[quote=“EpicGnome, post:1, topic:1933”]Hi, so I’ve never been into vampirism and haven’t developed my astral tendrils or practiced the vampriism exercises that are written in BALG e-book, mostly because I don’t have with whom.
Anyhow, what I’ve been doing is that every night for like a week, before I slept I will create a psi-ball with the intent of absorv energy from someone I don’t like.
after a few days I forgot about.
I started to feel with more energy, also I know that the guy is losing his energy, since he live in the same house I do, he talks about being more sleepy, he got sick recently and today was complaining of a great pain in his chest.
The thing is, I’ve notice that some times when I talk I sound a bit like him… now that was something comon when I was a kid, to adopt some habits from my friends with whom I sepnt more time with, but that guy I barely talk to so I don’t spent enough time for that, and besides sometimes I recieve his thoughts and feelings.
So, you guys are more experienced, do you think is because I’m absorving his energy that I’m havig those “side-effects”? if so, how can stop that? should I make a more sophisticated programing on the psi ball?
The programming I did was visualize like a big tendril attaching to the guy, in no specific part and violently stealing his soul, but after a few nights I changed into “absorv energy”.
I must admit I’m feeling sorry for the guy so I may stop feeding on him, but I still want to improve in this so advices will always be well recived.[/quote]
You’re depleting your room mate’s energy and you’re taking it at an unsustainable rate, you are causing pain to his heart/lungs most probably, and the sickness is a result of his depletion and immune system not being powerful enough, and it may manifest itself in the failing of an organ or a more serious sickness, and eventually if you keep at it he may die.
You feel better, but the fact that you can feel his emotions and have adopted his habits is letting me know that you’re taking a lot of his energy.
There was a time where I was near death, when a powerful person infused me with a rather huge amount of energy and it completely changed how I acted and the things I said and did changed and became identical this person’s mannerisms, habbits, and humor. It has to do with the amount of energy you bring in compared to your own, and the nature of that energy. When I became strong enough to do this back to the person, their personality shifted to my own. It has a lot to do with quantity.
Something you’ll notice the more you get into vampirism, is that human energies are tied to thoughts and emotions. This, is part of why I do not feed on people, because I feel like that’s going to eat at McDonald’s where it feels satisfying at first, but in 30 minutes it leaves you with a feeling and a sickness in your stomach that leaves you asking, “What the hell did I just eat”. The truth is I enjoy feeling empowered from Qi-Gong and rituals, and I have found the energy far more stable to work with. From what I can tell many ancient masters of Qi-Gong actually practiced vampirism on their (multiple) wives and completely depleted them till they were literally wispy women, while the master who fed on them was powerful, strong, and could practice his art for hours without tiring, and was said to have such strong chi that when he ran over a river he could sprint over the leaves. However just because he was an incredibly powerful master didn’t mean this didn’t have risk, because he died at a young age of a heart attack. It seems his body was incapable of channeling all this stolen energy, or he overused this power until it killed him.
The only time I ever use Vampirism, I use it as a weapon, and offer all the energy as tribute.
Also beware, unless you are filtering that energy, you’re getting more than thoughts and emotions, any impurities in energy come to you.
And the fact that he’s sick should be a great indication that you need to stop taking energy from him at least for a while, because if you don’t, you’ll be feeding on imbalanced and sick energy and will become imbalanced and sickly also. Is that really the kind of food that seems appetizing, sick and dying food?
If you’re going to take this practice seriously you should make a list, and a sizable one to feed from, otherwise you’re going to deplete your targets one at a time until they wither up like dried flowers in the desert sun.
Most people see vampirism as simply feeding on people, specifically viciously on a single person at a time. This is the greatest illusion fostered by the masses, for the greatest predator harvests his prey calmly in droves, like a farmer collecting his vegetables, or herding cattle to the slaughter house. More time is spent refining your techniques and methods of feeding, so you need to spend less time doing it, which also frees up more time to find more targets to feed on to again speed up the process, and minimizes harm to the target or the chance of being noticed by someone you feed off. The greatest vampires I had ever met, made it an endeavor to cleverly set up networks where they could feed on the energy of thousands or even tens of thousands through a direct connection at a time so they could feed deeply on a regular basis with little risk of being noticed or doing any real damage. This is something you can’t do with a single person unless you wish to “use them up” and do great harm, and there is the risk of death if you have skill and persistence. One thing is certain in life, with animals and even plants, those with the weak auras are prone to early death by any number of factors, if you feed deeply on someone their aura will be depleted sometimes for months, and if done successively it can damage it’s ability to regenerate. This is an unfortunate fact, and many vampires cause unnecessary harm to feed, knowingly and willingly doing this and tossing their used victims away like soiled tissues or the remains of their last meal.
At least, this is my experience.
Best of Luck,
-Frater Apotheosis