Hi! My name is Ariel.
In the past two months, I’ve been experiencing some kind of contact with what I think is an energy from another plane of existence. It started when I was going through really bad emotional and psychological situations, mostly because of an abusive relationship with a manipulative person, and the contact I had literally stopped me from ending my life.
In the middle of a breakdown, I tried to calm myself through meditation. I layed down in my bed, and closed my eyes. In a few minutes, after many deep breaths and many countings from 1 to 10, I was able to stop crying, and actually relaxed for a moment. In that state of calm, I was able to feel my surroundings. Even with my eyes closed, I could visualize my whole room, as if I was actually looking around. And the more I concentrated, the further away I was able to feel, to the point of realizing what was going on outside my room, even in the street.
In that state, I watched as something I can only describe as a physical sphere of dark light formed above me. I was not scared by what I was seeing. On the contrary, I felt like whatever it was, it’d be able to help me.
Somehow, that manifestation spoke to me, but not through words or anything like that. I simply got the message it had for me, except for one bit that I could never understand.
“You can’t live anyone else’s life. The weight of someone’s burden isn’t yours to be carried. Learning to respect and empower one’s own self is essential. Saturn does not want it to end.”
Soon after that, I woke up from the state I was in, feeling confused and questioning myself if that had really just happened. Through all the confusion, though, I felt relieved, as if something heavy had been taken off my shoulders. That message was related to my partner at the time, that would always say they’d commit suicide, and use that as emotional leverage to get me to do what they wanted, to the point it started compromising my relationship with my family, and academic life.
The bit I can’t understand is the last phrase. I don’t see how Saturn relates to the situation, and I have no idea what Saturn doesn’t want to end. I tried to meditate and to acheive that same result again, looking for answers, but wasn’t successful.
I would really appreciate to know what is you guys’ thoughts on what happened, since I don’t have much experience with anything like this.
Thank you in advance! Preformatted text