Okay people, if you got a minute try to cope with my ramblings…
First of all i’m thinking about starting studying at monday ( i mean official school stuff, not self studying that i always do ) and i haven’t been in school for 6 years so i don’t believe it before i see it that’s why i said “i’m thinking” even if i am going to - but i still don’t believe before i see
What this has to do with anything? well everything… Let me tell you about myself.
First of all i’m quite stressed about this because i can’t do maths at all, i mean i don’t know if i can do it even if its taught to me i have always sucked at it. Any ideas how to fix this problem without brain implants?
Secondly, i see myself constantly slowing myself on my spiritual and wordly ascent (by worldly i mean money and all that) by finding myself doing completely unnecessary shit with wrong kind of people that are worth nothing to me in any possible way. I’m starting to fear that there is a problem why i draw myself into this kind of situations, even if its not so common as it used to be - but why does it happen at all?
Thirdly i need to say that even if i have had some success, i still pretty much suck at divination and can’t do anything too detailed by myself… I only had some near astral projection experiences but not YET have succeeded on that, and i have heard voice of 1 entity but i still cannot prove myself 100% that they are real even if i believe it, how can i know before i know if i only have heard some people say that they are part of our psyche, and others that they are real external entities? How do you guys know this?
I was thinking about calling Baba Yaga today or tomorrow for the purpouse of teaching me her secrets of magic and other, and i also heard that she does soul fixing so i thought i might be in need of something like that too for i recognize that i still struggle with some silly problems.
(i wonder if the soul fixing or any entities can help me with fear of flying, as i need to visit another counties - so i can pick where to life when i have enough money )
But is there any sense calling for the spirits if i can’t see or hear them, if i’m not 100% sure that they hear and operate for my favour? but how can i learn if i don’t call? Even if i have got some proof already by some entities, the confusement in my life makes me struggle on these partially slippery steps to the tower of wisdom and glory.
Tell me where to place my foot.
- Thank you in advance.