I’m editing this post to make one thing clear - this baby/Child referred to herein is a spirit, an entity, a non-physical being, and it is NOT a human child, I have NO human children, no human children, babies, or conceptions of human babies are involved in this.
That should be abundantly clear anyway, but it’s so far in violation of my ethics to involve human children in black magick that I want that right up here where everyone can see it. Not a human child. A DEMON. Hope that’s clear.
This totally weirded me out, with regards to the timing, because I’ve been doing this stuff since I was underage (for human sexual activity) AND I’ve been planning to birth an entity, specifically a daemonic entity, for a while now, based on my first successful evocation (i.e., external to me, tangible, and other people were affected by it) which was kind of an egregoric thing took the form of a malevolent baby, and which I conceptualised as my own child at the time.
My mother was originally told she was having twins, so I possibly (like an estimated one-in-eight pregnancies - it’s nothing special) started out as twins, and then while I may not have physically absorbed my twin, its life and development would have been sacrificed for my own, and I drew a parallel between that and also the fact that every month I bled out material that could have become a child… heh, I think I mentioned that I was a weird teenager…
Anyway, I stopped using that entity because I was young, didn’t know anything about magick except what I’d read in books (like some of Dennis Wheatley’s stuff, and “horror” authors), and it got kind of scary - wanted me to draw pictures of it and start giving it physical form - but I’m older and probably more competant now, so yeah.
It’s been something on my mind for the last few years, for various reasons, and then recently as I’ve got more competant at “black magick” it’s begun to seem the natural next step for me, and all my trusted and long-term spirit allies and mentors have been in full support of this.
What’s cool is that the physical form I’m planning to give this, at least to begin with, is based on the skulls EA had in the vid about the demonic heirarchy - a skull, possibly a glass one, with the sigil in wax upon the forehead, so I totally got her initial kind of “nursery” from that! (Divination says she’s going to be primarily female, but further details are either not shareable right now, or aren’t yet complete. My first egregore/daemon child was male.)
To be honest, this is the internet, aka home of nutters and haters and all sorts of eejits, and I wasn’t even going to post ANYTHING about it, but this forum is such a groundbreaking place at its highest points, I feel motivated to share - and like any would-be mother I’m going to be keeping a lot of stuff completely personal and private, because I want to avoid prurient interest that’s little above the level of a sideshow - but, what I can post of the results, I will.
Totally incredible timing, anyway!
Sex with spirits, anyone fancy sharing some experiences on that topic? Sensible stuff you’ve actually done, or genuine questions and concerns?
I recommend it (with the usual cautions) and think this is a great area to explore, a great way to transcend your links to everyday life and start seeing things a little differently, and I’ll maybe share some stuff but again, I’m not interested in putting on a sideshow here, I have a serious professional life and also a partner who I don’t want to disrespect, so I’ll see what (if anything) other people care to bring to this thread before I post more about that topic.