I know people have asked this before, but everyone’s situation is different and I figure I should ask as my needs might be different then someone else’s, as a spirit might work better with me then not with someone else.
I won’t get into detail but I have ALOT of trauma in my life, and even current trauma/abuse. It’s taken a MASSIVE toll (my heart basically feels broken but also so filled with bad emotions it’s not at all healthy, and my mind is no better off as everything is connected).
I have early life trauma (abandonment/orphanage), two passings (mother and sister) however alot of bad stuff happened between, life was never easy as my sister had drug problems and was involved in gang/prostitution and got the family involved through bringing these kinds of people over often. It was very chaotic, she got jailed (won’t specify why) but after died from an overdose. She was the oldest and this was a huge impact on my other sister and i. My other sister is…a bully towards me? There is physical stuff , but most is manipulation/lying, emotional abuse among other things.
However she also got into drugs, and it did stuff to her. I’ll share only this much. Just to give an idea of what’s going on. I don’t know whom to go to for help… mostly I feel I need to feel love (my sister, and the fact I lost my mother had caused this need in me), and relief from all the stress. It’s pretty extreme, and keeps getting worse. I feel like my life has only been going down and down hill, just slowly.
If I was going to try and work with a spirit it would be for:
.Love (although I prefer it on a spiritual level vs with humans-- my preference)
.Emotional Support/help with managing my own emotions (I’m empathic and family life/people/environment is very hard for me )
. I need to toughen myself up so that I can feel stronger emotionally and not affected by things my sister will say to me, or sometimes other family members. So like sheild myself or something?
.Work through trauma, and such.
.Deal with anxiety/depression that is a result of this (although I’m naturally anxious but more so now and days)
*Love is a priority, I feel that everyone has a right to feel loved and supported, and I feel very lacking in that.