It started two days ago when i was riding home on my longboard. I just learned to ride and i was still very much terrified of going down hills without stopping. I was riding down a hill sitting down on my board when suddenly i started to say Belials enn. I had forgotten his enn when i was in ritual but it just came flowing out my mouth when i least expected it. I rose to my feet on the board and coasted down while yelling his enn. I dont still quite know what happened but i think its something i should mention.
Today I woke up feeling like i had a really bad hangover with a bad cold (i dont drink nor am i sick). In all honesty ive noticed that this happens when any combination of entities im working with increase their energies towards me during the night or if i did a heavy evocation. I felt like this the entire time i was walking to the store then as soon as i adknowledged the particular entities that i have pacts with there was in influx of energy that made me queasy and then it faded away as i turned on my music and began to sing.
When i was walking home today, i was singing and Asmoday kept sending images of himself to my third eye. i found it very funny that with each song he changed his appearance. however this isnt what this thread is about. All of a sudden i get the image of a man with a lions head in a business suit. i know this to be Vine so i did not panic. however this is when it all began to become weird. i felt myself being pulled deeper and deeper into a trance with Vine being the initiator. you know how during ritual or a rite how you want to reach the point called the crossroads and at the crossroad you want to reach rapture? I have never quite been able to get to the rapture point, but today that changed. as i stumbled on further i reached the rapture point. it felt as if my very energies were exploding out of me as i merged with Vine. it felt like i was in another world. my vision became blurry and i collapased to the ground(still concious but helpless). in that moment i understood everything yet nothing. Vine then realeased the energetic vice grip he had on me. i continued on my way home dazed and wondering what the hell just happened. Guys i think i was just pushed to my limits.
what was your first time in rapture like? does this sound accurate for a rapture?