March 22, 2021
Checked the timestamp and was shocked to see it has been 10 days since I’ve last posted here. How time flies!
I’d say I was doing nothing, but that’s not entirely true. I’ve been caught up with work and I’ve thoroughly exhausted myself trying to cope with all worldly responsibilities. No matter how busy, I’ve been contemplating my practice and things I could do/want to do.
I’ve been looking into plants to grow for warding, for offerings, or herbs for spells. I haven’t come across much luck in the department since I live in essentially a vampire den with little light for plants in my room. However, it is warming up so I can plant something outside at least. Still need to do far more research in that.
I haven’t cleanse my house in over a week either and I can start to feel the shift of energy in here. I lit all the candles presently on my altar (save for a few) then went to smoke/sound cleansing the room and all the crystals in my possession. I fell into a soft trance watching the smoke dance around my bracelets, which was welcomed because I was able to experience the demonic energy settling into the room that has been absence for a little bit. In doing so, I managed to scare myself because I locked in on the sound of someone breathing and I wasn’t sure who, but it did make me clam up in momentary fear. My clairaudience is still developing, so it spooks me sometimes when I manage to catch something crystal clear.
I sat with Rosier and Leviathan first on the floor with their candles. Just me and them and my thoughts. I was sorting through my emotions in a much needed mental cleanse with a mix of energy work. I attempted to focus on my heart, throat, and mind chakra, though I fell into the reflex of starting at root and going upwards. My energy sat at my sacral? (The one right above root) and it warmed quite noticeably, even now I still feel it. A little disappointed I didn’t have the same outcome for any other one, but that’s alright.
Afterwards, I felt a pull to sit with Lucifer, as it has been a while since it was me and him. Refreshing it was though. Sitting with him warmed my entire body and fixed this vacancy that has been weighing in my chest lately. Probably from lack of practicing. No pathworking this time; a simple invocation to bring my energy up to his and realign myself.
Admittedly, sometimes I do take for granted the divine presences in my area and life. You never really notice the weight of someone’s existence until they leave the house. My brain has shut out most energies entirely and I haven’t been lighting my candles due to fatigue, so feeling anyone again has been such a blessing in itself. I’m training myself to keep myself open to any experience at all times.
Other than that, today’s tarot pulls is the 8 of Wands and the Chariot (rev). I haven’t really sat on that one, so I’m not sure how it’s applicable to me right now. I had a passing thought of a formal ritual honoring Hekate (with a friend who is coming back into witchcraft) while driving to work and I got hit with a pressure right across my head for it. I’m still wondering if that meant anything or if it were just a passing feeling. Uhhhh, not much else in the mundane.
Anyways, way past my bedtime for this one, so- Goodnight everyone!