Hello, I’m coming here to ask you very specific question, which lately haunts me- visualization. My perception is not really visual- I cannot recall mental images at will, I’ve never seen anything under my eyelids, my visualization is just mere glimpses in the “back of my head”- and they aren’t vivid at all, they are almost colourless and they disappear within moment. In all magical techniques there must be something to visualize, and I feel like I’m handicapped- I follow GD’s path, I have prepared my eleental weapons and rainbow wand long time ago, but didn’t consecrate them because I’m afraid that with my handicap it will be one big failure, and I won’t be able to properly consecrate talismans, not even sayin about evocation. Do any of you have similar condition? In my case just simply visualizing things doesnt help- I’m doing pentagram and hexagram rituals+ middle pillar on daily basis for a year and half and nothing has changed. Am I just fucked from the beginning? Is scrying in the mirror possible without being able to visualize something under my eyelids and having very poor skills in visualization overall? I’d really want to scry, and it’s really important for me, but I’m unsure whether those two skills are interconnected, and if I’m just unable to do this kind of things. I’m really counting on your help here, since I’m undergoing mild mental breakdown because of my condition for some time now.