Last night I decided to perform a physical evocation of Mepistahl. I decided to break from my normal astral evocation/scrying sessions due to a comment I read online at a forum titled “Wizard Forum.org”. Although I am not a member there I was doing research for a different spirit and came across various posts from what I can only describe as a pontificating practitioner whose view of what I do is “mental masturbation”. He states, and I do agreed with him to a point, that evocation is “calling forth” an entity and that “everything else” is jerking off… This pissed me off as you can imagine, but it also kicked my ass in the right direction.
This individual goes so far to state that he has worked on most if not all of EA’s books, but that EA is nothing more than “sensationalism” and that “mental magick” as it were is equivalent to rubbing oil on your own ego(not to mention your own sexual organs). A paradox if nothing else.
Now,I do believe to an extent he is correct, however, magick, no matter what you do, always begins on the mental plane. At least I have proven this to myself for many years with written and observable results. This individual states that “to perform an evocation you must have A PHYSICAL APPEARANCE - THE SPIRIT MUST BE IN FRONT OF YOU IN COMPLETE FORM. Mirror evocations,sigil scrying,channeling spirits and writing what they say to you in your mind, to him, is mentalist bullshit.
With that being said I decided to evoke Mepsitahl to physical appearance for two nights straight and record my results/share them with the forum members.
My experience in the past has only been “Astral evocation” in the Kostantinos point of view. I have been quite successful in that method and most recently with EA’s but now felt that its time to “pop the cherry” so to speak and begin my own “manifestations” IN FRONT OF ME.
Below was my first setup on night one. Used the following:
Ritual Chalice hand-painted Golden Dawn style with water(for aspersion)
Knife and chalice (EE style)
Mayan Copal Incense
Ritual book and plain Mead book for quick notes
Ritual wand (for middle Pillar)
Triangle of the art (KOF) with three blue candles
One silver antique vessel for incense
One black 6x6 floor ritual rug.
One very large ritual sword(used for spooning incense as needed.
Notice that my rug has as of yet not been painted as I’m currently re-writing what my fire familiar provided me as its version of a circle of pacts(mostly angelic script, some familiar, some never seen before) however my true circle has always been created astrally and its always been effective.
Ok so lets dim the lights and begin shall we?
I began the asperges of water after consecrating it within the chalice then walked around the circle sprinkling and ad-libbing praises to Mepsitahl (as in the video) which really gets you in the mood right off.
Then I performed the LBRP with the black hilted knife and it was powerful indeed. Creating huge blue flaming pentagrams all around me. I evoked the archangels as well in this case to preside over the operation. ( I always envision them and their appropriate colors,alchemical symbols,feeling of wind,heat,water,etc to bring them to life)
The middle pillar rite,I felt, was just a way for me to relax and energize my chakras(which I never actually do these days) Keep in mind that my whole rite was improv. The exception was the intent I had in mind.
I threw in the copal and sat in a relaxed pose near the vessel. The white smoke was thick with an aroma of cleansing and opened gateways leaving me in a state of flux. Quickly the temple filled with smoke as I began to fall into the TGS ( its become an on/off state for me at this point).
The paper sigil was in my left hand. Her name spoken in praises as ages ago. Her sigil glowed and began to quickly fade out. I continued a mantra of her name, her essence,her beauty,her love,her potential. I wanted it all!.
I continued to call her quietly…Mepsitahl,Mepsitahl come come…your beauty as vast as oceans of time…
I then noticed the smoke beginning to move up in a stream and explode, attempting to, what I can only say would be a figure. I continued to call her. My eyes then fell unto one spot in the smoke. Blue lights appeared in my vision flashing brightly. A face then began to form from the smoke. Appeared similar to a plaster cast of a face. I was so lost within and without me that everything around me fell to pieces. Reality was a thin translucent sheet of cookie baking paper torn in pieces.
This lasted for a few seconds. Then a blue fog appeared brightly in the center condensing itself tightly. Her face and body appeared in my astral vision “behind the smoke”
This is exactly the same thing that occurs when scrying unto water or a mirror. The same effect only this time in the air in front of me.
Her voice was slightly different. Almost as if she was speaking to me in my right ear. So distinctive and so alluring. There was a two-way channel of communication. I spoke to her aloud and she would simply reply mentally. A form of telepathy if you will. What i saw was almost a holographic representation of a woman.
I asked her to sign my book with her signature. What I saw astrally was not what I expected. It’s almost an ink drawing but hidden deep on paper. It would move and collapse to form a sigil.
I thanked her and quietly gave the license to depart.
I remained in this state for a few minutes then had a very cold shower. It’s intense!!..
Here’s what the temple looked like afterwards
I was still unsure as to why she did not completely appear within the smoke. I decided to move the summoning to the east. She borders on being angelic,almost but not quite.
My ritual setup changed.
only the floor rug
a blue cloth with blue candles outside
Vessel with Copal Blanco from Mexico (great stuff…I believe this is what EA uses,not sure…bought 5lbs of it on ebay)(NOTE: a little of this stuff goes a long long way)
Walked around the circle sprinkling water as before. Performed the LBRP with my sword(even though I bought this sword years ago for the purpose of summoning and such, I felt that it should have a role in some way). Using the sword for the LBRP was intense. More power inside now then last night. Huge Flaming blue pentagrams everywhere.
I sat in front of the vessel, not more than three feet away. Throwing small tears inside perfuming the air again. The smoke was pure white and thick. My calling her name became more of a song which then turned into a hum,a long humming of her name.
What happened next was bizarre…I felt as though something moved straight through me in one swoop. It made me completely disoriented and staggered. I continued calling her as before…not stopping. Then I noticed the smoke attempting to move in a thin stream to the left of me. more smoke streams continued this way. Attempting to pull away in formation. My temple is completely air tight.
What followed then was what I can only say,using EA’s word…a rapture of sorts. My field of vision collapsed around me. This time everything, my field of vision darkened quickly. Before me, a group of purple and blue lights collapsing together so intense I was gapping my mouth. It sparkled and intensified. I felt as if something “divine” was before me. Once again, I saw her in my astral vision as always. I continued to call her name to get the intensity of the manifestation pronounced. Once again I saw her in a holographic format. We spoke to each other and then I gave the license to depart thanking her again. I loudly clapped my hands together to snap out of this trance(saw it on the video,works).
You would think that I would leave it at that but no. I had to know why she did not appear in the smoke. I scry her sigil again and had my notebook ready with one question: why did you not appear in the smoke?
I also did a simple three card tarot reading(Ive always done this and it simplifies the reading process to ones self when you need to understand an issue in your life,spiritual or mundane. why complicate it when less is more)
She explained to me that the phases of the moon are crucial to a manifestation where she is concerned. Makes sense…
she also took a hand in the reading and pulled out the prince of swords telling me mentally that she was with me. Cute…very cute