes after I wrote that after lunch, I fell asleep until 16:00 PT.

767

DATE: 06/01/2026
DAY: Monday, day of Luna. Diana, Isis, Luna. Silver or white candles, Jasmine incense.
TIME: 15:33 PT
MOON PHASE: Luna in Capricorn
WEATHER: 71°, cloudy.
SLEEP: Awake until 9:30 pm, awoke at 2:45 am and up until 4:40 am. Awoke at breakfast time.
DREAMS: None recalled. I chose to not remember my dreams.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Scatter brained. Concentrated on thoughts, especially ASLI.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: TBD. Sore area where shingles were.
MOOD: Fair
RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual, Body Awareness, Breathwork, Tarot Contemplation Ritual, Cartomancy Card of the Day.
PERFORMANCE: Fair. Breathwork, BAR and IRR good. Challenging but good. No Theoricus Formula was done.
RESULTS: TBD. Got Gail’s number.
TASKS: and THOUGHTS:
I’ve decided on ASL Interpreter as the certificate program.
I do have two pressing licenses to pursue likely before Saddleback, Ham Technician and Red Cross First Aid / CPR.
Online would be easiest, so this also sets a bar for progress in physical and occupational therapy.
Taking these courses would add four skills in personal enrichment.
There then would be Digital and Solid State Electronics/PLCs as the final skill and Certificate.

The Registered Nurse came to check on me. She said that it does look like it’s not getting worse and the itching is normal, the scratching is a no-no however.

My legs need solid improvement.
Over the weekend I did sit to stands, and yesterday and today I tried not to bend forward when standing.
The last PT session I had was with Kelly, and I used the exercise bike for fifteen minutes, and walked to station three and back.
I also did step training in that session as well; I worked on standing upright in the walker, and kept shoulders relaxed.
So, they are getting better but need improvement, and will see if I can borrow a four wheeled walker tomorrow, but my legs are getting stronger.

Weight wise, I’m on an improvement streak, scrambled eggs and bacon, oatmeal as well for breakfast. Regular lunch off the calendar menu, and a chef salad with a griller chicken breast for dinner; I’m impressed with my improvement.

An attractive woman I met in Coffee Social and I have talked more and more when we encounter each other, and she offered up her phone number to me today. So, this could be interesting. She’s here because she took a nasty fall, and ended up fracturing her hip and breaking her leg as well. She knows what my story is, so this could evolve into something beneficial. It’s nice having someone aside from the CNAs to talk to, though I have a number for an attractive (and nice) CNA as well.

DATE: 06/02/2026
DAY: Tuesday, day of Mars. Ares, Mars. Elohim Gibor, Chanuel, Seraphim. Red candles, Dragons Blood incense.
TIME: 15:46 PT
MOON PHASE: Luna in Capricorn
WEATHER: 72°, cloudy.
SLEEP: Awake until 9:30 pm, awoke at 2:45 am and up until 4:40 am. Awoke at breakfast time.
DREAMS: None recalled. I chose to not remember my dreams.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Scatter brained. Concentrated on thoughts, especially ASLI.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: TBD. Sore area where shingles were.
MOOD: Fair
RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual, Body Awareness, Breathwork, Tarot Contemplation Ritual, Cartomancy Card of the Day.
PERFORMANCE: Fair. Breathwork, BAR and IRR good. Challenging but good. Theoricus Formula was done.
RESULTS: TBD. Got Gail’s number.
TASKS: and THOUGHTS:
I’ve decided on ASL Interpreter as the certificate program.
I do have two pressing licenses to pursue likely before Saddleback, Ham Technician and Red Cross First Aid / CPR.
Online would be easiest, so this also sets a bar for progress in physical and occupational therapy.
Taking these courses would add four skills in personal enrichment.
There then would be Digital and Solid State Electronics/PLCs as the final skill and Certificate.

The Registered Nurse came to check on me. She said that it does look like it’s not getting worse and the itching is normal, the scratching is a no-no however.

My legs need solid improvement.
Over the weekend I did sit to stands, and yesterday and today I tried not to bend forward when standing.
The last PT session I had was with Ethan and Wendy, and I used the exercise bike for fifteen minutes, and walked to station three and back.
I also did step training in that session as well; I worked on standing upright in the walker, and kept shoulders relaxed.
So, they are getting better but need improvement, and will see if I can borrow a four wheeled walker tomorrow, but my legs are getting stronger.

Weight wise, I’m on an improvement streak, scrambled eggs and bacon, oatmeal as well for breakfast. Regular lunch off the calendar menu, and a chef salad with a griller chicken breast for dinner; I’m impressed with my improvement.

An attractive woman I met in Coffee Social and I have talked more and more when we encounter each other, and she offered up her phone number to me today. So, this could be interesting. She’s here because she took a nasty fall, and ended up fracturing her hip and breaking her leg as well. She knows what my story is, so this could evolve into something beneficial. It’s nice having someone aside from the CNAs to talk to, though I have a number for an attractive (and nice) CNA as well.

Katy came to visit, brought lunch, snacks and elections ballot.

768

Drained my Diet Pepsi 20oz and ate my Three Musketeers bar.
Took my meds per usual, as well as 10 mg Melatonin for a sleep aid.
May end up getting wireless headphones to hear only my television set.
Took my schizophrenia shot. Now it’s oral only from now on.
Got into bed.
Tried conjuring the Shem angels of the four worlds.
Will do angelic mantras.

769

DATE: 06/03/2026
DAY: Wednesday, day of Mercury. Mercury, Thoth, Hermes, Odin. Elohim Tzabaoth, Raphael, Beni Elohim. Orange candles, Storax, Lavendar incense.
TIME: 15:54 PT
MOON PHASE: Luna in Aquarius.
WEATHER: 76°, sunny.
SLEEP: Solid. Awoke at breakfast time.
DREAMS: None recalled. I chose to not remember my dreams.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Scatter brained. Concentrated on thoughts, especially Saddleback.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: TBD. Sore area where shingles were.
MOOD: Fair
RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual, Body Awareness, Breathwork, Tarot Contemplation Ritual, Cartomancy Card of the Day. Theoricus Formula.
PERFORMANCE: Fair. Breathwork, BAR and IRR good. Challenging but good. Theoricus Formula was done.
RESULTS: TBD.
TASKS: and THOUGHTS: TBD.

DATE: 06/04/2026
DAY: Thursday, day of Jupiter. Zeus, Fortuna, Jupiter. El, Sachiel, Chashmalim. Blue candles, Cedar incense.
TIME: 16:01 PT
MOON PHASE: Luna in Aquarius.
WEATHER: 72°, cloudy.
SLEEP: Solid. Awoke at breakfast time.
DREAMS: None recalled. I chose to not remember my dreams.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Scatter brained. Concentrated on thoughts, especially Technology and Health programs as well as finishing an Anthropology degree.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: TBD. Sore area where shingles were.
MOOD: Fair
RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual, Body Awareness, Breathwork, Tarot Contemplation Ritual, Cartomancy Card of the Day. Theoricus Formula.
PERFORMANCE: Fair. Breathwork, BAR and IRR good. Challenging but good. Theoricus Formula was done.
RESULTS: TBD. Got Gail’s number, she has given me a few pairs of clothes.
TASKS: and THOUGHTS: TBD.

770

Yesterday’s Tarot/Card Pulls…
Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
Drawn under Elohim Tzabaoth.
XX Judgement. Elemental Fire. “Spirit of the Primal Fire”. The 31st Path - The Perpetual Intelligence. Shin, fang, 300. A different S sound than Samekh, possibly an old mention of Jewish lore that a group or person was slain, due to the inability to say a word containing Shin, or the the letter Shin. A renewal, a rebirth, contemplation on existence, last words, past prayers or praise.

Yesterday’s Cartomancy Card of the Day:
Drawn under Elohim Tzabaoth.
Nine of Spades.
Traditionally a card of sadness, adversity, failure, suffering, emotional or physical pain, grief, and malice. This is a very unfavorable card. It forebodes tragic events including accidents, serious injury, serious illness, self-injury, and harm to one’s self or another. Feeling pressured or forced to do something. It can indicate a loss of control, a breakdown of established patterns. It can represent a disappointment, or a broken heart. Karmic debts, obligations, and duty to self and others.

Today’s Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
Drawn under El.
IV The Emperor. Aries. “Son of the Morning, Chief Among the Mighty”. 15th Path - The Constituting Intelligence. Heh, window,5. Sight, management, order.

Today’s Cartomancy Card of the Day:
Drawn under El.
Nine of Diamonds.
Extra money, a check, a bonus. The brain, mental energy, psychic ability, imagination, electricity, electromagnetic energy. Other people’s wishes and desires that affect or influence the querent. Fame, celebrity. Public office. Bureaucratic red tape when surrounded by unfavorable cards.

771

DATE: 06/05/2026
DAY: Friday, day of Venus. Aphrodite, Inanna, Ishtar, Astarte, Venus. YHVH Tzabaoth, Anael, Haniel, Elohim. Green candles, Rose incense.
TIME: 09:53 PT
MOON PHASE: Luna in Aquarius.
WEATHER: 72°, cloudy.
SLEEP: Solid. Awoke at 7, then breakfast time.
DREAMS: None recalled. I chose to not remember my dreams.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Scatter brained. Concentrated on thoughts, especially Technology and Health programs as well as finishing an Anthropology degree.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: TBD. Sore area where shingles were. Arms and legs sore due to Physical Therapy.
MOOD: Fair
RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual, Body Awareness, Breathwork, Tarot Contemplation Ritual, Cartomancy Card of the Day. Theoricus Formula.
PERFORMANCE: Fair. Breathwork, BAR and IRR good. Challenging but good. Theoricus Formula was done.
RESULTS: TBD. Got Gail’s number, she has given me a few pairs of clothes.
TASKS: and THOUGHTS: TBD.

772

TASKS and THOUGHTS:
Ate breakfast.
Used restroom. Washed up and brushed teeth.
Went to Physical Therapy. Did leg strengthening.
Went to Activities Room. Put together a puzzle, had a couple cups of coffee, and played volleyball with a beach ball using either hand.
Came back to my room for lunch.
Edit – 13:13 PT
Had chicken grilled breast sandwich with fries and coke slaw, OJ and coffees to drink.
Watching Betelguese while the food is digesting.
Heard an old roommate I had beef with passed away recently.
Will try to do Meditations before dinner.
Meant to edit something out of former post for today, Theoricus Formula was not done.

773

An old roommate passed away. He and I never repaired the bridge we burnt together.
It would be a bad thing if he was not in the good graces of God, same as I, especially for the burnt bridge.
As a Mormon Brother, I have the right to do a Baptism for the Dead, where a Melchezidek Priest baptizes me, while I am symbolic for the one receiving the baptism.
Choices, choices. Especially with the beam in my own eye.

774

TAROT
Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
Drawn under YHVH Tzabaoth. Found in third stack.
II The High Priestess. Luna. “Priestess of the Silver Star”. The 13th Path – The Uniting Intelligence. Gimel, Camel, 3. Lunar Magick, the Cross and Torah held close, repetition.

Was sent a couple of documents from two GD teachers … One on SRIA Banishing procedures, and the other sent me a couple requium documented rituals.

775

Watching the San Antonio (Spurs) and New York (Nicks) game, close since the start. It annoyed me how much San Antonio was doing stupid basket attempts and caused by fouls. New York weren’t saints either.

Then Twisted Sister’s “Stay Hungry” lyrics flooded my mind.

You have to be hungry for change in your favor, by putting in your own work.

776

DATE: 06/06/2026
DAY: Saturday, day of Saturn. Kronos, Father Time, Saturn. YHVH Elohim, Cassiel, Aralim.
TIME: 10:17 PT
MOON PHASE: Luna in Pisces
WEATHER: 71°, cloudy.
SLEEP: Good
DREAMS:
I don’t recall dreams very much, unless they are traumatic, nightmares, or extremely odd.
A dream I had while in my mini coma…
The fact I still recall it shows it a traumatic dream. Or a dream based on past and present trauma.
I’m in a hospital ward but my bed is being moved down an escalator that is turned off.
I’m out of view of a person I can hear, but my blindfold I was trying to pull off is removed.
It’s a dumpster area, and in spray paint on the ceiling reads “the nine temples of blood know what you’ve done”.
I glimpse family members who want to communicate with me but cannot and seem to be in a state of shock.
Outside is a suitcase of mine, and predators swoop down and steal the contents.
People who I don’t recognize approach me and all sorts of venomous creatures are placed by these people on my legs. I dare not move at all.
I wake up and on to the next dreams…
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Analyzing a past dream. Good otherwise.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore legs from physical therapy, but need to do sit to stands and squats, and pushing myself up with mainly my legs. Getting fat again, so need to stick to my diet. And exercise often.
MOOD: Good.
RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATIONS: TBD
**TAROT:**TBD
TASKS and THOUGHTS:
Ate breakfast. Bacon, eggs and oatmeal.
Coffee of course.
Had my shower already.
Brushed my teeth and combed my hair.
Got dressed and went to the Activities room. Put together a puzzle.
Gail gifted me some clothes. A few were Medium, so they didn’t fit, but the rest do.
Some of my lounge pants are not present as far as I can tell.
The three shelf plastic organizer is nearly empty, so will ask the CNA to help me pull the lounge pants and TShirts out of my closet space, roll them and arrange in the organizer.
Someone has gifted me a couple books on Catholic prayers and to pray the rosary.