Ok so I was scrying trying to figure out why my guides arent letting me do as i please and are keeping me from Ascending. What they kept showing me was scenes of Childhood pain and Suicide.
They showed me a vision of me sitting by a well known lake in the lotus position in meditation.
I had a notebook i brought with me as well as a Rope, Apple, and Knife.
The mood of the meditation had no tone of depression whatsoever, but was purposeful.
I scryed into the writing in the notebook and It was written in Demonic Tounge. The first page of the notebook however said,
“Suicide Pact, June 19th, 2022”
I continued to scry and saw myself biting the apple, cutting my neck and Hanging myself. No tears, no regret, no nothin. A somber expression and a cynical smile and snicker.
Followed by me laughing and shaking my head.
So…one thing I got was that they dont want me doing crazy shit like Hanging myself to get into Contact with Odin, but as for the rest, what does it mean?
The thing that got me was that It was my Godself doing this. Not my human self.