Teras390 - Belial (Journal)


#1

This thread will be dedicated towards Belial and showcase my experiences and the wisdom he might share with me in the form of a public journal, which hopefully may be useful to those who might which to work with him. I’ll be sure to add my journal notes that are of any use along with transcriptions of our conversations as I will deidcate myself to him for a time.

I’ve been meaning to work with this entity for quite some time ever since I’ve invoked him in the past. Invoking his essence though wasn’t enough, not for me atleast because I haven’t worked with him any real depth up until this point in time. And I think since I ordered the compendium and I’ve more or less been directed to him by Azazel himself I definitely think that the time has come for me to embark on a journey with Belial himself.


#2

Belial is a fantastic spirit to work with.

I wish u the best, know that Belial will do more for you than you could imagine, and look forward to hearing the results of your workings with him! :smiley:


#3

Thanks a lot. :smiley: I’ll be sure to begin right away as the compendium arrives, which should be any day now. Until then I should prepare myself mentally for this undertaking of mine, sinceI know Belial is a pretty strict spirit, he has certain expectations. What I just said is no understatement on my part since he literally told me, last time we spoke more or less said: Show what you’ve got and I’ll contact you when you are ready. I am equally thrilled as I am somewhat scared to be perfectly honest.


#4

What compendium?


#5

This compendium:

That compendium really seems to be worth every single dollar and based on my experience with BALG’s stuff so far, that I’ve used for various ends has been exceeding my expectations with good measure and worked really, really well.


#6

Ever since the Grimoire arrived the day before yesterday I’ve been elated yet there’s been somemething dreadful about it. The grimoire itself had a sense of inviting me yet at the same time is repelling me.

However since I’ve ordered it and having more or less felt compelled to work with Belial, the time had come to put myself to the test and after reading through the first key of making contact in E.A’s part of the grimoire - I decided to get my hands dirty, because I have made contact with Belial befire I wasn’t as intimidated as I might’ve or perhaps should’ve otherwise been. After closing the door and shutting all the light out, thre following ensued.

Darkness Communion

After gazing at the sigil until it flashed repeating the incantation of all powers:

Itz Rachu Mantantu Vespacha Kaltamu
Itz Ranta Mant Kala Mant Atzu Belt Tazu
Vaskalla Itz Ratzu Kantantu Velchatza

over and over again until the sigil disappeared and started reappearing, doing so in glowing indigo and silvery static, the air became thicker and thicker with eac repetition of the incantation, it eventually became really hard to breath.

When the air felt like it had became a blanket around me, I blew out the candle, weirdly enough despite it being pretty much pitch black the sigil could still be seen, which still doesn’t make sense, unless of course I had been sloppy when shutting out the light.

As the presence of Belial was now upon me I opened myself up for communication. Shortly thereafter a face of a demon with lipless mouth, came into focus, it looked much like a human in terms of it’s physical appearance, except that the skin was grey as ash, the horns were curled like that of a goat. It had no nose only a hole into it’s skull, and eyes burning like ember, and cracks could be seen all over it’s skin glowing with the same intensity as a roaring bonfire, like it contained a raging hellfire within, it opened it’s mouth but no sound came out.

The visuals would be disturbing unless I hadn’t been in the detached state - which the Theta Gamma Sync comes with, from there I said…

Me: Greetings Belial I’ve called upon you for there are many things I need to know. Things that needs to come to pass, things I need to understand which I am now ready for which i previously weren’t. I weren’t ready Belial but I am ready now.

Belial teach me the ways of yore, I am willing to serve and be served.

Belial:" there’s no point in teaching you if you won’t listen to me, why should teach someone who don’t understand his own worth, that worthlessness is a worth in and of itself. Why should I teach someone who isn’t willing to be helped? Even as you stare upon death in his face?"

Me: “I am more than willing to put in the necessary work that’s required [of me]. I am willing to fight for my right [to exist, to be], to smite my enemies, to crush the beneath my feet if I have to. Be family, be friend, no one will stop me now. This time you should know I’ve made all the necessary arrangements where I now have a stable ground to stand upon. I am able to move now as en embodiment of the infernal empire.”

Belial: "stability cannot be the cause of growth as it is the antithesis of growth. There’a only comfort that you seek. It’s nothing I provide as you step through the gate there’s no comfort, no bedrock other than yourself. You’ve only realized a fraction of your potential that potential must be seized in it’s entirety, not by your mind but by your soul and so your journey begins anew. Reach inside, reach inside and I shall help you release these chains of yore, which you shall no longer need.

It begins in the physical plane with friends and family where your mind is the maintainer of your perceived weakness. I shall help you destroy these bonds. You’re your own enemy from this point on, I will show you a way and I will show you they way."

From there I saw a gateway seemingly made out of congealed shadows. The background was composed of sickly green skies, with black and gray clouds, thr ground were barren and dry, nothing could grow here and sulfur spewed out of the ground, forming clouds of noxious vapour. A demon like figure made out of the same color as the gateway gazed at me with it’s white empty eyes, having the same color as the pearl inside a clam. the horns were shaped like those of a bull, the body outlined intense muscleature, like the skin had been pulled over them to a near breaking point. The being in front of me demon lifted a hand and with a long claw like nail pointed to the gateway and I knew I had to get up and literally take three steps forward walking through it. In the darkness it was clearer than I’ve ever been able to visualize anyhthing in my entire life.

Belial: “you’ve now chosen yourself, you cannot go back now, your friends weren’t truly your friends, you truly have no ally but yourself, will you govern yourself fully as one or will you allow multitudes of your so called friends leading you into your own stagnation, to bring you a sense of security and comfort which you so desire. Now that your soul has been born you may rise as one of us in good time, but first you must grow and break your chains - your mind is the first chain. You may leave now, you may leave now…”

Belial dissappeared after this in an instant, there was no dismissal required, which is something I always make sure to do, the air felt cold all of a sudden and I extremly lonely in a place I normally feel comfort. Here’s what I said in the recording the moment after he had vanished.

Me: “there’s no one but me here now…Belial was here it was like he posessed me, but I could still ser an emanation of him, reminding me of a Balrog in it’s face, a flaming demon in all respect but powerful. But I shall leave.”

Non related - sidenote: yesterday I’ve been thinking and thereby subconsciously I must’ve sent out a desire, to get hold of money that I’ve been needing for a project of mine. I didn’t ask for it at all but today a sum of 440.43 dollars was handed to my account from a family member, despite me not really working all that hard to really earn it. To note I honestly prefer to work to earn my income. However this has never ever happened to me before, I guess it could be Belial or it could be my familliar that heard me and decided to help me out.

BUMP


#7

ah, yes… the good stuff :smiling_imp:
a big step! way to go! :black_heart:


#8

Thank you. :smiley: It’s so much stuff and nuggets of gold to be found in what Belial said to me, some of the stuff is glaringly obvious some is still hidden or remains to be decoded. I think I should use this exercise for a time if anything to deepen the communion with Belial, in addition to use the spirits provided in the grimoire. This exercise was really, really great. The Masons really know their stuff in some cases it seems. :slight_smile:


#9

thats like the best and worst part of working with spirits lol

oh so frustrating to unravel the many layers of hidden messages, but oh so rewarding


#10

Please update this thread often! I really appreciate reading it!


#11

Oh yes, I am going to have take a few days to decode this and I’ll update as soon as I got something that actually makes sense. ^___^


#12

I will do my best to not forget to do so.


#13

Yes please, I am looking forward to seeing more conversations on you and belial!!


#14

Disclaimer: long post ahead - The words of Belial in the previous session of Darkness Communion definetly gave me a lot to ponder about. Today however I felt the need to approach him again, this with the idea in mind to ask him about the way I should approach our working relationship as in what to do next. In this case he had a few things to say but let me describe the whole experience to you as clearly as possible.

I’d like to add an interesting sidenote: whenever I am in meditative setting I do at times recieve what appears to be instructions about how to do them better or even to visualize them to maximize their potency, but that’s just a intuitive thing I’ve felt throughout this week that’s been slowly dawning upon me as I 've done the exercises.

Darkness Communion #2

As I got in the space I’ve chosen to be the best place to contact Belial (the bathroom) as it has no windows and it’s fairly easy to block out light in here I felt it was the best place, so I fetched a black candle and the the compendium which conventiently has the sigil of Belial printed on its backside. I recited the incantations of all powers:

over and over as I gazed the sigil, the sigil appeared and disspeared as I gave the conjuration and as it did appear again the lines of the sigil did so in indigo and silvery static, the silvery color could just be the silverstamp of the sigil appearing through the static but that’s something I’ll pay no mind for the time being. What’s interesting is the amount of pressure these particular demons seem to bring with them when the start to manifest the air becomes so thick so that’s really hard to breathe normally, in addition towards bioelectrcity in the body apparently starting to become more charged as soom prickling or energtic rushes could be felt in the arms, hands and face.

As I blew out the candle the presence of Belial became really strong a pair of mist white eyes could be seen floating of the candle for a short moment before disappearing and the reappearing way above the candle near the cealing appearing that time as of they had a faint aura around them, they disppeared and then the pressure around me intensified and I asked Belial he was there as it per usual when I contact a spirit.

Pretty quickly I felt loss of control of my hands and face, and the voice that shortly thereafter came out through me sounded like mine but something felt very off about it, it had a deeper tone, harsh and raspy and the words he is using the phrasing that came out aren’t the way that I speak to other people or likely the way I would write either, a whispering emnated from me at first but grew more intense with each repition of the phrase:

Belial: “I have always been with you, I always have been with you, I have always been with you. I am always with you. Always.”

“We’ve struck a pact not on this [timeline] but you’ve come to me before as you’re coming to me now, many times. Your steps are small and increasingly steady, you’ve learned to resist but you have not found ther way or the soul of rebellion and resistance within you, that is what you must find, that is my gift to you.”

"As you approach friends, family and others around you you’re going to see theior true intentions and what they are really looking for. If they are compatible with your vision then you may keep them if they are not you may ignore or end the conversationwith them and thus breaking from of them, paying them no mind. Until your interests might align once more that way you won’t be used as a veichle for others gain, you use them for their gain to your cause. That is what you must learn, to seek out those who would oppose you and make friends with your enemies and friends to your enemies, that is what you must seek and find.

You’ve learned a good deal of the internal mechanisms that govern people but you have yet to use the knowledge in a more profound way, I will teach you this, how to use the knowledge to your advantadge, I will also teach about the power of influence and I am also going to teach you about the how to apply the principles you know in magick, the shape the relaity around you to your wish [I’d have said liking or desire]. But first you must dedicate yourself fully to me."

Me: “How will I dedicate myself fully to you Belial, wouldn’t the thirteen days of power ritual you’ve asked me to do previously be suitable enough?”

Belial: “No. That is not enough. That is scratching the surface paint the seven pointed star and The Seed of Darkness. You’ll call all [the] nine (gatekeepers) and infront of them commit yourself to me. The 13 days of power will the prerequsite for that, to muster up the necessary power, do that.”

Me: "I’ve already previously concluded that ritual [13 days of power], why would I need to do that anymore? Why should I do the same exercise once more?

Belial: “Because, you’ve not evoked as you should have, a magician should evoke daily and you haven’t, that’s why I recommend to you; evoke often and daily that is when you’ll manifest and more potent spellcasting and spirit summoning. In addition to exposing yourself to what it is you wish to manifest more intently than you’ve previously and it’ll unlock, it’ll unlock the gates.” - I am reminded of what Fastos (a demon) has said about evoking in a video clip which is nearly identical in terms of phrasing.

Me: “Vey well Belial, once the dedication rite has proceeded what can I expect?”

Belial: Governence, governence of yourself that is what you must find, governence of yourself and governing of the mind."

Me: "Will the meditations I’ve been using thus far be any help in this cause of further it along?

Belial: "You speak a lot about practice and you stale out. You need to find more ways to manage your time. You spend time in a reality in which you do not belong, why would you choose to set the [ I’d said: your] standard so low to yourself?

Me:"Because I need an income and I need the potential of profit in the life experience, that way I can pay my bills and that way I cna also gather the new material that is needed, I need the monetary income.

Belial: “I’ll be able to provide that for you, but for the time being agree that might be of use for you, there might come a day when you’ll not need it anymore anjd you are going to have to give it up. Will you be ready to do so when the time comes?”

Me: “As it is as of right now, no. But that might change as we progress will it not?”

Belial: "Hmmm, you speak with wisdom you do not yet perhaps possess, sometimes you have ways of turning the tables in your favor without expecting it or knowing it we’ll see if those results sticks this time.

Now you will leave. We’ll meet again when the trial period is over."

With those last words Belial disappeared. No goodbye no thank you or dismissal he was just gone. The prescence just lifted and suddenly felt very light like I was able to breath let alone be able to hear my own thoughts, whenever I channel or in this case become posessed my head just becomes an empty space whenever the spirit does thge talking through me, my struggle with maintaining focus simply vanishes whenever a spirit takes over the reins of my mind.

I’ll attempt dissect the message of Belial have given to me around tomrrow, now I’ll need some time to relax a moment before going to mundane life.

Good luck to you who works with Belial as has been of him he is a harsh but a fantastic teacher and spirit to work with.

P.S the long monolouge in the beginning is likely Belial answring my original question I went into the ritual with, with good measure I might add.

Forever becoming

Teras 390


#15

I have been meaning to dissect and analyze what Belial has told me for sometime, however what he says in some cases may seem obvious at first but then when meditated about seem to mean something else. As I’ve promise to update when I’ve reached an understanding of what he says that might be of use I’d update this thread and I’ll begin with my

1st post: 2018-08-24

Here it’s faily obvious as I’ve been very obstinate in the past like expecting favors and not really listening to what he said or doing halfheartedly. When one works with an entity like this one, one really have to think if one is truly really for something like Belial, in truth you can never be sure but at least do not hesitate and trust the spirit that you work with enough that you’ll try what they are trying to teach you, despite it being scary like running to a graveyard in the middle of the night which I am planning some time soon as its apart of something he wishes to show what that is I do not know but I am going to trust him this time and dedicate myself to him as I’ve promised to do.

What Belial said first about stability cannot be the cause of growth for it is the antithesis of it, is familiar somehow it reminds me of what he told E.A and what has said every now and then through out the years - that chaos is necessary for growth or eveolution, if complete order there would onbly be stagnation and existence would slowly wither away as a result as it stagnates its way into its own own downfall. To me what he says there reminds of a virus attacks the body and once the body fights the virus off it grows in terms of vitality as the immune system has evolved to counter a new form of attack and in a way evolution has happened in our immune system as well various bacteria evolve and we must evolve with thems otherwise we will be destroyed. I remember Kurtis Jospeh said in one of his videos: devour, destroy, overcome or be crushed to me and its my opinion its bares close likeness with how we and things like bacteria evolve together, its a useful over simplfied analogy on my part to understand the ascent process with Belial as my teacher.

My chains could be my own expectations and things I do not myself capeable of pulling off as of right now, like a propper manipulation spell or seeing myself commanding legions of spirits for example, I think what Belial is refering to is attachments and mental limtations of what I am able to do, which he intends to show ways how to break free from myself, through sooul travel as it is probably the best way to break free of oneself.

Passing through the gate could be an allegory or an actual gate that I passed through I am still not sure what to say or think about that visual experience I had.

Ascent seems so far to mostly about choosing myself above everything else, in away it can be seen as something very selfish yet if you can help yourself you can be a positive force for others, if one so chooses, this is somewhat philosophical but it seem to far fetched. As of having no ally but yourself that is true enough you are always alone despite living with someone else, even if they showcase understanding for you and the art you are still alone with the spritis yuou’ve surrounded yourself with as you evolve to birth forth a new being that may or may not be of use to the people around you, whichever it is the only thing that’ll remain is your will and what to do with it…

The 2nd post: 2018-09-03

“We’ve struck a pact not on this [timeline] but you’ve come to me before as you’re coming to me now, many times. Your steps are small and increasingly steady, you’ve learned to resist but you have not found ther way or the soul of rebellion and resistance within you, that is what you must find, that is my gift to you.”

Tricky, the first part that is about him refering to a pact been made not in this time line but in others, it could be literal interpretation of him talking multiple realities, which also echoes something which E.A and other have talked about, other being or systems where beings like Belial are gods as well, which in turn can be dissected and speculated about but I won’t do it here. It also seem to validate something I’ve read before about other incarnations calling on Belial and thus contacting him is something I’ve done before in my incarnations and as they’ve called on him so have I and so I will continue to do so, its an interesting topic though…

I think he means literally seeing their true intentions, what they really want and hope to gain from talking to me. Technically every interaction has an ulterior motive the only thing that’s differentiate wether or not you have an advatadge or not is if you are aware of the intention of the other person. However its not just friends and family this abillity to see through them is only refering to but to other people as well. I am not able to frame it peoperly but its like to speak to someone I am reading into them more than just body language and such, it seems I am able to tap into their energy and thereby also sensing their intenetions in our conversation it struck me as I spoke with various people today, exactly what’s going and if this is true is hard to say, I normally don’t read well or hard into people as I usually don’t bother as it is draining to do so. What really stands out to me is:

It can be argued that this is mnanipulation but its not, it’s me and the other person I am coming into contact with having an equal exchange colloborating for our combined success on our terms, using their goal as a crutch to get what you want out of it as well, win - win comes to mind here. using this way of colloboration prevents and guards from beiung or manipulated as both parties has something to gain from their shared work but always make sure you use their goal for your gain…interesting thing.

Also what he said:

Agree to disagree or dissolve friendships if they are toxic or draining for you unless they can be solved if not, part ways and when parting ways, removing them from your life completely in every way shape or form. Thus former friends or others are not longer a burden you’ll have to carry. This time selfish but I can see the idea ass it may become an actuaility pretty soon, it felt good thouygh to clear out several old online friendships that weren’t going anywhere anyway. Perhaps it can be said with physical relationships as well as in the past when friendships didn’t work out I ignored or stop talking to people, Belials approach is the complete opposite of that…

This doesn’t make any sense yet, it just seem as circle reasoning it doesn’t add up at all…something is missing and I am going to have to think about this one.

The rest does not need any real analysis as it is fairly self explanatory, if you have question or other thoughts about this please don’t hesitate to share what you think however this is my take and I don’t think I am that far off either.

What are your thoughts, @Lady_Eva, @Micah, @Epsilon_The_Imperial, @calix_osseus , others?

Forever becoming

Teras390


#16

#17

Sounds like he’s slowly but surely guidning me into that as well. Really good read let alone very important and he’s right, thank ypu for sharing this as a very important message.:slight_smile:


#18

Two months has past since my last post in this, in the meantime, I’ve meditated and strenghtened myself in ways that are not related to this journal but have had an impact on how I have approached my work with Belial. However its time to update this with a couple of major rituals and innitations that has occured, in total three of them all the major in their own way, the order which they happened is different than one might expect but that’s what happened anyway.

Firstly I had pushed the dedcation far away from me, because of fear. Beings Belial aren’t thigs you just rush head first into, ast least that’s not me it took quite a while for me to gather up the courage and the skill necessary to do the dedication ritual to him.

This is my current altar that I have, along with an idol I have made for him I will tell you all about in a future post:

Here’s what happened in the tome - Belial Without Master there’s a ritual called blind sight I won’t necessairly give away the formula to it because that would be copyright infringement. But I will try to explain what I did along what happaned.

The symbol in the background the ninepointed star - I think the term enneagram, the star of Goliath, the mark of the beast if you may, some say that’s a symbol for the nine relgions of the world. In any case symbology aside. I took that (the seed of darkness (the ninepointed star) and placed nine white candles around it, one at each point of the star. I lit them and it was daylight but somewhow I sensed at that point that it wouldn’t matter at all. I then procceded to call on gatekeepers one at a time with specific conjuration that presnted within the book. Once the conjuration had been spoken here’s what I sensed, it was broad day light I had opened the door to the balcony and as I said each name of each gatkepper the wind picked up swftly from nowhere, the air felt cold as each of them appeared for a bit despite the noticeable heat over here yesterday.

Once all were gathered I could barely breath, I was close to fainting even. I remember what hey said:

The Nine Gatekeepers: “You’ve called and we’ve answered. You are not the first the call upon us through the eons, there have been many times you have called but but you are one of the first who call upon us now. Do not dally proceed with the ritual and what you came here to do.”

Their voices semingly the echo internally, not in whispers but in voiceless voices (without tone), which these is sort of uncommon I am usually able to pick up a tone to entities voice, here is where I took a blindfold and pulled it over my eyes, I did my best to recreate the ritual space in my mind, it was hard at first but became easier as I relaxed and strcutured the ritual area, piece by piece and eventually it was really, really clear, like it wuldn’t have mattered if I had taken off the blindfold despite it being a little bit grainy, but I think work on my clairvoyance more, this effect will fade away, the point is once that happened I called upon Belial to come. In front of me now stood a pair of feet, out of respect I sort of bowed like you’d do in some japenese martial arts, however not with the head touching the floor. I then heard a voice saying:

Belial: “why would you bow before me, you do not bow for anyone. Don’t make yourself weak. Its about time you dared to aproach me, so what do you want of me this time, what would have of me?”

I riased up and straighetened my back, looking directly at the face, a large towering shadow, with large black wings, and horns the shoot to the sides and then upwards, he felt very inditimating and his eyes burned like ember, peering into me like he could see my soul and my potential. The overall was one of tention and expectation which seemed to yet had to come to pass.

Me: “Belial, I wish to deidicate myself to you and to the cause of the gatekeepers, to spread the word and knoweldge of your power through your work. Belial all that is mine, so I wish of you to take me, posess me as I give everything to you, all that is mine is now yours.”

He seemed very neutral to this and followed up by saying

Belial: "Very well, but I expect you to work for us and yourself most of all, don’t hang yourself up on trivialities like time, all there is to the path is what you do now. You may begin the work and using the stepping stones which have been laid out for you tomorrow, now you must procceed with the meditations which you’ve been using thus far, strengthening your mind daily, otherwise there will no point in teaching you if you aren’t strong in body and mnd as well as spirit, and since all that is yours is mine,show me that you are willing to do that it takes and I will take what is mine and mold you into what you desire. "

I remember asking: “will me assuming the form of the reaper be enough?” - the reaper formula is an aspect that is described later in the same book, its an aspect of Belial that deals with Necromancy in a way.

Belial: “you may if you will use assume it, however you may not enjoy the full benefit of it yet, but if you are willing to do so then show me that you are ready through it.”

Me: “very well, then I’ll proceed with that as soon as I am ready.”

Belial: “You will never be ready.”

With that, I suddenly saw an image of space, like I were somewhere in a glaaxy for away and the seed of darkness shone brightly, with a white bruning light, brighter than that of any star. It came towards me and into me and at first there was just darkness, then I oduln’t breath, it was like I was aphyxiated by some invisible forth, like drowning in the darkness. My arms and hands were shaking. My heart felt like it would burst, kind of like how some patients would describe a heart attack. Like something being wrapped around your chest and pulled tighter and tighter and tigher. Eventually I fell over I was barely aware of what had happened and I couldn’t move, I really tried to move thinking: “move!” putting all of my focus into my hands, but it didn’t help, except some sproadic spasms I couldn’t move. I remember laying there thinking: “what now, move, what’s heppening to me?!” I don’t know how long I was laying down on the floor on my back completely helpless. Once I could move and I had composed myself enough to sit up straight. I heard a voice saying.

Belial: “The seed of darkness has been awakened within you. Amyamon will strenghten your mind and I will strengheten your body, you’re weak but the darkness will transform you now. You may now. leave.”

And with that the ritual was over, normally I would dissmiss an entity but Belial just dismissed me. I had to rest for a while and eat something after the effects of this, it was pretty intense to say the least.

P.S I will update this tomorrow, not I will have to tend to other things.


#19

Before the reaper formula I had to spend some time talking to Belial a good deal more and still waiting for the energies of the invocation to settle, you see in mars I had arleady invoked him and evoked him, the energies of the invocation has taken me quite a while to process and integrate in me. A part of the creating the idol, was imporsining a portion of my essence insode of it merging with that of the demonic king, in his aspect as the innitator into the mysteries of the Abyss - Da’ath. The idol which can be seen in the image in the previous post, after that idol had been created Belial was appearing here and there throughout my daily life, advicing me on matters of interactrion, friendships how I present myself to others at least at first, then he procceded to remove friends or rather feelings of unecessary friendships which I no longer needed. I’ve lost with people I thought I knew, people or things in general has all in all lost its value and the strange thing I am content with it. The only thing that sort of matters is my life, I am somewhat separated from them on pretty much every level I more or less do not feel any real connection with them inclduing the pleasures of the mundane.

After slowly building my relationship with Belial I descided to enter the gate to the abyss, which Asenath Mason gives you a formula to do in the book which I have previously mentioned: I have the permission to show the sigils relating to this but I won’t tell you about the methods for copyright reasons. So the sigil that sort of represents the abyss itself looks like this:

Here’s what happend after propping up the sigil I lit all three candles on the altar as well as a white and a black sigil which also placed on there nest to the sigil, they are placed ina specific way which I won’t tell you about. I lit my new favorite incense (dragon’s blood), the ritual involved blood letting, I won’t tell you in whwta way though, and gave the conjurations meant to open the gate and here’s what I pretty much went down;

As I just gazed the sigil I could deep mumnblings around, sounds and voices which lacked a source in the enironment I was all alone. After I had structure the sigil internally piece by piece behind my closed eyelids until became clear in my mind then I sent out a message through my ajna chakrah with the intent of asking for his prescence and guidamce I even said it aloud to enhance the effetc as words have power. The sigil then gre bigger and then it became a portal a orange and even blood red one, it radiated more a smokelike fire than anything else - very counter intuitive from what I had imagined.

The portal didn’t form into the face of Belial but instead he stood there at first in similar manner as above, very tall shadow with large horns as described before, and red eyes burning like ember and a forked serpentine tounge he hissed at me really peering at me, as I watched his face suddenly I was pulled up to the top of his head and I suddenly standing in what appeared to be a desert with orange sand, it could have something to do with the red sky above refelcting into the sand, I stood now inbetween two towers one white and black the white had fog around more at the top than at the bottom, the black tower had thunderclouds with lightning could be seen traveling in clouds despersing in the, the clouds but more lik really, really dark blue. Each of them didn’t have an enterance as far as I were able to tell - and a burning seven pointed star hung in the air inbetween the two towers, being able to project my consciousness through soul travel I took aim at a hill in the distance and traveled through, as I did it was completely dark, then I stood in a circular room that looked like:

I remember walking up to the throne infront of me, it wasn’t elegant it was really plain large stone throne, it didn’t have any embellishments or things like that at all. On it sat Belial, looking two skeeltal beings joined as one mathich the description Asenath Mason has given in the grimoire, but robes sort of torn but the color of their eyes were different, the white eye one’s has white mist orbs in them, whereas the darkly cloaked one had red glowing eyes as far I was able to tell. What was weird both spoke, but it was like I was only able to focus on one of them at a time. It was relaly confusing watching the throne spin counterclookwise while both of them appeared be still, but spoke at the same time seemingly speaking about the same thing through different angles.

I greeted him and thanked him for having an audience with me. To which he greeted me in return and asked me what I wanted from him to which I remember saying:

Me: how should I procceed on my journey? Because I think I am ready to go ahead with the reaper formula and assume that form, do you think I am ready?

Belial: Why should you care if you are ready? You never listened to anyone especially yourself?

Me: I think I have done everything you asked me to do, I’ve followed your sintructions to the best of knowledge…

Belial: Yet you consider time and everything else in your life as an excuse to not do ther work?

I was sort of puzzled by this but his rang true nontheless, as a student I have to make sure everything regarding that on time, and that can take a while including social circles (or what’s left of them).

Me: “So what do you suggest I do?”

Belial showed me an image of a lecture I were at where a woman who held it said that, time is more or less an illusion a thing that we’ve made, technically always have enough time to do anything it’s a matter of wasting it.

Belial: “Stop making excuses, put more effort into to your own becoming, you are blocking yourself, there’s no such thing as time, friends and family are no means to for escape of your duty. You may go now.”

Me: “I’ll leave. Thank you Belial for your wisdom.” - I said as I inhaled and pulled myself back to into my body. From there I descided to instantly move on to opening the temple of Belial as well as invoking and attempting to assume the aspect of the reaper. Which is what the next form will be about or at least the gaining access into the temple.


#20

The Temple of Belial

This is a step of the innitation that was both overhwleming and underwhelming at the same time. I propped the sigil up and bloodletting in the way done in the previous post ensued, and then I mediated on the sigil as was sort of discussed before or rather hinted at, I structured the image of the sigil:

in my mind and I was surrounded by blackness, and the sigil for the key to the temple became very large and it appeared to shimmer in a ghosly white hue and then it moved through me just like a ghost fading into the darkness. In front of me a little further away from stood a cloaked figure, the hood was covered in a way that made it impossible to see Belial’s face I knew it was him. Except the feeling around him were different but more on that later. He had skeletal hands and two large schytes with black handles, the blades the selves appeared to silvery blue he was more or less floating in the air, but I didn’t see the bones that was described in the text and I do not know why. I asked for communion and merging with his essence, sharp tusk like bones penetereated me from all sides, , through out my chakrah system, the throat, chest, abdoment, the feeling wasn’t painful but it wa shighly uncomofrtable, it remended of the enormous pressure that I had felt when seed of darkness had activated. But at least this time I could feel myself being able to breath, something else happened though Belial took his scythes and stabbed me right in the heart and I got up seemingly left the fleshy body that I had possessed and followed him through the seven pointed star. I now stood in a circular room held up by eight pillars, this room seemd to be sort of sacrifical place or a tomb, and it had warm bright light in the cealing shining down on something that was either a sarchophagus or an altar in the middle of the room and as I gazed it a voice could be heard saying:

Belial: “that’s for you some other time, proceed throuh the door.”

I projected to the door and imagined my hands now pushing open the door, they appeared to be transluscent almost ghost like. I then was in the same desert as before except that there were blood in the ground, the sand was more red and I could see a large pile of flesh and corpses emiting blood on the ground trailing to the bottom of an elevation of the ground, where a temple now stood a large towering building not so much made of bones as far I were able to tell, but I could however the swooshing of wings and vultures could indeed be seen circling thew tower and few skulls and bones could be seen laying infront of the temple. The gate were grey look solid rock, but there were some adornment in silver and gold surrounding the enterence I lack the vocabulary to describe how it looked like.

From here I pushed open the gate and I could two stairwells one leading up and one leading down and there a large double door in the middle of the staircase, I had to push open that door too and the door slammed shut behind me and deep gravly voice could be heard around me saying:

-“Now there’s now way back, you have to continue with innitation now, welcome young magician.”

With that I could see a large red reptilian eye with strands of yellow in it, it was lidless and peered into me from the wall at the opposite of the enterence , the room was ciruclar by no means small, it was pretty dark in here to say the least, the eye was sort of the only sort of liught except a pale light that could be seen, it came from the cealing in this case, it mainly lit up the altar and a bit of the floor and some minor sections of the room, in the middle of the room, around the altar were three cocentric burning rings visible conjoining right where the altar stood. I was aware of other beings in the temple, shadows whispeing inchoherent mumblings, I could hear the footsteps and something dragining o the floor but I couldn’t see anyhting other than the eye and the altar in the middle of the room.

I knew what I had to do I had to lay down on the altar and from here it become pretty nightmarish to say the least. I laid down and became devoured by a skeltal being with red eyes seemingly taking great pleasure in devouring me. I could see clear as day skin, muscle and tissue being torn away from my bones, large chunks at a time and this being devouring it right in front of me. It wasn’t painful it was surreal seeing this, and physically I noticed lagre chunks of energy was ripped of in the shape of the body part that was peeled off, it wasn’t painful but extremly uncomfortable both visually as well as kinestetically.

In good time I was picked clean, except my brain, everything was taken and devoured from me, as my eyes were plucked I remeber the way is see things became very different, the room was just filled with intense blue light in the shape of the walls and eveyrthing else. Then my bones was picked away and replaced with red one’s bone by bone and eventually rolled over and dragonlike wings were installed into my shoulder blades, I was somehow able to get put in the position of laying on all four and then Belial breathed the breath life into me. And from here, muscles, sinew, tissue everything back but I was altered nontheless. It was like a part of me were able to view myself from an outsiders perspecrtive, I appeared beast like, my eyes had turn yellow and orange with a slit in them like a car or a reptile, large black wings had grown out of my back, appearing much like those of a dragon, except they appeared not so much to be of flesh and bone but black swirling energy. I coule even feel physically how largs extensions of energy had been wipped out at my left and righr side.

Fire burned around me and Belial looked veyr neutral once more and said:

Belial: “You have now been reborn, you will find it easier to govern and push your power and will now. Work on yourself and for our cause and you will greatly rewarded, proceed now on the path and I shall guide you further.”

And with that I knew I had to continue immediately and so I did.

The next part will be accounted for by tomorrow as I must see to the daily meditations as pormised by me.