I consider myself to have a very strong affinity to Lucifer. I have recently started reading Mark Alan Smiths’s The Red King, which has me intrigued to say the least. I have started to draw some of the sigils in the book and something out of the ordinary seems to happen during the drawing of Hecate’s sigil…For no reason I can discern I break down crying and find myself sobbing which is totally totally freaking bizarre. I powered through it, and still do not understand why I would have such a strange ( for me anyway) reaction to a sigil…I’m not by any means what you would call a spiritual person, got not a psychic bone in my body (just intuitive) …so because this is far beyond any intellectual rationalizations or rational explanations, I seek the answers from fellow practitioners…
Have experience with Lucifer and Belial…admittedly I have none with Hecate, and its only within the last few weeks I have started rituals which call upon the power of the trident. I am going to read the work Queen of Hell…I have to say , and not to be a pussy about it either, since im going forward any ways, it is somewhat disturbing to realize a sigil could have such a profound emotional impact on one’s person from an entity one has not worked with before…Because my all too Mercury oriented mind can not interpret this , seem to be at a loss. There is a heaviness in my chest upon the construction of it…
Is this a mild possession (to which I will be in awe and embrace it) or perhaps does her sigil have the power to cleanse any emotional baggage that may be in a persons??
Something similar did happen when working with Gargophias. Rather than asking for things she bestows upon the practitioner, I had asking for a connection to Hecate which of all times to get emotional did cause a heaviness in my chest and throat and for me to break down. This is a little embarrassing to happen in a ritual, because I had always learned one had to tuck one’s emotions away when working with and establishing command or resonance (more appropriate , since they are their own persons) with spirits…
I’m at a loss of explanation. Drawing the sigil be the second time, and tearing up occurs while reflecting on it as though I am right in that situation right now…I don’t understand this…
Does it have meaning or is it just arbitrary???Have any of you experienced anything similar with other entities?