Hello! New question again in less than 24 hours. I’m feeling rather curious as of lately so I think I’ll be asking more questions.
From the question above, I have recently hit a brick wall in life. Or maybe it was already there. There’s nothing for me to currently do other than focus on my studies and meditate. A short break from school will be coming up very soon and that will just mean something less to do. I do take interest in a few topics, but only for some seconds and then I’ll loose motivation.
The main reason is because I don’t have any reasons to cast some spells or do some summonings. The only thing I do is meditate because that should be a daily activity that every magician should take part in. I don’t need any money, so I can’t cast any money spells. Not interested in any love affairs. Thought of picking up a few sigils to just gaze at but I don’t want to bother anyone for no apparent reason. Thought of working with a few Demons but there’s nothing that I need help with. Every day it’s me getting up at 5AM, going to school, getting home at 5PM, meditating, sleeping and repeat. On weekends I just sit in my room not doing anything.
The fact that my life has hit a stalemate makes me loose the motivation that I have and the excitement to do things because I have no reason to do them. I don’t know what other magicians normally do on a daily basis, so there’s nothing for me to do. I tried online magick courses but all they say is meditate and meditate, then I’ll be able to move on to the next phases, which is what I’m already doing.