I feel miserable, as if all the gods and entities have conspired to have no connection with me. I try to contact entities, but I simply can’t hear or feel them. I feel like everyone in this world has turned their back on me, and then I see others on this forum receiving calls from entities without even trying. Is it because of me? Is it out of desperation?
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@LadyEva is no longer on the forum that I’m aware of … but … she wrote a great article on our tutorials for “Core Shamanism”, and another great article on “Tool Free Magic”.
Search for these. Also, there is O.A.A. which was written by @E.A.Koetting, It is an article that was reviewed by Adepts and Magus’ alike.
Finally, @DarkestKnight wrote articles on Angelic mantras to remove parasites, heal yourself, and call on your Magickal Potential.
There is also a group working on doing magick for others, though I believe that is for people who’ve been active members for 90 days or more.
Nobody is a Magus overnight. Cut yourself some slack.
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This is normal. Based on your intro you have only started practicing a year ago, and jumped right to evoking without spending much time developing your astral senses. You don’t see or hear for years until you develop clairvoyance or clairaudience, and even then it usually in your minds eye or via intuition
Very often people that needs things done rely on petitions and techniques that don’t need much 2-way communication.
We have a bunch of tutorials here that are about developing astral senses. All work as you are basically working the same “muscles”, just pick a way that sounds cool to you that you will practice regularly, ideally every day.
And know that not being able to sense them, doesn’t mean they’re not there. Unofficial Tutorials: Developing Astral / Psychic Senses Collection
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Dude, I made that introduction 3 years ago.
And you made only 8 posts in between?
So why would I think you had done anything different? What exactly have you been doing in the interim that makes you think you should be hearing or feeling anything? What meditations, divination or other practice help you develop these senses and do you usually get good intuition or insights from your subconscious?
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Well, I usually work with the archangels of the zodiac and the angels I communicate with intuitively, in a kind of evocation where I don’t see them, but I do feel them. I even felt their hands touching me once, but I haven’t made any progress since. A few days ago, I tried to invoke certain entities of the Left-Hand Path, like Tiamat, Belial, and Azazel, and no matter how hard I try, I can’t connect with them. I don’t even feel them, which is frustrating, because that’s the path I want to follow, but it seems the entities of the Left-Hand Path don’t want to connect with me.
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What you’re doing is not an easy task. To try to work with the RHP and then overnight working with the LHP.
An old member tried to help me, and I think my fears and haphazard (or incompetent) working with the Goetia, was a coffin nail iin the making.
He was and is a Demonolatry worker and black magic Adept. He worked extensively with Orobas and Lucifer (and with all of them, really). He then worked from the Lesser Key of Solomon, to Le Kabbalah Practique. He made contact with the angels.
My opinion is that you do not meditate, nor scry effectively, consistently, and regularly.
I see, have you tried only once, and in the same ritual?
They are not that. LHP is based on your intent for the working, it has nothing to do with the entity. If you ask Azazel or any entity only to help others, which you can, that is right hand, nothing sinister about it.
Could your attitude that these are somehow different than angels be affecting your energy and hence the calling? Azazel IS still an angel, he always was, he’s on the wrong side of the JCI religio-political spectrum but he’s nerveless angelic in origin, the same species, so to speak.
I’d say try again, we all have off days and it seems a bit soon to say you have been abandoned.
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I’m similarly hamstrung, but a little further on the path than you. The problem, as I understand it, is twofold: the noise from our body’s senses is very loud, and the signal from our non-physical senses is very weak.
Meditation is how you learn to turn down the volume on your body’s senses. Imagination is how you turn up the volume on your non-physical senses.
Meditation is like going to the gym. It’s about the reps. You get stronger each time you catch your mind wandering and bring it back to the focus, which for me is my breathing. Eventually you find that your mind has not wandered in several minutes, and that thought is your mind now wandering. lol Back to watching myself breathe.
For using your visual imagination (which seems to be the most difficult for people), in the beginning it’s easier to remember an image than to create an image. Try to see every detail. Try to make it move. Try to move around it.
Auditory, same thing. I listen to a song and try to hear every nuance of voice, guitar, and drums, and then pause the audio and try to hear the song in my memory.
For the tactile, Robert Bruce, New Energy Ways. This accomplishes two things, the second being energy manipulation practice.
Combining the previous two, I imagine a woman whispering very closely, and her lips brushing against my ear. Sometimes I can give myself shivers from it.
After a couple of months of fairly serious effort, I am beginning to experience very brief and occasional phenomena, like seeing an orb move past me, seeing a glimpse of figure standing in my hallway, out of the corner of my eye. And most recently, during draconian energy raising, seeing a serpent eye with a vertical pupil so brightly that it fades in my physical vision like it came from a light, as if I saw it on a bright screen and then looked at a blank, dark wall. When I willed to see it again, I did, but not as vibrantly.
Some of us have to really work for it.
KralHor
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I think my experience can be useful. The first challenges were bright. I think the newcomer’s mood played a role here, the mixture of emotions apparently influenced the perception. But I also initially have a tendency to mediumism. Then there was a break, 8 months. Then a few months of meditations on the elements. My progress looks like this: the energy that I felt by the edge of consciousness now began to be perceived visually as well. I’ve been hearing in recent months. Rarely, but stable. I am sure that after 5 years of stable practice, everything will inevitably grow in scale.