I’m having internal issues with magickal systems that appeal to YHWH. Something very strong inside me tells that YHWH is different from the “All”, “The Creator”, THE God. In my view everything that personifies and entitles God limits it, and if it is limited is not “The All”. The closest view I believe about God is from the “Caibalion” that God is “The All”, infinite and unknowable. Everything that tries to define it diminishes what it really is.
So studying some context of magickal systems I realize that there are stories where God is angry, God punishes, God cares. And this is so human and imperfect. A Tibetan monk would better solve the situations where God got bored in these stories. So im afraid that YHWH and all other gods that people try to define (limit) are just huge egregors.
I’m not at all safe and comfortable calling these Gods (in the context that they are absolute, i feel like im feeding a fake god with a lot of power of my will do you understand?) for making rituals and reading psalms to practice certain types of magic like Solomonic and Angelic magic. And somehow i do believe in Divine Power, and Angels. I do believe they were created to assist in the process of creation. And i want to contact them.
So my question is if you think it is possible for me to really have contact with angels ignoring tradition and creating my own method. My objective is to contact the divine ignoring all biblical aspects, psalms and that names like YHWH, Adonai, Elohim and instead calling for “The All”, “Universe” in a “neutral” and “real” way. My soul just cant worship something that feels very wrong. My intuition cries out loud telling me that all those stories are not what it really is.
What is your vision about YHWH do you believe he is indeed the creator and master of all that is and will be? And Angels give a damn for those things at all?
Many thanks to anyone who reads my distress. It’s something that is holding back my evolution.