Just wanted to say that I believe I have made significant progress in my attempts at evocation. In a sense, each and every attempt is a “success” in that Azazel is certainly present even as soon as you call his name. This was made clear to me with a vast number of synchronicities, and even someone close to me–who has no idea I am involved in the occult–stating, in a disturbed tone, that she had felt a presence standing next to her, which she thought was me, though I was a good 10-15 feet away from her. I knew then that it was Azazel, and I had even just saw a quote from E.A over the necessity of “dismissing”, even if you feel the evocation was a failure, otherwise these “forces” could be running around causing havoc. In my case, it seemed to be a positive thing, as things that I had been worried about just suddenly started getting solved. For example, I need a law internship soon to graduate, and the moment I began feeling like I had hopelessly waited too long to apply for any, random students approached me and offered me multiple options, basically telling me that they can get me in to this or that firm based on my reputation and their endorsement very easily.
Anyway, when I was told about the “presence,” I immediately told Azazel I wasn’t holding him there, and that he could go, or stay, or whatever he likes, and I apologized for evoking him in vain over and over again, because I give up when the evocation seems to fail.
Anyway, the other night, I feel I had more significant success. I told Azazel I needed some sort of sign in order to psychologically feel confidence over the working. I had managed to get into TGS, maybe beyond TGS. My experience seems to be very different than other people’s. I hear hundreds of conversations kick off when I reach that state, none of them towards me. Too many to really hear what they’re saying. I also hear music, classic rock mainly (lol), in perfect renditions. Then it’ll silence after a few minutes. I believe this is merely the noise of my own brain externalized.
In any case, after the silence, I evoked Azazel, assumed he was present, issued the task, and then asked for a sign of his presence. It was then that I heard what sounded like a dog making a noise, a sort of half-growl, and I felt the paw land on my hand, as if comforting me (as I was emotional), and then pull away.
Still not 100% positive, as I have never read of Azazel taking such a form, but I took it as a powerful sign and ended the ritual.
In any case, it is certainly progress. I will continue evoking, aiming for more substantial contact.
It seems small, of course, but for me, this is a pretty big step up from the petty chaos magick style sigils I have been doing for the longest time. I’ve improved a great deal simply by watching more of E.A. and researching deeply into this forum.
I haven’t been banishing daimons after evoking or even dismissing. What I started doing in the last few days is releasing them to do their work. Dismiss and banish to me have connotations of “now get the fuck out” whereas releasing them feels more like “thanks for coming, you can go when you want”