I was at a local tarot group discussion today and someone brought a book that got me thinking about something again. I’ve been on pause with BOTA for a few years, which started for work-related reasons but not I’m really starting to think my relationship with the tarot needs to be slightly refactored.
When I first started studying the tarot it seemed like, running into Golden Dawn and diaspora authors, there was a sense that there was ‘one right way’ or some relatively tight cluster of right ways to look at the keys, or… maybe not right but I think the better term might be ‘effective’. I’m actually coming to see that the effective way might be a fair bit different than just taking up the assumption that the keys are to be mapped onto the kabbalistic tree of life. As far as I know that was a Levi innovation (someone could correct me if there was a precursor to Transcendental Magic that touched on this) and TBH kabbalah started going a bit sour for me when people confirmed for me that it’s not really a map of reality in the rather literal sense that’s often claimed.
Where I’m left then - I see these symbols as logical operators or constraints. They’re containers that can fit certain force and form dynamics but at the same time are broad enough to accommodate many different things. I also get where you can chain these operators together to make useful structures although I really think there’s a leap of faith where they get liberally applied to the Hebrew language. In a way this form of mysticism is very punk, anarchistic, wildstyle graffiti, it’s something extremely innovative and guiled up and I like to think of it a bit like open-sourcing theism but at the same time - as part of that guile, there seems to be plenty of chicanery and it seems to be every bit as quirky and slippery as nature itself.
I’m wondering, with the paragraph immediately above, if any tarot books or work books come to mind for you that really take the logical operator or module piece seriously and treat the tarot first and foremost as a tool for mining the depths of your own psyche? For me that’s where this stuff gets interesting, and I’m much more interested in doing that than I am collecting promissory notes on which god names and archangels I’ll be able to work with in which sphere after I’ve crossed which path or promises of sidhi-like blessings received from mastery of the 22 paths. If I stumble on some of that along the way and find that it has some form of tangible reality more substantive than human projection then great, otherwise I feel like a bit too much fibbing and BS goes on around the tree of life and I’d rather any contact I have with it be organic rather than promised.
I’d love to get back to a really deep relationship with the tarot and parsing my own substance with it and I’m curious how many other people who’ve hit similar places and found particular authors or open-ended processes that seemed to be good catalysts for further work.
Thank you in advance!