So, i ramble a bit jus to be wary…
Hello, my name is Will. It has taken me some time to figure out who or wot i truly am… Ever since i can remember a thought in my mind it has been dark or demonic or relative to wantin to learn, perform an master magik. Never have i ever doubted da presence of satan, or his minions, contrary to shuttin out bible thumpers an god an jesus altogether… Way i see it, deres a whole lot of darkness an not very much light in dis world an jus cant belie in a god aspect when deres such shit smeared across da globe… I never really lookt into it becos truthfully i didnt wanna kno da truth to wot my mind actually comes up wit til i saw a youtube video tryna figure out if i have a succubus… So da thoughts were always there… but in late 2012 i set off to buy a feline companion an named him Lucifer. From dat day forward, somethin clickt in my mind an i started feelin like i can read peoples thoughts, ideas etc an have full blown convos wit dem buh never confronted dem aboutit. I have had dis quake in my balls since den… now dont get me wrong, ive always been addicted to sex, porn an masturbation… but dis was completely different… actually feelin someone stroke rub an lick my genitals was new… odd… wonderfull… but new. So i jus kinna went wit it, figured im losin my mind or sumn… lol
I moved into dis really old house from like late 1800 or early 1900s… started figurin it might be a possession of da like, researcht dat a bit buh really didnt fit da criteria perfectly… I den started to search if a female spirit can… well… fuck me. Leading me to succubus. Ive been super sexual since i was like 9… watchin porn, imaginin girls around me naked, feelin like i have xray vision an jus doubtin myself… In later 2012, maybe a month after i got my cat, i fell at work an shattered my L4 vertebrae… bein da independant person i am i hated bein catered to by nurses an doctors an jus completely hated myself, depression an wot not cos i couldnt walk nor use my dick… I am/was so used to gettin off dat release as soon i was able to get hard… i did… catheter in my body an all, i released time an time again… throughout da past 2-3 years ive had dem crasy thoughts an visions about people, relations, an jus str8 sex… I used to smoke weed a lot, buh recently whenever i do, i feel pain, in my back an leg dat was more fuckt up when i fell… so i rarely smoke anymore… though it is more enlightened when i feel sexually aroused an get rode by said “succubus” da pain i experience now is jus not worth my while… Its prolly also worth mentionin im not myself when i am fuckin, i am an old friend, he is buff, got a big dick, etc… im not so in shape myself an sometimes self conscious of dick size, so i use him… i also dont masturbate much anymore, its jus to finish after multiple hours or layin dere gettin groped, suckt an fuckt… da weird part is doe… i never summoned it by ritual, invoked it etc… it also doesnt speak, buh i ask question an my leg twitches if yes an well… doesnt if no… also read a recent thread response to someone attemptin to acquire a succubus… sayin dat dere were trials, tests of sorts… as i would get riddles when she might be angry, buh gettin dem correct jus brightened her up… im oh so very lost an need some help figurin dis an many other things out… i can get into further details if askt specifics or i remember sumn by wot yu reply wit… to ensure wot is happenin is happenin… buh dis is da main stuff i recall an am goin thru as we speak.
Recently i have found myself, my tru self, da dark inside me, wantin to let it out… now im tryina really discover dis dark side ive never really unleasht becos im truly done tryna fit in wit da crowd. So I am here, tryina learn about succubus an if any of wot i said is possible widout a summon or ritual. I also really need to learn how to center, control, an stay put in my a euphoric state wit my magical vitality.
I also have always had a interest in Vodoun, Necromancy an Black Magik…
Yes, I realize dis is a lot for a beginner, buh if yu gotta passion for sumn, it jus comes to yu an makes yu work harder… so im finally tappin into dis dark side ive let linger buh never dissipate to finally understand wot it is ive been doin wit my life…
Again, thoughts, comments, ideas, help! lol