Hello there I normally don’t go personal but I figure in this case it will be useful for budding black magicians to know that self control is important, when you reach a certain pinnacle your thoughts and feelings really can cause accidents if you are not careful. I’ll illustrate with a story from my own experience.
A few summers a go I was living with my parents, they found out I practiced Magick, initially there was not harm done, they were skeptical but allowed me to pursue it. Then like always when I get really interested into something I only spent time meditating pursuing the. Black Magic course, horrified and wanted to retain control one of them took my things and threw them into a box making me swear I wouldn’t pursue this again.
Naturally like any black magician whose heart burns for their ascent, I said I would however I continued in secret, having memorized and journaling the rites, etc in that course in case that would happen.
I later found out this was a test from the spirit to not become to fixated by tools, that in fact I had reached a point where they are useful but not mandatory. One of Azazel’s as well as Lucifer’s test I was working with both spirits at the time Azazel more strongly.
I was angry with my family, however for one of them, the one who stepped over me again, I really felt a burning hatred for them at the time, this isn’t the first time they’d done things like this. Interestingly my desire for their demise came about a week or two after, they became very ill, the individual contracted a very rare illness where it’s basically none unless it was discovered in time will survive.
The individual would stop in the middle of actions catching her breath for no reasons, intense headaches even migraines, tiredness, swelling in the legs and arms, name a few symptoms. As well Insanely high blood pressure.
The spirits told me this was my doing and since it was a family member I was horrified, sure I was angry but I never wanted them to die. About a year later after combating the the illness they survived however the individual payed pretty dearly for their survival. And as I moved out I was given my things back.
The Point of the Story
As a black magician and god/goddess, you are omnipotent to a degree you barely even beginning to realize until something similar happens to you. Trust me when I say you’d do well to use a little self restraint and focus of your thoughts, otherwise who know what might happen to the things you actually care about.
Magick doesn’t follow any laws, it is for your use, and is to be used in your domain as you see fit. In case you have other opinions let me know.