This is my first post here :)…
I recently posted this message on Evocation Magick. Did not get a single response. I completely forgot that buying the ebook meant that I was a member of this forum, so probably more appropriate to post here seeing as you guys are more likely to know what I am talking about! Post below, any advice or comments would be very much appreciated…
I have been doing the black and red candle ritual (from Koettings Become a Living God) for my love problem for three nights on the trott now. At three am, I wake up, set up my makeshift altar and circle and do the ritual. I meditate for about thirty minutes first- using the omnipresence/particles of light meditation given in Evocation Magick (by the same author). I then go into the ritual and when I begin my chants, I go into trance really quickly. Afterwards, I go get a drink and fall back into bed exhausted.
The night before last was the most intense. Time flew by. What felt like 30 minutes actually turned out to be almost two hours. Before I started this ritual, I was having really terrifying nightmares with my intended involved. Since I started this ritual, I sleep easier, however, I wake up completely exhausted.
I have lost weight this week also, and my chronic illness which has been so controlled is coming back. During the ritual I feel fine. It is after, the next day that I feel strange. I know he has a lot of resistance to me because he is angry toward me (due to his own insecurities). Could this resistance and anger be making me ill?? Or could he have some strange entity or energy around him fighting me?
On the results side, I KNOW something is working, but he is stubborn, so I doubt he will do anything about it unless he is really suffering.
Has anyone else had this kind of experience with a love spell? Do you have any idea what could be causing this reaction in me? Please help.