And I first got a bit triggered by the whore thing lol.
Basically, I find it infuriating how women now use the terms slut or whore on themselves, often only if they decided to follow females natural instinct for security.
Why would you ever call yourself something degrading invented by toxic people?
Nobody really blames a man for his instinct of liking attractive, young women.
It doesn’t mean you jump on every man because he’s waving the dollar bills.
In fact, I rejected so many men who offered me longterm security that now, I’ll probably die alone, but that’s ok, I enjoy my own company.
And I completely agree, if someone hurts you, it does indeed hurt less if you experienced other benefits.
Unfortunately, the types I fall for are not exactly throwing money at women.
They are often very cautious lol. A man needs to love or find a woman very attractive for that. I know they might pay a ho… a couple of hundreds, but that’s not really an accomplishment. Every girl on the street can get that.
I changed my circle of friends long ago so I barely meet normal men now.
In 2019 I did a ritual and met a musician (and gambler) who was a perfect match.
Energetically, we were great for each other but his irresponsible behaviour with finances had me cut him off.
I asked him to fly on a holiday with me (I would have paid for myself) and he couldn’t afford it. Then I heard he went gambling again and I finished it. Not the genetics my child should have. But usually the men I tend to meet along the way with normal background are rude to me or don’t find me appealing…so it’s not hard to avoid them I guess.
I am not sure I “brute forced” a change of beliefs, I was obsessed with obtaining something or doing something (and I also really enjoyed it), and things somehow began to fall into place.
I was willing to face all the uncomfortable situations I usually try to avoid. The desire was stronger than the fear. I had absolutely no doubt I would get the thing which made the process also enjoyable.
I also experienced personal growth from it just as building a talent everyone told me I don’t have.
I practised and searched the hell out of it - met with maybe a dozen teachers. The process was painful but still made me happy. I just wanted it so badly, I could not give up, no matter how many people would give me bad vibes or discourage me.
I tried over and over and over again.
I think repetiton and not giving up is the key.
Over and over and over again. I could not believe it wasn’t for me… and then I got it.
Other things worked more easily, but not really.
I just wanted this thing so badly, I would have killed for it. The want just made me do whatever necessary. There was no fear, no doubt, no left or right - just the goal and the walk…and you get it in the end.
Some people here say you should not want and let go of attachment. Well, maybe during the ritual but when you take action in the real world after, this strong desire which kills all pain on the way is necessary. You just know it is yours. These things I have also worked for in the real world (beside doing rituals or LOA) have lasted