This is by far one of the most intense, darkest, bloodiest experiences I’ve had when it comes to traveling to different realities and meeting those who inhabit the space. It’s fucking insane, honestly… I’m having a really hard time even finding the words to properly express how intense this was for me… But, I’ll try to stay on task and keep the story moving forward smoothly.
This all happened yesterday. I made a connection with a fellow sorcerer. We basically became instant friends because of our seemingly claircognizant understanding of one another. You know how it is. When you meet someone and you see your darkness in them and they see their’s in you… There is that feeling like you were both expecting one another. Anyway. He doesn’t use this forum, so I won’t bother with names or anything like that.
We were talking magick, chaos, shadows, intent, and ambitions… And he is in the possession of some really intensely powerful magickal tools and relics. There is a particular medallion that he created with another sorcerer some time ago.
I meditated on the Sigils and Symbols that adorned the golden circle…
I uttered the words “a collection of spiderwebs woven into the fabric of chaos…
it feels like its being condensed…
pulling energy in
the energy is heavy and dense going in
the trap only releases ethereal smoke
there are many faces…”
My left arm and left shoulder, including the muscles around the shoulder blade became tight and stiff, almost paralyzed. I took a breath and shook it off.
But, moments later, I began to feel light… My mind clear of thoughts… My body tingling… My eyes opening wide…
Suddenly, slightly above my head, I saw something rip hole in the fabric of my reality. It was a long tear, like someone took a big pair of demon scissors from Hell and just snip, snip, snipped a nice long rip in your trip, trip, Tripp pants…
Then, I was being pulled into this tear in space, and entered a world whose shapes and structures could be called similar to what we experience here… but everything was stitched in Flesh. Blood was spread everywhere in abundance… Even the sky was red… and everything was of flesh, and blood, and bone, and death. There were glowing red sigils and symbols all over, cut and burned into the flesh that bound together created this world…
After taking in the sight of this place for what seemed like both an eternity, yet only one second simultaneously, a group of dark grey, skeletal smoke demons with horns of bone, viciously attacked me… They were short… I would compare them to Imps in my mind… They were slightly see-through, too… as if they were ethereal… made of both smoke and bone…
This is where it gets fucking brutal. Broo. Tull.
Have you ever had your throat cut deeeeep, feeling your blood fall out like a flowing fountain? Have you had your skin on your back, stomach, chest ripped and torn down to muscle and bone and internal organs by small, sharp, skeleton hands?
It was a sight to see… They even took a noose and hung me from a tree, while my neck was bleeding out, and they were continuing to stab and cut with knives all over my body, rip and tear with their bony fingers, and just mutilate my flesh in any way imaginable…
At one moment, they noticed I was still able to breathe slightly, even though I was strung up by my neck, and with throat cut… so they cut out my lungs, and my heart, and ate them in front of me.
And I would not die. Things would just somehow not be cut, or ripped, or destroyed on my body… like a reset button was hit so they could torture me endlessly.
Now, while I existed in this realm of perpetual pain and suffering… I also was aware of my existence here, in this dimension… Existing in both worlds at once. I could see them and where they were damaging my body, but now I felt no pain. I could feel pressure… a tug here, a poke or pinch there…
But, they were also starting to communicate with me through their torturing. I realized that they were guiding me to feel my death in their world, but as I am alive in our world. When they would hang me there, in this world I would hold my breath. When they cut me, I would visualize and feeeeeeel the blood flow, and I would let my body go limp and close my eyes, and just feel the blood flow, hold my breath, and focus on the blackness behind my eyelids…
And experience death. Alive.
Not only was my mind blown wide the fuck open, into a million tiny fucking pieces, but I was over come with THE MOST PLEASUREABLE FEELING I HAVE EVER FELT!
Imagine how good an orgasm feels. No imagine your best fucking orgasm. Now feel it all over your physical body, from your hair to your toes. Now feel it in your soul. You feel it in multiple dimensions. Orgasmic waves of pleasure surging through your being, but your being is multiplied by the layers that define you and by the number or planes you are a part of.
Now imagine that orgasm doesn’t end. It just keeps surging, vibrating… never too intense… never fading away… Just pure pleasure, unending.
All I had to do was sit there, and when they cut me, I had to bleed and play dead. When they hung me, I held my breath… And through this game we played, I could have made that moment of death and unimaginable pleasure last infinitely…