The Theoricus Journal

DATE: 02/28/2026

DAY: Saturday, day of Saturn. YHVH Elohim, Cassiel, Aralim. Black candles, Sandalwood incense.

TIME: 10:19 AM PST

MOON PHASE: Luna in Leo.

WEATHER: 72° Cloudy

SLEEP: Good

DREAMS: None recalled

MENTAL CONDITIONS: TBD

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Legs and feet are tired.

MOOD: Good

RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual, Body Awareness, Zelator Formula.

PERFORMANCE: Good, visualization needs work.

RESULTS: More likely to go to Activities. They were putting up St Patrick’s day decorations. As I gazed at a pot of gold, I could not help but in my mind see it Magick wise.

MEDITATIONS: Healing and Spiritual.

TASKS: Used bathroom after eating breakfast. Went to shower immediately once done. Used my fresh pine scented Lumbersnack Body Wash. Got dressed. Went to Activities room for coffee. Came back to room and got in bed. I’m going to do my meditations that are listed above, and work on My Compendium.

THOUGHTS: Numerous.

DATE: 03/01/2026
DAY: Sunday, day of Sol or the Sun. Ra, Horus, Helios, Apollo. YHVH Eloah ve Daath, Michael, Melechim. Gold candles. Frankincense (and Myrrh as well to paint the nativitiy scene).
TIME: 13:00 PM PST.
MOON PHASE: Luna in Leo.
WEATHER: 72°, cloudy.

SLEEP: Good but can always use a nap.
DREAMS: None recalled.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: TBD.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: TBD.
MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Body Awareness, Adorations, Zelator Formula.
PERFORMANCE: Good. Little to no distraction, better visualization, though forced.
RESULTS: TBD.

TASKS: Deodorant applied. Ate breakfast. Got into wheelchair. Used bathroom. Washed up. Brushed hair. Got gowned. Separated laundry.

MEDITATIONS: Spiritual. Protective. Healing.

THOUGHTS: Write-up on Ancient Egyptian deities. TBD.

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DATE: 03/02/2026
DAY: Monday, day of Luna or the Moon. Isis, Diana. Shaddai El Chai, Gabriel, Kerubim. Silver candles. Jasmine incense.
TIME: 11:49 AM PST.
MOON PHASE: Luna in Virgo.
WEATHER: 71°, cloudy.

SLEEP: Good but can always use a nap.
DREAMS: Game show and hang related mix.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Mixture of thoughts.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Haircut, beard and mustache left as is, for now anyway.
MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Body Awareness, Adorations. No Zelator Formula done today.
PERFORMANCE: TBD.
RESULTS: TBD.

TASKS: Deodorant applied. Ate breakfast. Got into wheelchair. Used bathroom. Washed up. Brushed hair. Got dressed. Separated laundry and put away.

MEDITATIONS: Spiritual. Protective. Healing.

THOUGHTS: Write-up on Ancient Egyptian deities. TBD.

I got caught up with getting dressed, to going to the Activities Room and having coffee while working with puzzles, to getting a haircut, to watching Indiana Jones. My bad. Back to studying Hathor worship and details.

Magick wise I’ve not done the Zelator Formula today due to the unplanned schedule today. Tomorrow I will do the daily Zelator Formula, and take my cardstock and book details to the Activities room and trying to make an Earth Pentacle out of Cardstock.

DATE: 03/03/2026

DAY: Tuesday, day of Mars. Elohim Gibor, Chamael, Samael, Seraphim.

TIME: 10:19 AM PST.

MOON PHASE: Luna in Virgo.

WEATHER: 66° Partly Sunny.

SLEEP: Good. Starting to try to turn in sleep.

DREAMS: None recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: TBD.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: TBD.

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual. Body Awareness. Adorations. Zelator Formula.

PERFORMANCE: Fair. Visualization was poor. I had an audience. Performed anyway.

RESULTS: TBD

MEDITATIONS: Healing and Spiritual.

TASKS: Ate breakfast. Jesse arrived and told me he has me for PT after breakfast. Got out of bed and into wheelchair. Used restroom. Got dressed and cleaned up. Got off to PT. See THOUGHTS.Got back to room, and back into bed. Brushed hair and donned baseball cap.

THOUGHTS:

Finished my Zelator Formula at 9:45 a.m. PST. Got back to my room from physical therapy at 9:40 a.m. PST.

Went off to physical therapy after breakfast, dressing, and using the restroom, at roughly 9:00 a.m. PST

I woke to breakfast 8:30 a.m. pst.

My poor roommate. He witnessed me doing my Zelator Formula, and didn’t look too hip to it.

Now in bed relaxing, and recanting what I did in physical therapy.

I started walking from the physical therapy gym, to the activities room all in one trip.
Then walked into a dead end, stopped, took a rest, and walked back to station 2.
At station 2, I got back into the wheelchair and wheeled myself back to the rehab gym with Jesse accompanying me. Then I did in the gym 15 minutes on the NuStep exercise bike, then did strength training for the legs and feet. Then I was good to go.

Recalling this backwards, as this is a common cold practice. Recalling things backwards help strengthen the mind and pick up things that you may have forgotten.

Did not get to the Activities Room due to expected and announced Physical Therapy. So have not gotten farther on constructing a long overdue Earth Pentacle.

Did not jot down details for data entry on Hathor and Isis as of yet. I am still weighing where Isis may be on the tree, Binah or Yesod.

Currently involved in filling out Hathor and then touching on Isis - and potentially Thoth - as Lunar deities. Completed to the best of research and time could fit. Ideally one deity, one page. Ideally follows the path up the Tree of Life.

In bed waiting for lunch.

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Lunch was decent, chili and cornbread, diced carrots with buttermilk dressing. Jello as a dessert. Dinner is three hours away.

Had conversation with a CNA that shares long talks and ideas on current and past events, conspiracies and such.

Had several coffees and now is shift change.

Soon to jot down design and details for the Pentacle on paper.

Then to also keep working on deities on the tree and My Compendium.

DATE: 03/04/2026

DAY: Wednesday, day of Mercury. Elohim Tzabaoth, Raphael, Beni Elohim. Orange candles, Lavendar incense.

TIME: 11:45 AM PST.

MOON PHASE: Luna in Libra.

WEATHER: 66° Partly Sunny.

SLEEP: Good. Starting to try to turn in sleep.

DREAMS: None recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: TBD.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: TBD.

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual. Body Awareness. Adorations. Zelator Formula.

PERFORMANCE: Fair. Visualization was poor. I had an audience. Performed anyway.

RESULTS: TBD

MEDITATIONS: Healing and Spiritual.

TASKS: Ate breakfast. Got out of bed and into wheelchair. Used restroom. Got dressed and cleaned up. Brushed hair. Got off to Activities and stayed through coffee social and puzzles, and for tenants meeting.Got back to room, and stayed up and did IRR, BA, and Zelator Formula. back into bed. Donned baseball cap.

THOUGHTS: TBD

THOUGHTS:
Went to coffee social and got hit on profoundly by a much older lady. That was awkward to say the least.
Minded my own business and stayed for the tenants council. Gave positive feedback but pointed out some issues.
Came back to my room for lunch, and post lunch coffee.
Updated journal. Most of my mail I received late last week seems to be a Food aid form. Now to fill out a voter registration form, and now I recall what I wanted to talk to social services about, renewing a state ID card, as my old ID expired.
Isis, Horus, and Thoth are the next deities to research and summarize for My Compendium of Gods and Goddesses..

RITUALS PERFORMED:

My cards yesterday (two more rituals done).

Tarot Contemplation Ritual

Drawn under Elohim Gibor.

IX The Hermit. Virgo. Law of Response. Prophet of the Eternal, Magus of the Voice of Power. Intelligence of Will. Yod, palm or hand, 10.

Cartomancy Card of the Day

Suit of Spades
Negativity, problems, responsibilities, force, obligations, law enforcement, challenges, obstacles, delays, mysteries, secrets, decisions, karmic debts, obsessions, addictions, resentment, anger, setbacks, frustration, loneliness, confinement, anxiety, failure, fear, illness and loss.

Characteristics of Spade Suit
Powerful, intense, responsible, demanding, controlling, cautious, secretive, possessive, spiteful, charming, charismatic, mysterious, calculating, detached.

Seven of Spades
Traditionally a card of bad luck and loss, unexpected trouble, a mishap, an unhappy surprise, a serious setback, a reversal of plans, frustration, a lack of progress, a stalemate, stagnation, addiction, drugs, medications, alcohol, codependent relationship, a cocktail, a nightclub, bar or saloon.

PERFORMANCE:

Cards were drawn early in the morning, and as such was done with no audience nor distraction. Third pile of four piles was the random dropped finger from the hand on the air. Four knocks while vibrating Elohim Gibor, deck cut once and restacked, top card flipped over.

RESULTS:

Established or expected visit from my sister was delayed due to health issues. Need to do thirty solid minutes of mantras to counteract spades as the suit.

THOUGHTS:

Luna in Libra was a guess as I filled this daily diary entry out, it just seemed to be in Virgo too long today so chose Libra. Luna is in 2°13’ Libra.

RITUALS PERFORMED:

Tarot Contemplation Ritual

Drawn under Elohim Tzabaoth.

XV The Devil. Capricorn. Lord of the Gates of Matter, Child of the Forces of Time. The Renovating Intelligence. Ayin, eye or fountain, 70. Material Bondage, self reliance.

Cartomancy Card of the Day

Drawn under Elohim Tzabaoth.

Three of Spades.

Traditionally a card of loss and deception, lies, misunderstanding, confusion, a growing problem, a worsening condition, deterioration, disease, infection, third-party interference, a third wheel, meddling, a love triangle, what goes on behind the scenes, trials and tribulations, a test, an exam.

PERFORMANCE:

Finger missed any pile, so did routine again and hit third pile.

RESULTS: TBD

THOUGHTS:

Psychic ability at least a grain of it, seems to occur. I had the thought that my parents weren’t ill, and that concerns me (with them so far away and not entirely willing to move here).

So I need to call them tomorrow morning. I think it may be a bit too late tonight (with time zone difference). My sister visited me and announced that the parents are not doing too well.

Anyway, she has her health concerns as well. I think I need to be more careful with what I consume, and how often I go through one container of snacks, as she brings me snacks and she won’t be able to for a couple of months.

Otoh, I need to lose weight yet I ask her to bring snacks. Water flavoring and beef jerky are fairly harmless, but I recently weighed in at 266 pounds. So maybe it’s a spiritual warning or advising to Pace myself or learn to go and fast from snacks each month. Then get weighed again.

Bedtime for me ….

Tomorrow morning I will call my parents.

will work on my Hebrew lettering for my Earth pentacle.

Tomorrow will work on my geomancy and on my astrology.

Tomorrow will work on the gods and goddesses of the spheres below the supernal triad for My Compendium of Gods and Goddesses.

Tomorrow will be in the Activities room for coffee social and for (after lunch) movie and pizza.

Tomorrow, tomorrow … a certain term I used earlier in conversation early before noon with another resident.

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DATE: 03/05/2026

DAY: Thursday, day of Jupiter. El, Tzadkiel, Sachiel, Chashmalim. Blue candles, Cedar incense.

TIME: 17:50 PM PST

MOON PHASE: Luna in 0° to 10° Libra.

WEATHER: 67°, partly cloudy.

SLEEP: Hardly any.

DREAMS: None recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Tired, been up for most of the day.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Not a good idea to mix low sleep and walker walking, almost tripped a few times.

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: None yet.

PERFORMANCE: TBD

RESULTS: TBD

MEDITATIONS: Spiritual , Healing.

TASKS:

Ate breakfast.

Esther arrived to let me know I have therapy with her today.

Got into wheelchair and off to the rehab gym. Started with walking in the walker and walked to station two.

Went to Activities after a brief nap until Tobias let me know time is close to the activity. Found out I mixed it up with tomorrows activity. Stayed and played anyway.

Came back to my room and got into bed.

Had two cups of coffee. Waiting for dinner.

THOUGHTS:

No Zelator Formula was done today. I was up all night, and got some sleep, went to physical therapy with Esther, and after that went to the Activities room to find out what I was expecting is tomorrow afternoon. So I stayed for a group activity called Lotteria. It’s a Spanish game using sheets of drawings like a sixteen tarot card spread, and you race to put markers on each square card on your sheet, to win fake money. I was thinking earlier about learning Spanish. Perhaps between Duolingo and Lotteria it will sink in.

So, no esoteric work done as of yet.

Am going to do Mantrum after dinner, and try to do a pathworking.

DATE: 03/06/2026

DAY: Friday, day of Venus. Aphrodite. Hathor. YHVH Tzabaoth, Anael/Haniel, Elohim. Green candles, Rose/Floral incense.

TIME: 01:46 AM PST

MOON PHASE: 10° to 20° Luna in Libra.

WEATHER: 56° Partly sunny.

SLEEP: Need to get more sleep today.

DREAMS: None recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Tired, awoke at midnight, and got no sleep yesterday morning. Need to work on transcribing rituals into ritual diary.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Tired. Sore in Cocyx area.

MOOD: Good

RITUALS PERFORMED: IRR, BA, TCR, CCotD.

PERFORMANCE: Good.

RESULTS:

IRR/Fourfold Breathing, still working on these.

BA: Bed is uncomfortable. High Buttocks/Cocyx very sensitive and sore. Need to be out of bed today up until dinner and sit on a pillow as well. No therapy today which means rail exercises and walking self to activities room, perhaps have coffee social in the morning and eat lunch in the Activities room. Catholic Mass today as well.

Card draws for the day:

Tarot Contemplation Ritual
Drawn under YHVH Tzabaoth.
I The Magician. Mercury. Magus of Power. Intelligence of Transparency. Beth, house, 2.
Occult knowledge and skills, one who uses the four laws of the Sphinx.

Cartomancy Card of the Day
Drawn under YHVH Tzabaoth.
Queen of Clubs.

Suit of Clubs
Business, work, social activity, practical matters, teaching, learning, good luck, growth, goals, conversations, verbal communication, paperwork, action, physical activity, sports, exercise, construction, clubs and organizations, friendships, social interactions, and progress through effort.

Characteristics of the Club Suit:
Active, practical, friendly, playful, out-going, gracious, sincere, reliable, trustworthy, helpful, ambitious, competitive, organized, enterprising, resourceful, enthusiastic, sensible, stable, stubborn.

Queen of Clubs
A business woman, a female co-worker, a good adviser, a trusted female friend, or a social butterfly. She is an active, industrious, reliable woman who is well-liked and has great business sense. She can represent a socially active woman who enjoys clubs, societies, and other social functions. She runs her home efficiently, and she likes to keep busy. She is a hard worker, and prefers to be an active participant in life.

MEDITATIONS: TBD

TASKS: TBD

THOUGHTS: TBD

DATE: 03/07/2026

DAY: Saturday. Day of Saturn. Kronos. YHVH Elohim, YHVH Adonai, Cassiel, Tzaphqiel, Aralim. Black candles, Sandalwood incense.

TIME: 11:40 AM PST

MOON PHASE: Luna in Scorpio.

WEATHER: 72°, partly cloudy.

SLEEP: Good.

DREAMS: None recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: TBD.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore arms and legs from Physical Therapy and Occupational Therapy. Sore cocyx, tender glutes. Need to be up in my wheelchair more for the last two issues. Had tender arms before therapy by doing fifty each arm workouts.

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual, Body Awareness, Neophyte Formula.

PERFORMANCE: Relaxed already once firmly into bed. Need more breathwork as part of the Rituals. Skipped breathwork, Middle Pillar Ritual.

RESULTS: Less mental fogginess.

MEDITATIONS: Will be doing healing mantras and parasite control mantras.

TASKS: Ate breakfast in bed. Got up and used the bathroom, got into shower chair and went to take a shower (with Irish spring scented body wash and shampoo). Went off to Activities and completed the border of a circle puzzle, PT came for me, so off to PT and OT I went. Got back to room and got into bed.

THOUGHTS: Need to talk to Social Services about getting a State ID card. Need to get a full understanding of my money overview. Need to look into assisted live ng homes, maybe talk to Social Services about that as well. Need to relax and quit being anxious about things. Today will research Amun, Aten, Isis, Osiris, Horus as gods and goddesses for my Compendium of Gods and Goddesses.

In addition to previous thoughts, study my two books. I don’t have any way to review the internet archive dot org for reading their digitized The Golden Dawn. I will ask for this 6th edition book for Christmas.

That way whoever has a problem can fuck off.

In the meantime I will stick to Modern Magick as the main text for the next nine months (it is it’s book to a degree), and KMatGWoST as the alternative of the same matter.

My thoughts though dark are strategic. The US and Iran are at war. Forget about Israel for a minute. Tehran will never surrender says Ayatollah Jr. We have C-130s that should carry a payload of napalm to drop on Tehran. Iran is the snake after Israel the Mouse. We are the gardener with a metal shovel. Cut the head off of the snake and it won’t be a threat.

DATE: 03/08/2026

DAY: Sunday, day of Sol, the Sun. Apollo, Helios, Horus-Ra, Shemesh. Gold candles, Frankincense and myrrh incense.

TIME: 03:39 AM PST

MOON PHASE: Luna in Scorpio.

WEATHER: 68°, partly cloudy.

SLEEP: Went to bed around 11:00 pm, and awoke at 03:00 am.

DREAMS: None recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: TBD. Stressed.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: TBD. Tired. Sore arms and legs from therapy yesterday. Sore neck and shoulders.

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD.

PERFORMANCE: TBD.

RESULTS: Should be “decrease and pullout of ICE agents in Southern California, and the detained freed”, through use of IOB pentagram ritual, before invoking the Moon hexagram, and then Invoking the Four Powers of Earth pentagram; Middle Pillar Ritual and body in Assiah, as well, to complete the Zelator Formula. TBD.

MEDITATIONS Spiritual perfection. TBD.

TASKS: TBD.

THOUGHTS: On rituals and or prayers.

Got up out of bed after all the other roommates were out at the activities room, used the bathroom, got cleaned up and dressed, went off to Activities. Nearly had a circular puzzle edge complete and had to dismantle it and put it away.

Went back to my room, used dumbbells for arms and shoulders, 60 each exercise, then one hundred crunches.

Taking a break for doing Zelator Formula with ICE IOB to start. It is done.

DATE: 03/10/2026

DAY: Monday, day of Luna, the Moon. Lovely Lady, Diana, Selene, Isis. Shaddai El Chai, Gabriel, Kerubim. Silver, grey or White candles, Jasmine incense.

TIME: 02:43 AM PST

MOON PHASE: Luna in Scorpio/Sagittarius

WEATHER: Mid 70s,. Partly cloudy

SLEEP: Solid until 1:30 am

DREAMS: None recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS:

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS:

MOOD: Good

RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD

PERFORMANCE: TBD

RESULTS: TBD

MEDITATIONS: Spiritual mantras.

Tarot Contemplation Ritual:

Cartomancy Card of the Day:

TASKS:

Out of bed and into wheelchair

Used bathroom, washed up

Got dressed and brushed hair w/ light soap

Brushed teeth

Therapy check in

Coffee social/Lotteria

Zelator Formula

Lunch

Stayed up working on drawing Earth Pentacle sides

Got into bed pre-dinner

Dinner and sleep

THOUGHTS:

It’s difficult having grown up in a Baptist (though somewhat liberal at that) family, and having the occult to call out to you.

Ever since I was 14 years old, the following books would call out to me as I passed by the occult section of an old Ann Arbor MI Borders bookstore:
Agrippa, Three Books of Occult Philosophy
Barrett, The Magus
King and Skinner, Techniques of High Magick
LaVey, The Satanic Bible/Rituals
Regardie, The Golden Dawn

I am still a Christian, but I did have my scares as I grew up. It wasn’t until I was twenty years old that I started practicing Wicca for the Solitary Practitioner, The Necronomicon, the Satanic Bible, and a few others. Over time I started learning more to The Golden Dawn and RHP magic systems. Agrippa and Barrett I started to read and study.

DATE: 03/09/2026

Former entry for today had Tuesdays date.

Stayed up listening to music. Now going to do mantras until I fall asleep.

This week I will be doing the same IOB as part of the LBRP to have ICE dismantle theorself and release kidnapped persons.

The reason why Iention the person is so others might do the same.

If it does not bring a certain person back on a week, Agares and Belial may be called upon.

RITUALS PERFORMED:

Instant Relaxation Ritual. Feel fairly relaxed.

Body Awareness. Sore left rump cheek, sore arms from exercising. Obese and out of shape, only remedied by exhausting exercise.

Breathwork. Foot to groin/root chakra. I need to remember to consciously breathe.

Tarot Contemplation Ritual: XI Justice. Libra. Daughter of the Lords of Truth, Ruler of the Balance. Faithful Intelligence. Lamed, ox goad or whip, 30.

Cartomancy Card of the Day: Five of Clubs.

A card of action and change. Changes in a work situation, a change in social standing. Symbolizes the five fingers of the hand. Can represent working with one’s hands, or making something. It can also denote exercise, physical labor, and providing the extra effort needed to get the job done. Action, physical activity, need for physical exercise, competition, sporting event, job interview, good luck.

PERFORMANCE: TBD

RESULTS: TBD

TASKS:

Out of bed and into wheelchair

Used bathroom, washed up

Got dressed and brushed hair w/ light soap

Brushed teeth

Therapy check in

Coffee social/Lotteria

Zelator Formula

Lunch

Stayed up working on drawing Earth Pentacle sides

Got into bed pre-dinner

Dinner and sleep