When I first attained that state of merger and then the resulting (and completely unexpected) ability to make things and events manifest by thought alone, I was totally alone with it and had never found any explanation of the phenomena in the teachings I’d studied, except a warning (too oblique to be understood by me at first) that the closer one came to genuine “Yoga” as in Union, the more likely it was that “distracting siddhis” would appear.
That was legit, from the POV of those guys who were, as I was at that time myself, exclusively focused on merger back to Source and gave not one good goddam about being able to operate this godlike power on the human plane.
But, stuff happened, I changed, and now I have the clear intent to be able to do just that - something that was mentioned in my earliest posts on here, which (by happy coincidence) were one year ago today.
This is about the only place online where people do experimental magick and have that unique interest that’s placed somewhere that spans old-school mysticism, as in, exploring the nature of existence, and the traditional definition of magick, as in making changes to occur in accordance with will.
Given this, I'm just wondering what it is that this expression would serve other than just "talking about it." I mean, there aren't gonna be many people here who have experienced what you are talking about even remotely, so are you expecting them to be able to add something to the understanding despite that lack of experience?
Yes, because it’s happened too many times as a direct result of reading this forum in the past 12 months, and in fact has happened on this very thread!
Arkhilokhus’s post above triggered a coming-together of ideas that had been happily co-existing in my mind without me ever making the connection, and that’s given me something to explore next, and The Cusp having similarly “coincidental” experiences as me has helped me feel a little less crazy and a lot more like there really is “a tide in the affairs of men” etc., just as Sultitan_Itan’s recent post in another thread that led me to find Robert Bruce’s “core affirmations” gave me a solid base upon which to build some work on my own subconscious, which is directly related to debugging myself for this work, and The Fool’s posts have prompted me to buy the Magickal Cashbook online, which also gave me some ideas I’m still working through…
I mean really, from where I stand, it would be criminal to NOT post my stuff on here given that there seems to be a huge web of synchronicity linking so many themes across so many topics right now.
If I logged in here and for several weeks there was nothing that remotely sparked my interest or harmonised with my own work, then maybe I’d consider it all a waste of time, but that’s far from the truth… very far indeed!
So, back to business: my next piece of work will be to visualise the darkfield (my own term for where I took the darkness exercise in Works Of Darkness) and attempt to structure things in it, having first triggered and then returned from a samadhi => Union experience, which I seem to have discovered a short-cut to triggering, in a manner that’s wholly compatible with LHP thinking and practices (after having attained it previously, from years of diligent study of yogic principles in my RHP days).
The challenge I posted about when I very first joined this forum was how to operate the apparent ability to manifest things almost miraculously that can be a side-effect of achieving that Union state, because attaining it before required a heavy level of detachment from normal human consciousness and therefore made it hard to feel the level of desire that I’d found to be effective in performing standard LoA-style manifestation of events and objects into my life.
I’m going to attempt to stimulate that desire through demonic invocation (demons being, or at least heavily representing, the over-riding love for particular things) and through using my will to structure the items in the darkfield, which I’m speculating MAY be the substance Wattles was describing in his book (a book which I’ve also put to the test and got good results from over many years).
I’ve explored all the “ingredients” or guidelines I’m aware of that I feel aid rather than restrict my own work and will use that awareness as well, and I’ve already covered those in other posts.
I’m not going to post what I plan to manifest, or when and how, but I will report on it if and when that becomes possible, and meanwhile I’ve described in this post, as simply as I know how to, the operational principles I plan to use and the reasoning behind them. All the terms I’m using, like darkfield and Source, should be self-explanatory to people who’ve done the work that leads to experiencing them, and will become so for people currently working with those areas.
Too scientific and verbose at times?
Maybe, but fuck it, I’m not forcing anyone to read my threads, or doing anything other than experimenting with “real magick for real results” via explorations of personal divinity, so, alongside the fact I’m online a lot anyway coz of normal-life reasons, I’m sharing here in case anyone else finds it of interest.
I suppose I could use the time to look at amusing pictures of cats, but that’s really not gonna scratch my itch…