This is really weird and I should categorize this as baneful magick, I will keep it in the general discussion for now.
I have recently been getting “strange” new urges, as I progress. I did not do more evocation’s or such but I have been meditating a lot more and gotten in proper TGS.
I have been friends with my friend ever since we meet 9 years ago when we were kids. We are greatest of friends even now, but something has changed with me. Knowing I have the potential to kill people with curses, it changed me I think.
Each day I’m asking myself the question if I should curse him or someone else, infect someone’s dreams with all kinds of horrors, ruin influential people and so on.
Do you also get these kinds of “urges”?