Disclaimer: long post ahead - The words of Belial in the previous session of Darkness Communion definetly gave me a lot to ponder about. Today however I felt the need to approach him again, this with the idea in mind to ask him about the way I should approach our working relationship as in what to do next. In this case he had a few things to say but let me describe the whole experience to you as clearly as possible.
I’d like to add an interesting sidenote: whenever I am in meditative setting I do at times recieve what appears to be instructions about how to do them better or even to visualize them to maximize their potency, but that’s just a intuitive thing I’ve felt throughout this week that’s been slowly dawning upon me as I 've done the exercises.
Darkness Communion #2
As I got in the space I’ve chosen to be the best place to contact Belial (the bathroom) as it has no windows and it’s fairly easy to block out light in here I felt it was the best place, so I fetched a black candle and the the compendium which conventiently has the sigil of Belial printed on its backside. I recited the incantations of all powers:
over and over as I gazed the sigil, the sigil appeared and disspeared as I gave the conjuration and as it did appear again the lines of the sigil did so in indigo and silvery static, the silvery color could just be the silverstamp of the sigil appearing through the static but that’s something I’ll pay no mind for the time being. What’s interesting is the amount of pressure these particular demons seem to bring with them when the start to manifest the air becomes so thick so that’s really hard to breathe normally, in addition towards bioelectrcity in the body apparently starting to become more charged as soom prickling or energtic rushes could be felt in the arms, hands and face.
As I blew out the candle the presence of Belial became really strong a pair of mist white eyes could be seen floating of the candle for a short moment before disappearing and the reappearing way above the candle near the cealing appearing that time as of they had a faint aura around them, they disppeared and then the pressure around me intensified and I asked Belial he was there as it per usual when I contact a spirit.
Pretty quickly I felt loss of control of my hands and face, and the voice that shortly thereafter came out through me sounded like mine but something felt very off about it, it had a deeper tone, harsh and raspy and the words he is using the phrasing that came out aren’t the way that I speak to other people or likely the way I would write either, a whispering emnated from me at first but grew more intense with each repition of the phrase:
Belial: “I have always been with you, I always have been with you, I have always been with you. I am always with you. Always.”
“We’ve struck a pact not on this [timeline] but you’ve come to me before as you’re coming to me now, many times. Your steps are small and increasingly steady, you’ve learned to resist but you have not found ther way or the soul of rebellion and resistance within you, that is what you must find, that is my gift to you.”
"As you approach friends, family and others around you you’re going to see theior true intentions and what they are really looking for. If they are compatible with your vision then you may keep them if they are not you may ignore or end the conversationwith them and thus breaking from of them, paying them no mind. Until your interests might align once more that way you won’t be used as a veichle for others gain, you use them for their gain to your cause. That is what you must learn, to seek out those who would oppose you and make friends with your enemies and friends to your enemies, that is what you must seek and find.
You’ve learned a good deal of the internal mechanisms that govern people but you have yet to use the knowledge in a more profound way, I will teach you this, how to use the knowledge to your advantadge, I will also teach about the power of influence and I am also going to teach you about the how to apply the principles you know in magick, the shape the relaity around you to your wish [I’d have said liking or desire]. But first you must dedicate yourself fully to me."
Me: “How will I dedicate myself fully to you Belial, wouldn’t the thirteen days of power ritual you’ve asked me to do previously be suitable enough?”
Belial: “No. That is not enough. That is scratching the surface paint the seven pointed star and The Seed of Darkness. You’ll call all [the] nine (gatekeepers) and infront of them commit yourself to me. The 13 days of power will the prerequsite for that, to muster up the necessary power, do that.”
Me: "I’ve already previously concluded that ritual [13 days of power], why would I need to do that anymore? Why should I do the same exercise once more?
Belial: “Because, you’ve not evoked as you should have, a magician should evoke daily and you haven’t, that’s why I recommend to you; evoke often and daily that is when you’ll manifest and more potent spellcasting and spirit summoning. In addition to exposing yourself to what it is you wish to manifest more intently than you’ve previously and it’ll unlock, it’ll unlock the gates.” - I am reminded of what Fastos (a demon) has said about evoking in a video clip which is nearly identical in terms of phrasing.
Me: “Vey well Belial, once the dedication rite has proceeded what can I expect?”
Belial: Governence, governence of yourself that is what you must find, governence of yourself and governing of the mind."
Me: "Will the meditations I’ve been using thus far be any help in this cause of further it along?
Belial: "You speak a lot about practice and you stale out. You need to find more ways to manage your time. You spend time in a reality in which you do not belong, why would you choose to set the [ I’d said: your] standard so low to yourself?
Me:"Because I need an income and I need the potential of profit in the life experience, that way I can pay my bills and that way I cna also gather the new material that is needed, I need the monetary income.
Belial: “I’ll be able to provide that for you, but for the time being agree that might be of use for you, there might come a day when you’ll not need it anymore anjd you are going to have to give it up. Will you be ready to do so when the time comes?”
Me: “As it is as of right now, no. But that might change as we progress will it not?”
Belial: "Hmmm, you speak with wisdom you do not yet perhaps possess, sometimes you have ways of turning the tables in your favor without expecting it or knowing it we’ll see if those results sticks this time.
Now you will leave. We’ll meet again when the trial period is over."
With those last words Belial disappeared. No goodbye no thank you or dismissal he was just gone. The prescence just lifted and suddenly felt very light like I was able to breath let alone be able to hear my own thoughts, whenever I channel or in this case become posessed my head just becomes an empty space whenever the spirit does thge talking through me, my struggle with maintaining focus simply vanishes whenever a spirit takes over the reins of my mind.
I’ll attempt dissect the message of Belial have given to me around tomrrow, now I’ll need some time to relax a moment before going to mundane life.
Good luck to you who works with Belial as has been of him he is a harsh but a fantastic teacher and spirit to work with.
P.S the long monolouge in the beginning is likely Belial answring my original question I went into the ritual with, with good measure I might add.
Forever becoming
Teras 390
