I wrote a very vague and brief introduction about myself and I thought if I really want to grow spiritually, I would need to be more forthcoming or more detailed here in order for one to understand the level that I am at right now.
As for now, I cannot hear or see demons manifesting themselves before me. I desire that alot but at the same time, I am scared shitless. I think my fear is the only reason to what’s stopping me from achieving spiritual goals.
I’ve done magick successfully and also not. Lol. I rarely ask of anything but to only set up a ritual working to establish a stronger connection or bond with them. Tho I’ve not seen them in person but I’ve seen belial, lucifer, king paimon, Mephistopheles, a dragon( I was doing a ritual on Tiamat), and my all time favrotite Lilith in my minds eyes. I only heard lucifer but he gave me a one word reply.
Even with the lack of knowledge in this pathworking, I dived into afew things that maybe at my novice level, and shouldn’t. I think my greatest accomplishment so far is to have opened the 9 gates of hells, summoning the 9 demonic gatekeepers. The energy was so fucking crazy.
I think most of the time, I incorporate astral working with this physical plane rituals most of the time and maybe thats why my magick is often successful.
Due to personal reasons, I stopped practicing magick and somehow lost faith in them but it’s all coming back to me now. I kinda stopped doing rituals, giving offerings. I still love them very dearly, too much that I’ll forsake anyone I know in this plane Just to be by the demons side. But I just want to find the initial spark that got me so hardworking in this path, I’m slowly building it all back. It’ll take awhile but I am hopeful.
When I first began on this path, I made a pact to lucifer to give my soul, body and mind to him. Without even knowing what it means or what lies in the nearest future, I can only say I’ve been thru fucking shit but I’m slowling seeing the light now, slowly seeing the path lucifer is guiding me to go. I think that even tho a pact was made, it wasn’t really made. I haven’t dedicated myself to a demon but I’m always team Lilith. And she’s a huge part of my life, people who try to see my astral plane told me they got blocked by a succubus, needless to say who.
I want to do a ritual again, I want to find that spark. I want to gain spiritual growth, I want to know all the knowledge of the occult. Necromancy… what demons should I invoke? I do not do evocations, as it’s my own beliefs that it’s rude to evoke a demon. What demons should I invoke to gain the sight, the wisdom and the ability to achieve what I want with the guidance from them?
Recently I’ve been very drawn to lucifer as I feel that he has a message for me but I can’t hesr him, I can’t see him. What ways can I go about when I want to connect with him even more? And also, while watching EA kotting videos, I chanced upon him mentioning Amaymon and lucifer. What are your experiences with amaymon and should I invoke him?
Sorry for the lengthy post. If anyone wants a list of the demons I’m worked with, just let me know. Hopefully it’ll let you further understand me more.tjank you!