So, I’m here to scold Prince Marbas. Perhaps I will cause dislike to many, as by the very fact that some beginner and dilettante dares to say something bad about a spirit so beloved by many. But I have to do it. In the end, I registered on the forum precisely in order to share my results with this spirit in the future.
To begin with, over the past two weeks I have carried out several evocations of this spirit, I cannot say that I was very exhausting myself, made serious sacrifices, or did everything with the smallest precision, as required by some famous magicians. However, I tried more than for any other spirit, I made a sacrifice, I could arouse the anger of loved ones by doing what I do if they knew.
I asked Prince Marbas one important thing - I asked for help in the driver’s license exam. It would seem that it was some kind of insignificant piece of paper, it would seem, why I could not do it myself, without someone’s help.
But I don’t think so. This was extremely important to me. My life is not in the best condition now, I do not have a job, and I was hoping to find a job with a driver’s license, I now have a personal spiritual crisis, a difficult relationship in my family. I needed a detailed victory, I wanted to win, I had to feel again that I was capable of something. I really needed it.
Before that, twice the circumstances in the exams were not in my favor. I made mistakes the first time, although the examiner was very strict, the second time I grabbed sunstroke and got behind the wheel with severe pain and fatigue. And now, the third time.
I asked not so much, I asked to give me confidence, I asked for help with the circumstances on the roads that could complicate the trip, I asked for the favor of the officials. And what I got is nothing. He just didn’t give a damn about me, as I didn’t deserve it.
And no, I’m not some kind of dilettante in driving. I sincerely believe that I am a good driver, that I deserve a driver’s license more than most of my fellow citizens. And no, I’m not one of those racers who think that they have learned to drive at high speed and think that this is enough, I am actually an adequate, prudent driver, the lives and safety of other road users are important to me, I am very worried about their lives pedestrians, who in our country often die on the roads, because I myself am, first of all, a pedestrian. I deserve this certificate.
So, yes, I was able to handle simple tests on the exercise court. But then the collapse began. The examiner began to shout, be rude to me, constantly tried to show me the mistakes that were not there, I began to worry about this. At one difficult intersection, I had to drive a little into the intersected carriageway, for which they removed almost all points at once, and after I almost proved my case, the examiner sued me when I turned off the turn signal too late at one of the turns (20-30m). Only two dubious mistakes. Little things that don’t happen to almost anyone, that examiners almost never pay attention to.
I’m at a loss. I would prefer to know the opinion of the spirit itself on this matter. But, apparently, he has nothing to do with me. A good miracle did not happen, everything happened exactly the opposite. Circumstances turned against me, people turned evil in my direction, my own nerves were on edge (which I could handle).
Of course, I’m not some kind of teenager for whom such cases are the end of the world, my life does not end there. But I don’t know what to do now, as if I have dropped one step lower (another defeat in my life).
Maybe I should ask Marbas himself? Should I continue to seek his support? I would like to hear your opinion on what to do next in such a situation.