I have been looking into some time towards removing myself of all sexual desires. I am by no means a “nice guy” at least not anymore, but I have severe emotional scars that interfere with any possibility of a relationship. I suffer from PTSD, ADD, and Schizophrenia… so you can imagine that any sort of long term relationship is going to be out of the question. I have also decided that since we are all going to die in a couple of years, and that essentially nothing on this mistake of a planet we call earth actually matters, that pursuit of said romantic relationships are useless.
However, the flawed biological need to reproduce or have sex has caused severe pain in those that would other wise logically decide against such things. I really wish I was born asexual, I could get so much done, no distractions no wasting of money on people I could not have a future with to begin with. It would certainly remove the possibility of children which is a plus in its own right.
I have tried alternatives such as a succubus and while it was a nice distraction, it quickly led to obsession. There are rare moments when I have reached state of meditation which I call “Nihilistic Nirvana” in which I have no desire for sex or much of anything, but such a state requires immense mental focus and lasts far shorter than I would like. Someone on this forum or perhaps on another site, posted something about trying to turn a heterosexual man to be open to the possibility of a homosexual relationship. It got me thinking if such a feat were possible, would it also be possible to change ones own sexual orientation to none at all. There would be no resistance because the subject would a willing participant. Ive tried a little mix of hoodoo and some teachings of the Temple of Them. There were some effects but they were not permanent by any means.
PS. I don’t want any of that bullshit of you just have not met the right person, or keep trying shes out there. If there is perfect mate for someone as wicked as me… believe me I don’t want them. What I would like is a serious psychological/magical change in which I could look at a otherwise sexually attractive woman and feel nothing… at all.